237.2 Yes. that is not a typo.
I didn't want to write it. I didn't want to see it and I don't want to admit it. After about 4 days off the scales I braved it this morning and the above was my reward. Or punishment rather. Really? Really? I'm in awe and amazement. I cannot believe how absurdly easy it is to gain weight. And no, I haven't been exactly counting calories, but I have been concious of my eating. You know how some days/weeks/ months you just don't care so don't worry about it and don't think about it. I'm not even there, yet the scale keeps climbing higher and higher.
Today a funny situation has brought it all into perspective. I was updating my quicken this morning, looking at recent charges on my amex and found a shockingly wrong charge. Earlier this week, in a moment of weakness, I was craving Taco Bell. So I went there and spent $7.27. If you know taco bell at all you know $7.27 buys a ridiculous amount of food. So yes, I binged. But I paid for it. Multiple times it seems. Today when I saw that charge, I was like - yes, that's right. But the very next charge was for Taco Bell, same day for $72.27. Um. NO. I binged, but I did not eat $72 dollars worth of tacos and chalupas. Now if Amex were to put me on a scale they may beg to differ.
So anyway, I called and disputed the charge and thankfully had the receipt for the proper charge, which they said would make things easier. The woman laughed when I told her there was no way I was eating $72 dollars worth of taco bell. But in reality - this is a good crazy sign. I mean no, I didn't go that overboard, but yes I have gone overboard. And it's time to get it in check.
I've not been quite as bad in the exercise department. I hit the gym on Friday and my own treadmill on Saturday and WILL be going today. But none of the exercises have been as long as I used to be able to go, so not burning as many calories. I know - it will take time. But at least I'm going. That's the first step.
Next is to be HONEST with what I'm putting in my mouth. I said I've been conscious of what I'm eating, but we all know that when we 'guesstimate' we often get it wrong - very wrong. So, starting today I'm back on sparkpeople, logging my calories. I had hoped to be under 220 by Oct. 1. Obviously that failed. New goal - back to 225 by Sept. 1. Ambitious goal, but there it is.
The other thing I've been thinking about (in a self pitious way) is how easy it is for some people to simply maintain their weight. I cannot. If I'm not trying I'm gaining. My husband has been a perfectly healthy 165 since the day I met him. He goes up or down a few pounds depending on the time of year (holidays vs. summertime) but generally there he is. he fits in the jeans he wore 15 years ago. Absurd. Why is it so easy for him?
I know genetics has a lot to do with it along with habits and cravings. But DAMN it sucks.
Oh well, I am who I am and have to deal with my body, my habits, and my cravings. It's just so hard sometimes.
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Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
No Socks!
233.2 (weekend weight - as usual)
I actually had really nice weekend. Friday night we had the boys sleepover. It was fine, but I know I don't want to have twins! Daniels two friends were 5 year old boy twins, and although very sweet considering, they were a handful! Erik and I just shook our head so many times this weekend. Its such a change for us to have more than one in the house. When it's just Daniel, he's usually hanging out with us or playing x-box with his dad or watching a cartoon on TV. When it's the 3 of them it's LOUD crazy screaming children. I'm sure this is normal in houses with more than one child, but we've been spoiled. They are good kids though, so although it was different, it wasn't all that bad.
It also helped that I dipped out Friday night and played poker with friends, leaving Erik to put the 3 of them to bed.
Saturday we went to a parade just down the street from our house for our local "founder's day" celebration. It was nice and the kids got lots of candy. Saturday afternoon and evening was dedicated to football. Boy did it suck! FSU played HORRIBLY against Wake Forest. I was so disappointed. This was the first televised game they've had and it was miserable. Our two new quarterbacks threw a combined 5 interceptions! FIVE. So bad. So that sucked.
Sunday was church, nap, TV, etc. It was Erik's birthday but since he had to leave town today he was running around a lot and we only celebrated a bit at the end of the night.
Today Erik leaves for Vegas for a week long seminar. I fly out on Thursday to meet him and come home on Monday. I'm SO looking forward to this. I love Vegas and we go out usually once a year, usually in June. We haven't made it out this year due to the wedding, but I'm glad we still get to go. We're staying at Bally's which is right across the street from Bellagio - my favorite hotel just because of the fountains out front. I'm very excited.
So today I had GREAT plans to hit the gym after work. I packed my bag and everything. Then I got here and was getting the bag out of the car and realized I forgot my socks. GRRRR. Now I can do weight training maybe without socks, but I definitely should not hit the treadmill without socks. That's the fastest way to a blister that would keep me off it for a week or more. So I'm mad at myself because I know I'm not motivated enough to work out at home, so I need this "at work" trip to keep me going.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day. I'll hit it then for sure.
Oh and by the way? Thank you notes suck. I've been dreading and procrastinating for weeks now, and it's getting bad. I need to get them out this week or it just looks really bad. I've only got about 35 or 40 to do - way less than the invitations I had to do - but I'm just dragging my feet for some reason. I will knock out at least half of them today. I swear!
I actually had really nice weekend. Friday night we had the boys sleepover. It was fine, but I know I don't want to have twins! Daniels two friends were 5 year old boy twins, and although very sweet considering, they were a handful! Erik and I just shook our head so many times this weekend. Its such a change for us to have more than one in the house. When it's just Daniel, he's usually hanging out with us or playing x-box with his dad or watching a cartoon on TV. When it's the 3 of them it's LOUD crazy screaming children. I'm sure this is normal in houses with more than one child, but we've been spoiled. They are good kids though, so although it was different, it wasn't all that bad.
It also helped that I dipped out Friday night and played poker with friends, leaving Erik to put the 3 of them to bed.
Saturday we went to a parade just down the street from our house for our local "founder's day" celebration. It was nice and the kids got lots of candy. Saturday afternoon and evening was dedicated to football. Boy did it suck! FSU played HORRIBLY against Wake Forest. I was so disappointed. This was the first televised game they've had and it was miserable. Our two new quarterbacks threw a combined 5 interceptions! FIVE. So bad. So that sucked.
Sunday was church, nap, TV, etc. It was Erik's birthday but since he had to leave town today he was running around a lot and we only celebrated a bit at the end of the night.
Today Erik leaves for Vegas for a week long seminar. I fly out on Thursday to meet him and come home on Monday. I'm SO looking forward to this. I love Vegas and we go out usually once a year, usually in June. We haven't made it out this year due to the wedding, but I'm glad we still get to go. We're staying at Bally's which is right across the street from Bellagio - my favorite hotel just because of the fountains out front. I'm very excited.
So today I had GREAT plans to hit the gym after work. I packed my bag and everything. Then I got here and was getting the bag out of the car and realized I forgot my socks. GRRRR. Now I can do weight training maybe without socks, but I definitely should not hit the treadmill without socks. That's the fastest way to a blister that would keep me off it for a week or more. So I'm mad at myself because I know I'm not motivated enough to work out at home, so I need this "at work" trip to keep me going.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day. I'll hit it then for sure.
Oh and by the way? Thank you notes suck. I've been dreading and procrastinating for weeks now, and it's getting bad. I need to get them out this week or it just looks really bad. I've only got about 35 or 40 to do - way less than the invitations I had to do - but I'm just dragging my feet for some reason. I will knock out at least half of them today. I swear!
Friday, May 30, 2008
Graduation!
216.8 (down a little bit more...)
FRIDAY
TGIF! I'm totally psyched about today. It started wonderfully at 5:00 am (believe it or not). Today was our last day of boot camp - for this session. We had our "post-test" and I totally improved a lot. Here's the stats:
Pre Test (May 9)
Push ups in 1 min: 0 regular, 18 facilitated (on knees)
Sit ups in 1 min: 25
Dips in 1 min: 19 regular (legs straight), 20 facilitated (legs bent)
1 mile run: 9:09 minutes
Post Test (Today)
Push ups in 1 min: 7 regular, 28 facilitated
Sit ups in 1 min: 32
Dips in 1 min: 20 regular, 30 facilitated
1 mile run: 8:34 minutes!
So, I shaved 35 seconds off my mile run, and added a whole bunch of strength. I'm lovin it! Especially since I haven't seen massive movement in the scale, which I know is due to my lack of commitment to the food plan. I'm hoping next month will be better on that front.
So now, we have our graduate party tonight. Our instructors are buying us each a drink (because supposedly we haven't drank all month. I doubt many stuck to it that religiously, though it would have been nice, I'm sure.)
But - before that I have a crazy day planned. I had made plans a month ago to see the Sex and the City premier with Holly and a couple other friends. She bought the tickets and we're going at the 10:45 showing tonight. Before that is the graduation party at 7:00 where I'll allow myself 2 drinks, since I'm driving to the movie.
Then earlier this week, I got an email from a young partner at my firm that she is organizing a "girls day out" with our female summer associates to go to the Sex and the City premier at 3:30 today. She wanted as many women attorneys as could to go and bond with our summers. So I asked Holly if she'd be totally pissed if I saw it early and then again with them. She completely understood. So I'm leaving work today at 3:00 to go see the movie. Then home to get ready for the party, then off to see it again. Crazy. but so fun.
I'm looking forward to this weekend. I think it'll be good for Erik & I. We've had a crazy month or so, and really haven't connected just the two of us much. Last weekend was Michigan trip, the weekend before that he had daniel, the weekend before that my mom was in town and the weekend before that I was in Panama City for bike-week. So this is our first weekend, just the two of us, in a long time. We need it. All is good, and I totally love this man, but I feel like we've not connected emotionally or physically very well in a while. I need me some Erik time.
So, our plans for the weekend - he's going with me to the graduation party, but not the movie (he doesn't get the SATC fascination). Tomorrow we're getting up early for a bonus workout for my boot camp (a recruiting measure b/w sessions). Then we're going to pick out tuxes and wedding bands. In the afternoon we're going to a high school graduation party for the son of a good friend of his. Then we might find somewhere to play poker together tomorrow night.
Sunday is church and working on the house. And probably work for me, since I have not accomplished much this week and have a project due Monday.
We have some plans, but I think it'll still be relaxing. Nice to be with just him and me.
Then Monday starts Boot Camp - Month 2. Another "pre-test" I'm sure, then off and running trying to improve even more. I'm excited!
FRIDAY
TGIF! I'm totally psyched about today. It started wonderfully at 5:00 am (believe it or not). Today was our last day of boot camp - for this session. We had our "post-test" and I totally improved a lot. Here's the stats:
Pre Test (May 9)
Push ups in 1 min: 0 regular, 18 facilitated (on knees)
Sit ups in 1 min: 25
Dips in 1 min: 19 regular (legs straight), 20 facilitated (legs bent)
1 mile run: 9:09 minutes
Post Test (Today)
Push ups in 1 min: 7 regular, 28 facilitated
Sit ups in 1 min: 32
Dips in 1 min: 20 regular, 30 facilitated
1 mile run: 8:34 minutes!
So, I shaved 35 seconds off my mile run, and added a whole bunch of strength. I'm lovin it! Especially since I haven't seen massive movement in the scale, which I know is due to my lack of commitment to the food plan. I'm hoping next month will be better on that front.
So now, we have our graduate party tonight. Our instructors are buying us each a drink (because supposedly we haven't drank all month. I doubt many stuck to it that religiously, though it would have been nice, I'm sure.)
But - before that I have a crazy day planned. I had made plans a month ago to see the Sex and the City premier with Holly and a couple other friends. She bought the tickets and we're going at the 10:45 showing tonight. Before that is the graduation party at 7:00 where I'll allow myself 2 drinks, since I'm driving to the movie.
Then earlier this week, I got an email from a young partner at my firm that she is organizing a "girls day out" with our female summer associates to go to the Sex and the City premier at 3:30 today. She wanted as many women attorneys as could to go and bond with our summers. So I asked Holly if she'd be totally pissed if I saw it early and then again with them. She completely understood. So I'm leaving work today at 3:00 to go see the movie. Then home to get ready for the party, then off to see it again. Crazy. but so fun.
I'm looking forward to this weekend. I think it'll be good for Erik & I. We've had a crazy month or so, and really haven't connected just the two of us much. Last weekend was Michigan trip, the weekend before that he had daniel, the weekend before that my mom was in town and the weekend before that I was in Panama City for bike-week. So this is our first weekend, just the two of us, in a long time. We need it. All is good, and I totally love this man, but I feel like we've not connected emotionally or physically very well in a while. I need me some Erik time.
So, our plans for the weekend - he's going with me to the graduation party, but not the movie (he doesn't get the SATC fascination). Tomorrow we're getting up early for a bonus workout for my boot camp (a recruiting measure b/w sessions). Then we're going to pick out tuxes and wedding bands. In the afternoon we're going to a high school graduation party for the son of a good friend of his. Then we might find somewhere to play poker together tomorrow night.
Sunday is church and working on the house. And probably work for me, since I have not accomplished much this week and have a project due Monday.
We have some plans, but I think it'll still be relaxing. Nice to be with just him and me.
Then Monday starts Boot Camp - Month 2. Another "pre-test" I'm sure, then off and running trying to improve even more. I'm excited!
Monday, May 19, 2008
And the Beat Goes On...
215.6
MONDAY
Another week! And going to be a busy one at that. Today I'm prepping witnesses for federal gran jury testimony tomorrow and Wednesday. Thursday looks chill right now, but Friday Erik, Daniel and I are flying to Michigan for a short vacation over memorial day. Busy busy.
Good weekend overall with just a few stumbles. Yes, Friday night I was "ok". I ended up going out and had 2 beers and an "ok" dinner. But Saturday ROCKED. I ate just as I was supposed to and got a lot done including, watching Daniel's final baseball game, grocery shopping, laundry (including sheets!) AND I run 4.25 miles. Not bad. I was thus rewarded with a 213.8 on the scale Sunday morning. Very nice. My first "213" yet, even if it was a "barely".
Yesterday wasn't bad, but ended not so good. We went to church, then I had to bill some hours for work getting a memo done that I wasn't going to have time to finish this week. I got it done, though, and that's what matters. I was absolutely starving all day, though. I think in part because I had such a low cal day on Saturday. I did good with my choices until about 7:00 pm. Erik had been out running errands, and I was craving food not in my house, so we ended up going to mexican. I didn't go crazy (i.e. margarita's and queso dip) but did, of course eat mexican - which is never good. Thus the scale this morning. Which isn't too bad considering. I'm happy that my "high days" still have me down a good solid 10lbs.
This morning's boot camp was nice, even with the "encouragement" I had to endure. We did sprints along with some strength exercises. I can definitely tell that I'm getting stronger. I can do way more push-ups (yes, on my knees) than I could before. Maybe soon I'll graduate to the "real" ones.
This Thursday is "friends and family" day for boot camp and Erik is ridiculously excited, even if he won't admit it. He even got up this morning at about 5:30 and ran on our treadmill. Something he hasn't done for at least a couple weeks. It's too cute. I think he's really worried he'll look like such a wimp. In reality, there is such a broad range of fitness abilities, that he will be fine, but I'm kinda liking his stressing about it. It's cute.
So I've completed 8 days of the boot camp. It's supposed to be 18 total, but I missed the first two, so for me it's 16. Meaning I'm half way through. I'm pleased with my progress, though I need to keep up better with the food choices to ensure the best results. I'd love to lose 30 lbs in the next 3 1/2 months, but realistically, if I see under 200 before the wedding, I'll feel like a great success.
I can DO it!
MONDAY
Another week! And going to be a busy one at that. Today I'm prepping witnesses for federal gran jury testimony tomorrow and Wednesday. Thursday looks chill right now, but Friday Erik, Daniel and I are flying to Michigan for a short vacation over memorial day. Busy busy.
Good weekend overall with just a few stumbles. Yes, Friday night I was "ok". I ended up going out and had 2 beers and an "ok" dinner. But Saturday ROCKED. I ate just as I was supposed to and got a lot done including, watching Daniel's final baseball game, grocery shopping, laundry (including sheets!) AND I run 4.25 miles. Not bad. I was thus rewarded with a 213.8 on the scale Sunday morning. Very nice. My first "213" yet, even if it was a "barely".
Yesterday wasn't bad, but ended not so good. We went to church, then I had to bill some hours for work getting a memo done that I wasn't going to have time to finish this week. I got it done, though, and that's what matters. I was absolutely starving all day, though. I think in part because I had such a low cal day on Saturday. I did good with my choices until about 7:00 pm. Erik had been out running errands, and I was craving food not in my house, so we ended up going to mexican. I didn't go crazy (i.e. margarita's and queso dip) but did, of course eat mexican - which is never good. Thus the scale this morning. Which isn't too bad considering. I'm happy that my "high days" still have me down a good solid 10lbs.
This morning's boot camp was nice, even with the "encouragement" I had to endure. We did sprints along with some strength exercises. I can definitely tell that I'm getting stronger. I can do way more push-ups (yes, on my knees) than I could before. Maybe soon I'll graduate to the "real" ones.
This Thursday is "friends and family" day for boot camp and Erik is ridiculously excited, even if he won't admit it. He even got up this morning at about 5:30 and ran on our treadmill. Something he hasn't done for at least a couple weeks. It's too cute. I think he's really worried he'll look like such a wimp. In reality, there is such a broad range of fitness abilities, that he will be fine, but I'm kinda liking his stressing about it. It's cute.
So I've completed 8 days of the boot camp. It's supposed to be 18 total, but I missed the first two, so for me it's 16. Meaning I'm half way through. I'm pleased with my progress, though I need to keep up better with the food choices to ensure the best results. I'd love to lose 30 lbs in the next 3 1/2 months, but realistically, if I see under 200 before the wedding, I'll feel like a great success.
I can DO it!
Friday, May 16, 2008
Bam! Off the Wagon...
217.4 (see title)
FRIDAY
Ok, so I fell. Hard. Yesterday was a crazy hectic day after 12:00 pm. I was running around with a partner on a new case that is really cool and exciting, but really stressful too. I didn't get a good snack in for the afternoon, and then Erik & I decided to go out to Y-knots for poker. We haven't been out for a while with family obligations and all. So, I fell. Hard. I got to Y-knots tired, stressed and hungry. I.e. recipe for a major beer craving. Now, excluding my trip to Panama City to see my family, I haven't drank in a month. This from a girl that probably put away about 15 or so beers a week. At least. So, I was craving hard, and I totally gave in. Course giving into the bucket of beer (to share with Erik!) quickly led to giving into bad food choices for dinner - i.e. buffalo chicken fingers, tater tots & ranch. Grrr. Why? So not necessary.
So all in all I had 3 1/2 beers (including one once we got home). And yes, I was definitely tipsy from them. But I did get to sleep by 10:30. So I did make it to boot camp this morning after all, even if I was feeling a bit tired. Good work out - didn't feel like it at first, but got into it after the warm up.
Today I've still not crawled up on the wagon. I'm such a creature of habit that when my routine gets messed up, I lose it. This morning I had a dentist appointment at 9:00 am. I got an email from the partner I'm working with at 7:00 am this morning asking my to drop by when I get in to discuss some projects. I emailed him and subsequently talked to him on the phone about my dentist appointment but bottom line, I ended up rushing into work after getting my tooth drilled. I had a small snack after my work out at 6:30 am, but didn't want to eat before my dentist appointment. Then I was all numb afterwards, and didn't want to try to eat with half my face not working, so I didn't end up getting lunch till about 1:00 pm. When I was ravenously hungry and ended up getting a chick-fil-a sandwich AND a Moe's naked burrito AND tortilla chips from our cafeteria downstairs. Who eats like this? I figured maybe I could be strong and not eat the chips, which came with the Moe's order (thus I didn't intentionally purchase that much food...). But no - I have no will power. I used to be smart enough to just say - "no chips please". Why didn't I do that today? Because I secretly knew I'd eat every one of those chips and enjoy it.
So now it's 3:00 pm and I'm full, bloated, blah feeling. Not at all the "program" I'm supposed to be on with 5-6 small meals. I don't feel like eating again at all today, though I'm sure that'll change in a few hours, knowing me. Uck.
On top of that Erik & I got into an emotional discussion last night (after my 3 1/2 beers) about my weight issues, self esteem issues, body issues, etc., and how I didn't feel like he was really noticing all the hard work I was doing. It's all worked out, though. Bottom line is he's just not a strong communicator, and though I know he loves me and finds me attractive, he doesn't say it much because that's just him. He promised to work on it and I promised to try to not get emotional again too soon.. Lol.
So yeah, the last 24 hours have kinda sucked.
And now I'm looking at a weekend where I'm definitely going to have to work. I've had a project I've been futzing around with that is due Monday and I haven't been able to work on it the last two days with this new case. So I need to buckle down and work on that this afternoon. Get as much done as possible so I'm not stuck with too much this weekend.
Good news is we have no social plans this weekend except a poker game Sunday night. At a friends house, not at a bar, so no temptations should exist. I should definitely be able to get in some exercise, and most importantly considering my emotional state - some sleep. I WILL be sleeping in tomorrow, and loving every minute of it.
That's about it - ah the life of a lawyer-bride. :-)
FRIDAY
Ok, so I fell. Hard. Yesterday was a crazy hectic day after 12:00 pm. I was running around with a partner on a new case that is really cool and exciting, but really stressful too. I didn't get a good snack in for the afternoon, and then Erik & I decided to go out to Y-knots for poker. We haven't been out for a while with family obligations and all. So, I fell. Hard. I got to Y-knots tired, stressed and hungry. I.e. recipe for a major beer craving. Now, excluding my trip to Panama City to see my family, I haven't drank in a month. This from a girl that probably put away about 15 or so beers a week. At least. So, I was craving hard, and I totally gave in. Course giving into the bucket of beer (to share with Erik!) quickly led to giving into bad food choices for dinner - i.e. buffalo chicken fingers, tater tots & ranch. Grrr. Why? So not necessary.
So all in all I had 3 1/2 beers (including one once we got home). And yes, I was definitely tipsy from them. But I did get to sleep by 10:30. So I did make it to boot camp this morning after all, even if I was feeling a bit tired. Good work out - didn't feel like it at first, but got into it after the warm up.
Today I've still not crawled up on the wagon. I'm such a creature of habit that when my routine gets messed up, I lose it. This morning I had a dentist appointment at 9:00 am. I got an email from the partner I'm working with at 7:00 am this morning asking my to drop by when I get in to discuss some projects. I emailed him and subsequently talked to him on the phone about my dentist appointment but bottom line, I ended up rushing into work after getting my tooth drilled. I had a small snack after my work out at 6:30 am, but didn't want to eat before my dentist appointment. Then I was all numb afterwards, and didn't want to try to eat with half my face not working, so I didn't end up getting lunch till about 1:00 pm. When I was ravenously hungry and ended up getting a chick-fil-a sandwich AND a Moe's naked burrito AND tortilla chips from our cafeteria downstairs. Who eats like this? I figured maybe I could be strong and not eat the chips, which came with the Moe's order (thus I didn't intentionally purchase that much food...). But no - I have no will power. I used to be smart enough to just say - "no chips please". Why didn't I do that today? Because I secretly knew I'd eat every one of those chips and enjoy it.
So now it's 3:00 pm and I'm full, bloated, blah feeling. Not at all the "program" I'm supposed to be on with 5-6 small meals. I don't feel like eating again at all today, though I'm sure that'll change in a few hours, knowing me. Uck.
On top of that Erik & I got into an emotional discussion last night (after my 3 1/2 beers) about my weight issues, self esteem issues, body issues, etc., and how I didn't feel like he was really noticing all the hard work I was doing. It's all worked out, though. Bottom line is he's just not a strong communicator, and though I know he loves me and finds me attractive, he doesn't say it much because that's just him. He promised to work on it and I promised to try to not get emotional again too soon.. Lol.
So yeah, the last 24 hours have kinda sucked.
And now I'm looking at a weekend where I'm definitely going to have to work. I've had a project I've been futzing around with that is due Monday and I haven't been able to work on it the last two days with this new case. So I need to buckle down and work on that this afternoon. Get as much done as possible so I'm not stuck with too much this weekend.
Good news is we have no social plans this weekend except a poker game Sunday night. At a friends house, not at a bar, so no temptations should exist. I should definitely be able to get in some exercise, and most importantly considering my emotional state - some sleep. I WILL be sleeping in tomorrow, and loving every minute of it.
That's about it - ah the life of a lawyer-bride. :-)
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Boot Camp! Yes!
217.0 (better, but it will be up tomorrow - I promise! see below).
WEDNESDAY
Well, I did it. I committed. I gave $325. And now I'm stuck. Getting up at 5:30 am every morning for a month - maybe 4. I'm actually really excited. I talked to one of the leaders of the boot camp, Lynn, yesterday for a while, and decided this is what I need to do. Basically they kick my ass every day, Monday through Friday, with 2 exceptions (today being one) for 4 weeks. They also give you a "food journal" that they expect you to write in every day, and they check back every morning. She gave me the impression that if you slack on the food, they "punish" you with more exercises. So that's good incentive. Also, apparently on Friday morning I will be doing a "pre-test" PT test that everyone else did on Monday. I have to run 1 mile, do 1 minute of push ups and 1 minute of dips. Ok - running - no sweat. I won't be as fast as I'd like to I'm sure, but I can run one mile no worries. Sit ups? I'll live. I can do them, though I'm sure not as many as I should. But dips? You mean, unassisted dips? Good luck. I've done "assisted dips" at the gym with that cool machine that adds weight resistance to help you do it. I usually have to use almost all the weight to get it done. There's no way I'll be able to "dip" my whole body weight, even once. I mean really. No chance. So I guess after 3 1/2 weeks if I can do one, that's a huge improvement.
I'm actually really excited. Of course Holly and Erik think I'm crazy. Holly's one of those that never has to diet and hasn't exercised since forced to in high school. Erik just thinks I'm crazy for spending so much to have someone yell at me. Course he did real boot camp in the Navy and thinks it's "no big deal". Baby, I said, that was 15 YEARS AGO. He said, oh - wow - you're right.
Something else funny about Erik. Last night he had a Kiwanis meeting after work so he didn't get home till about 9:00 pm. I was watching a movie (27 dresses - very cute!) and he came in and started putting on tennis shoes. Now Erik is about 6'0" and weighs about 160. Or so I thought. Either way he's very thin and has never regularly worked out since I met him. He supports me, but has never really had to. Apparently, recently, his pants have been getting a bit snug though. So last night he decided to hit the treadmill. He did 3 miles, in about 35 minutes, which is REALLY slow for him, and then wandered around the house grunting and groaning like he'd done a marathon, for about 20 minutes. It was too funny. Of course I had no sympathy as I've been doing that for months/years now. But he hates it. He's actually really vain about his appearance, though it seems effortless. So the fact that he's gained 10 lbs is really hitting him hard. I think it's cute. I mean this boy could put on 20 more lbs and look totally healthy. But I guess I'll never having to worry about him getting too chunky...
So - we're off tomorrow for this exciting adventure of boot camp. I'm ridiculously excited about it, though I'm sure tomorrow morning when the alarm goes off I'll be a little less chipper. I'm actually going 30 minutes early tomorrow and friday. Tomorrow so that I can get oriented, my food journal, meet everyone, etc. Friday to do my Pre-test. Then I should be caught up with the group.
I'm really curious about what type of other people will be there. The lady I spoke with said there's about 20 in the class. I'm curious if they are younger, older? fitness buffs or needing to lose weight like me? Who knows. I'll report tomorrow!
Oh - and I'm being TOTALLY bad today knowing that I'm going to be "on the wagon" from here on out. yes - that means McDonald's for breakfast and Mexican for lunch with Holly. Yum!
WEDNESDAY
Well, I did it. I committed. I gave $325. And now I'm stuck. Getting up at 5:30 am every morning for a month - maybe 4. I'm actually really excited. I talked to one of the leaders of the boot camp, Lynn, yesterday for a while, and decided this is what I need to do. Basically they kick my ass every day, Monday through Friday, with 2 exceptions (today being one) for 4 weeks. They also give you a "food journal" that they expect you to write in every day, and they check back every morning. She gave me the impression that if you slack on the food, they "punish" you with more exercises. So that's good incentive. Also, apparently on Friday morning I will be doing a "pre-test" PT test that everyone else did on Monday. I have to run 1 mile, do 1 minute of push ups and 1 minute of dips. Ok - running - no sweat. I won't be as fast as I'd like to I'm sure, but I can run one mile no worries. Sit ups? I'll live. I can do them, though I'm sure not as many as I should. But dips? You mean, unassisted dips? Good luck. I've done "assisted dips" at the gym with that cool machine that adds weight resistance to help you do it. I usually have to use almost all the weight to get it done. There's no way I'll be able to "dip" my whole body weight, even once. I mean really. No chance. So I guess after 3 1/2 weeks if I can do one, that's a huge improvement.
I'm actually really excited. Of course Holly and Erik think I'm crazy. Holly's one of those that never has to diet and hasn't exercised since forced to in high school. Erik just thinks I'm crazy for spending so much to have someone yell at me. Course he did real boot camp in the Navy and thinks it's "no big deal". Baby, I said, that was 15 YEARS AGO. He said, oh - wow - you're right.
Something else funny about Erik. Last night he had a Kiwanis meeting after work so he didn't get home till about 9:00 pm. I was watching a movie (27 dresses - very cute!) and he came in and started putting on tennis shoes. Now Erik is about 6'0" and weighs about 160. Or so I thought. Either way he's very thin and has never regularly worked out since I met him. He supports me, but has never really had to. Apparently, recently, his pants have been getting a bit snug though. So last night he decided to hit the treadmill. He did 3 miles, in about 35 minutes, which is REALLY slow for him, and then wandered around the house grunting and groaning like he'd done a marathon, for about 20 minutes. It was too funny. Of course I had no sympathy as I've been doing that for months/years now. But he hates it. He's actually really vain about his appearance, though it seems effortless. So the fact that he's gained 10 lbs is really hitting him hard. I think it's cute. I mean this boy could put on 20 more lbs and look totally healthy. But I guess I'll never having to worry about him getting too chunky...
So - we're off tomorrow for this exciting adventure of boot camp. I'm ridiculously excited about it, though I'm sure tomorrow morning when the alarm goes off I'll be a little less chipper. I'm actually going 30 minutes early tomorrow and friday. Tomorrow so that I can get oriented, my food journal, meet everyone, etc. Friday to do my Pre-test. Then I should be caught up with the group.
I'm really curious about what type of other people will be there. The lady I spoke with said there's about 20 in the class. I'm curious if they are younger, older? fitness buffs or needing to lose weight like me? Who knows. I'll report tomorrow!
Oh - and I'm being TOTALLY bad today knowing that I'm going to be "on the wagon" from here on out. yes - that means McDonald's for breakfast and Mexican for lunch with Holly. Yum!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Report Card
217.2
TUESDAY
Well I was "almost" perfect yesterday. I did go home and, after laying on the bed and whining to erik that I didn't want to do anything, I dragged my lazy ass out of bed and got on the treadmill. And - of course - I'm thrilled I did. I decided to try something different. I covered up the stats on the treadmill with a towel and just ran. I promised myself I would run for 6 songs before I looked at where I was. I roughly guesstimated that would be 20 mins or so and 2 miles or so. All went well till Erik popped in to see how it was going. So we "peaked" at about 1.14 miles (mid-way through song 4). Then song 5 was a Justin Timberlake song I downloaded that was like 7 minutes long! I got through about 3:30 then had to click next.
All in all, I peaked about mid song 6 to see I'd just crossed over the 2 mile mark. The goal was to do 3 miles straight - running - without walking. So the last mile I totally had to focus and do the countdown..."8 minutes left, 8 minutes left, 8 minutes left, 7 and a half minutes left, 7 and a half minute left," etc. You get the point. It was tough - but hell yeah I did it! 3 miles ran in 30:30. Awesome. Of course no incline, so that time would be much higher on real roads, but still. It's been a LONG while since I ran 3 miles straight.
I finished it out with a quarter mile walk for a total of 35 minutes and 557 calories burned. Very nice.
For dinner I had a success as well. After my run Erik & I were talking and he said "I want Pizza." Eww. I said. Yes, I actually said Eww to pizza. Don't know where that came from. Turns out he didn't really want pizza so much as he just wanted to stay home and not cook. So I made us both tuna fish sandwiches with light potato chips for dinner. Not bad.
I didn't have my 1200 calorie day unless you subtract the 500 calories I burned. I ended up scoring about 1750. But all was logged in sparkpeople. And I did see a little lower number on the scale today.
Still have some work to do by Thursday to avoid a gain, but we're solidly in the 217 area now, so that's better than a few weeks ago.
Here's to progress!
TUESDAY
Well I was "almost" perfect yesterday. I did go home and, after laying on the bed and whining to erik that I didn't want to do anything, I dragged my lazy ass out of bed and got on the treadmill. And - of course - I'm thrilled I did. I decided to try something different. I covered up the stats on the treadmill with a towel and just ran. I promised myself I would run for 6 songs before I looked at where I was. I roughly guesstimated that would be 20 mins or so and 2 miles or so. All went well till Erik popped in to see how it was going. So we "peaked" at about 1.14 miles (mid-way through song 4). Then song 5 was a Justin Timberlake song I downloaded that was like 7 minutes long! I got through about 3:30 then had to click next.
All in all, I peaked about mid song 6 to see I'd just crossed over the 2 mile mark. The goal was to do 3 miles straight - running - without walking. So the last mile I totally had to focus and do the countdown..."8 minutes left, 8 minutes left, 8 minutes left, 7 and a half minutes left, 7 and a half minute left," etc. You get the point. It was tough - but hell yeah I did it! 3 miles ran in 30:30. Awesome. Of course no incline, so that time would be much higher on real roads, but still. It's been a LONG while since I ran 3 miles straight.
I finished it out with a quarter mile walk for a total of 35 minutes and 557 calories burned. Very nice.
For dinner I had a success as well. After my run Erik & I were talking and he said "I want Pizza." Eww. I said. Yes, I actually said Eww to pizza. Don't know where that came from. Turns out he didn't really want pizza so much as he just wanted to stay home and not cook. So I made us both tuna fish sandwiches with light potato chips for dinner. Not bad.
I didn't have my 1200 calorie day unless you subtract the 500 calories I burned. I ended up scoring about 1750. But all was logged in sparkpeople. And I did see a little lower number on the scale today.
Still have some work to do by Thursday to avoid a gain, but we're solidly in the 217 area now, so that's better than a few weeks ago.
Here's to progress!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
ENGAGED!
Last WI: 224.8/At Home: 223.8
SATURDAY
Well it's been a crazy couple weeks! Last weekend Erik & I, along with 6 other friends went to Tunica, MS for a casino/poker weekend. I had a lot of fun and did really well, though didn't make the big money. I played in a $550 tournament on Friday night that won me a $7500 seat in the "big" tournament on Sunday. In that tournament I got 38th out of 180. Unfortunately, they only paid out to 18th place. But, considering I was playing with mostly pros, I did very well and was very pleased with myself. That said, it would have been nice to cash as 18th paid $12K and 1st paid $450K. Oh well, there's always next year.
We got home on Monday, and then on Wednesday night Erik proposed!!! It was so funny. Turns out he picked up the ring the thursday before on the way to Tunica and had planned to do it in Tunica. He even scheduled a fancy dinner for us, that we ended up missing since we misunderstood the closing time of the restaurant. So, since he couldn't do it last weekend, he decided to do it at the location of our first date - Chaps. He totally surprised me, which is something I didn't think he could do knowing that it was coming sometime in the next few months. Anyway, I came by after work, we played poker with all our friends, and turns out I did really well that night. He had planned on doing it when I went out of the poker tournament, but I ended up getting 3rd. So he did it as we were paying our tab. Course by this time, the place was pretty empty, but that's ok, it was very sweet. He totally shocked me. Dana, his closest friend, was there running the poker show and knew it was coming, but other than that he kept it a total secret. So funny and sweet. I'm so happy.
So above is a very blurry picture of the ring taken from my camera phone. I still need to sit down and upload a nice one with my digital camera.
So Thursday I did very little at work, even though I am SWAMPED. I billed two hours, then Holly came up and we had lunch and looked at bride magazines and talked about locations the rest of the day. I think she's more excited than me! Course she just finished her wedding, so she's probably in withdrawal. Of course Thursday night I got an email on my blackberry saying EMERGENCY EMERGENCY the next 8 days will be hell and we need everyone to work major hours to get a project done by 2/1. So, after 24 hours of wedding talk and excitement, I've had to put it aside and work my butt off. I billed 14 hours yesterday and am sitting at work now (taking a much needed brain break). I expect to bill at least 10, hopefully 12 or 13 hours today. Tomorrow I'm taking a short break to go to church and look at a few houses that we'd scheduled with the realtor, then going to try to bill at least 6 hours. Monday - Friday look like 12-14 hours days. Then hopefully next weekend I can veg, and enjoy being a bride!
As for the wedding, there still lots to think about as far as a date, but we're talking about August/September, possibly labor day weekend if we can find a location we like that isn't booked. Who knows - can't think about it for 6 more days.
So that's me excitement! WOO HOO. Finally I'm a bride. At least for 7 or so months! :-)
Oh - and now I think I FINALLY got the motivation to do what I need to WW-wise. Since Erik proposed, I've been diligently tracking my points and making good choices. No exercise, as work has limited that, but after this emergency passes, I expect to get back to that too. I'm giving myself 2 months to lose as much as I can before I start looking at wedding dresses. I'm EXCITED!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Alcohol is the Devil
Don't ask
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
New Year, Same old Goals...
Last WI: 220.6/At Home WI: 224.0 (ick!)
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
Friday, December 14, 2007
2 1/2 Year Anniversary?
Last WI: 222.2/At Home WI: ????
FRIDAY
So I couldn't do it. I couldn't get on the scale this morning and see it creep up again. I've had a horrible week WW-wise and have been letting the scale creep way to rapidly. I keep doing really well reigning it in during the day and then I get home and kill it. Last night it was 5 beers and sun chips while playing wii with erik after a very mediocre dinner at his Kiwanis club holiday party. Boo. So not necessary to drink 5 beers while playing wii on a Thursday night. The only good news is that I actually had to "move" to play the wii. With the exception of guitar hero which I played for about an hour sitting down (darn devil on medium - can't beat him!) I have to actually stand and move to play all the other games. Erik and I did a lot of bowling, which I totally stomped him at. Not exactly aerobic exercise, but at least it's movement.
On a relationship note, last Sunday was our "two and a half year" anniversary. Odd anniversary to consider, but it actually had significance. In June, at our "two year" anniversary, I expressed my desire to Erik to be engaged in the next six months. I felt like we'd been together a long while and it was time. He has repeatedly expressed to me his desire to marry me, but he has financial issues right now that have been holding him back. Namely - he owns two houses he cannot sell and cannot afford to keep anymore. The first one we live in, and the other was built as a "flip" but hasn't "flipped" So now he's stuck with two expensive houses in a down market. After many months of debate and discussion, he finally agreed with my recommendation to just file bankruptcy and be done with it. He, like most men, have a lot of pride, and really wanted to find a way out. But after 18 months of having the houses on the market a borrowing more to make the payments, he's in over the point where there's any likelihood of getting out. Plus he's got some significant other debt from a failed business he had with his last wife. Over all, bankruptcy is a great solution. He gets to wipe it all clean, start fresh, and build a good life. He makes good money, and between the two of us, we'd be able to really save a lot if he didn't have all these debt obligations.
So anyway, all talks of marriage have been along the lines of "when I sell these houses". Well, we've finally determined he is not going to sell them. There just isn't that strong a market for 300K+ houses right now. So he's going to give them back. He's hired a lawyer, and he's set to file this month (at least that's the plan...hopefully it will happen). So, understandably, he's not bought me a ring yet, and last Sunday was the informal deadline I'd given him. About 6 weeks ago, when we met with the lawyer and made out the plan, in my mind I'd given him something of a furlough. I knew he wouldn't be able to afford a ring during the pending bankruptcy so I basically decided to give him another 6 months. It's all for the best, and I certainly didn't want to marry into all those financial issues anyway. So, I kinda forgot about Dec. 9th and a significant day.
So when he surprised me Sunday night with flowers and jewelry, he made me very happy. Erik is SOOOOOO not a romantic, emotional type guy. Probably one of the only major issues I have with him. He has a REALLY hard time expressing himself. But he did really well and basically totally surprised me. We had been playing wii and hanging out and I had just gotten ready for bed when he went down to the car and got the flowers and jewelry box. He told me that he really wants to marry me and when he can get the money he hopes buy me a an engagement ring I deserve. He gave me a very cute bracelet with dolphins and a ring with dolphins. On a sad note - my finger was too fat for the ring - surprise surprise. It's sad how weight even effects these special moments. He promised to get it sized and I hope he does. (he's a bit forgetful at times).
So anyway, I'm not engaged. I hope to be soon, but don't really see it happening till February at the earliest, probably April or May. But that's ok. As long as I know he's committed to me, there's no rush to get married since I'm not ready for kids yet.
So today I'm trying, once again, to reign in the eating. I've already eaten the lunch I brought, which is never a good sign. But I have 11 points left for the day. I also plan to hit the treadmill tonight. I haven't been on it since Monday - very bad with no excuse. No real plans for tonight. I'm probably going to be tempted to go out, but I should stay home. We'll see. This weekend it looks like I'll be stuck at work, at least one day, so that kinda sucks, but I'll deal.
Today my car is at the dealer getting its 30,000 mile service. I bought my dream car in February 2006 - a Lexus IS 250. But man is service expensive. This one's going to be close to $500 since it's a "big" one, whatever that means.
That's about it.
FRIDAY
So I couldn't do it. I couldn't get on the scale this morning and see it creep up again. I've had a horrible week WW-wise and have been letting the scale creep way to rapidly. I keep doing really well reigning it in during the day and then I get home and kill it. Last night it was 5 beers and sun chips while playing wii with erik after a very mediocre dinner at his Kiwanis club holiday party. Boo. So not necessary to drink 5 beers while playing wii on a Thursday night. The only good news is that I actually had to "move" to play the wii. With the exception of guitar hero which I played for about an hour sitting down (darn devil on medium - can't beat him!) I have to actually stand and move to play all the other games. Erik and I did a lot of bowling, which I totally stomped him at. Not exactly aerobic exercise, but at least it's movement.
On a relationship note, last Sunday was our "two and a half year" anniversary. Odd anniversary to consider, but it actually had significance. In June, at our "two year" anniversary, I expressed my desire to Erik to be engaged in the next six months. I felt like we'd been together a long while and it was time. He has repeatedly expressed to me his desire to marry me, but he has financial issues right now that have been holding him back. Namely - he owns two houses he cannot sell and cannot afford to keep anymore. The first one we live in, and the other was built as a "flip" but hasn't "flipped" So now he's stuck with two expensive houses in a down market. After many months of debate and discussion, he finally agreed with my recommendation to just file bankruptcy and be done with it. He, like most men, have a lot of pride, and really wanted to find a way out. But after 18 months of having the houses on the market a borrowing more to make the payments, he's in over the point where there's any likelihood of getting out. Plus he's got some significant other debt from a failed business he had with his last wife. Over all, bankruptcy is a great solution. He gets to wipe it all clean, start fresh, and build a good life. He makes good money, and between the two of us, we'd be able to really save a lot if he didn't have all these debt obligations.
So anyway, all talks of marriage have been along the lines of "when I sell these houses". Well, we've finally determined he is not going to sell them. There just isn't that strong a market for 300K+ houses right now. So he's going to give them back. He's hired a lawyer, and he's set to file this month (at least that's the plan...hopefully it will happen). So, understandably, he's not bought me a ring yet, and last Sunday was the informal deadline I'd given him. About 6 weeks ago, when we met with the lawyer and made out the plan, in my mind I'd given him something of a furlough. I knew he wouldn't be able to afford a ring during the pending bankruptcy so I basically decided to give him another 6 months. It's all for the best, and I certainly didn't want to marry into all those financial issues anyway. So, I kinda forgot about Dec. 9th and a significant day.
So when he surprised me Sunday night with flowers and jewelry, he made me very happy. Erik is SOOOOOO not a romantic, emotional type guy. Probably one of the only major issues I have with him. He has a REALLY hard time expressing himself. But he did really well and basically totally surprised me. We had been playing wii and hanging out and I had just gotten ready for bed when he went down to the car and got the flowers and jewelry box. He told me that he really wants to marry me and when he can get the money he hopes buy me a an engagement ring I deserve. He gave me a very cute bracelet with dolphins and a ring with dolphins. On a sad note - my finger was too fat for the ring - surprise surprise. It's sad how weight even effects these special moments. He promised to get it sized and I hope he does. (he's a bit forgetful at times).
So anyway, I'm not engaged. I hope to be soon, but don't really see it happening till February at the earliest, probably April or May. But that's ok. As long as I know he's committed to me, there's no rush to get married since I'm not ready for kids yet.
So today I'm trying, once again, to reign in the eating. I've already eaten the lunch I brought, which is never a good sign. But I have 11 points left for the day. I also plan to hit the treadmill tonight. I haven't been on it since Monday - very bad with no excuse. No real plans for tonight. I'm probably going to be tempted to go out, but I should stay home. We'll see. This weekend it looks like I'll be stuck at work, at least one day, so that kinda sucks, but I'll deal.
Today my car is at the dealer getting its 30,000 mile service. I bought my dream car in February 2006 - a Lexus IS 250. But man is service expensive. This one's going to be close to $500 since it's a "big" one, whatever that means.
That's about it.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
14+ Billable Hours in One Day
Last WI: 222.2/At Home WI: 222.8 (yep, that's right)
Wednesday
Well, yesterday was hell. I got up and went to work as usual. I'm working on a big case that has several co-defendants with their own attorneys, so we have what's called a "joint defense team". Oh and we're sprawled all across the country. So, we have a big filing due on Tuesday and all the associates from the various firms are here this week to finalize this document. All was fine yesterday morning, but by the end of the day things got a bit snippy. This morning? Even worse. The words "I'm not trying to pick a fight with you but..." have been uttered. Me? I've sort of came onto this case late, so I'm mostly just assisting with this project so have been sitting quietly during the bickering and letting our other associate handle it. Amusing. So the painful part came when I had to be here till after 11:00 last night finalizing this document and escorting it to secretarial support to do some formatting changes. Let me rephrase. I stayed to finalize that "draft" as it stood yesterday. This is a three day meeting with more changes expected today.
Anway, being at the office for 14 + hours is not conducive to good eating. I did slip out about 7:00 to grab dinner at a local sushi restaurant. Normally a good choice, but of course I ordered way more than I needed and topped it off with a bag of m&m's at the office at 9:00 pm. No exercise, needless to say, and I was back in the office thie morning by 9:00. Definitely getting my billable hours in this week.
So, this morning's weight sucks. I was doing well this week and then the unexpected threw me off. That's not really a good excuse. I need to learn to adapt. But I'm just not good at that.
So today, I have vowed to get out of here at a reasonable time. I have a meeting tomorrow morning at 9:00 and have got to get some sleep tonight. Erik has talked to doing something tonight since he hasn't seen much of me this week, but we'll see. I need sleep.
I do plan to try (again) to hit the treadmill tonight, even if only for a mile and a half or so. God knows I need the exercise...
Wednesday
Well, yesterday was hell. I got up and went to work as usual. I'm working on a big case that has several co-defendants with their own attorneys, so we have what's called a "joint defense team". Oh and we're sprawled all across the country. So, we have a big filing due on Tuesday and all the associates from the various firms are here this week to finalize this document. All was fine yesterday morning, but by the end of the day things got a bit snippy. This morning? Even worse. The words "I'm not trying to pick a fight with you but..." have been uttered. Me? I've sort of came onto this case late, so I'm mostly just assisting with this project so have been sitting quietly during the bickering and letting our other associate handle it. Amusing. So the painful part came when I had to be here till after 11:00 last night finalizing this document and escorting it to secretarial support to do some formatting changes. Let me rephrase. I stayed to finalize that "draft" as it stood yesterday. This is a three day meeting with more changes expected today.
Anway, being at the office for 14 + hours is not conducive to good eating. I did slip out about 7:00 to grab dinner at a local sushi restaurant. Normally a good choice, but of course I ordered way more than I needed and topped it off with a bag of m&m's at the office at 9:00 pm. No exercise, needless to say, and I was back in the office thie morning by 9:00. Definitely getting my billable hours in this week.
So, this morning's weight sucks. I was doing well this week and then the unexpected threw me off. That's not really a good excuse. I need to learn to adapt. But I'm just not good at that.
So today, I have vowed to get out of here at a reasonable time. I have a meeting tomorrow morning at 9:00 and have got to get some sleep tonight. Erik has talked to doing something tonight since he hasn't seen much of me this week, but we'll see. I need sleep.
I do plan to try (again) to hit the treadmill tonight, even if only for a mile and a half or so. God knows I need the exercise...
Monday, December 10, 2007
Good weekend, considering.
Last WI: 222.2/At Home WI: 220.0
Monday
Well, I 'almost' fulfilled my plan to be totally OP all weekend. I'm so far in the negative by 1 pt for flex points this week. It was 3, but I'm offsetting it by the 2 APs I earned and didn't eat yesterday.
Friday I went out to Y-knots (bar) with Erik for the first time in a long time. I offered to drive so I wouldn't drink as much. I had wings which sounds bad, but considering some of the options, 10 wings with veggies is better than a burger & fries, deep fried chicken fingers, or some of the other normal options there. I also drank some, but not to excess. Meaning I could count my points at the end of the night - not guess.
Saturday Erik and I planned an impromptu wii party. Last week I totally splurged and bought a Nintendo wii after trying one at my brother's house over thanksgiving. I love it and we had 6 friends over on Saturday to play some of the games. This actually turned out to be a good thing because for some of these games? Boy there's a work out. Particularly boxing, but even the bowling, baseball and tennis really work some muscles. I know because I am SOOOO sore today. Funny but I'm sore from playing video games. We played for about 6 hours, trading off so everyone could play. I decided to count it as 1 hour at moderate activity (we were definitely sweating at certain points) for 4 APs. Now that's a fun way to earn APs I tell you. :-)
Sunday I did finally get on the treadmill after putting in about 4 hours at work. I only did a mile, but it's a start. Tonight I plan to do another mile or maybe a little more. Problem is, I have a holiday party (one of like 6) tonight that I'm dragging Erik to. I'm going to try to just drink non-alcoholic drinks because I definitely won't feel like running after a couple glasses of wine. We'll see though.
All in all, I'm very pleased with my weekend WW-wise. I saw 219.4 yesterday so I'm not sure why I'm at 220 this morning. Maybe some of those sore muscles are retaining water. Who knows, but I like the feeling. I'm hoping to see a good 2+ lb loss this week!
Oh and on sweet news? Erik surprised me last night with roses and jewelry. It was our 2 1/2 year anniversary. It's not a proposal, but I know he's working up to that. It was actually very sweet. He's kinda shy on the romantic stuff and he totally had to drink like 3 beers to get out the sweet speech he planned. I didn't mind. :-)
Monday
Well, I 'almost' fulfilled my plan to be totally OP all weekend. I'm so far in the negative by 1 pt for flex points this week. It was 3, but I'm offsetting it by the 2 APs I earned and didn't eat yesterday.
Friday I went out to Y-knots (bar) with Erik for the first time in a long time. I offered to drive so I wouldn't drink as much. I had wings which sounds bad, but considering some of the options, 10 wings with veggies is better than a burger & fries, deep fried chicken fingers, or some of the other normal options there. I also drank some, but not to excess. Meaning I could count my points at the end of the night - not guess.
Saturday Erik and I planned an impromptu wii party. Last week I totally splurged and bought a Nintendo wii after trying one at my brother's house over thanksgiving. I love it and we had 6 friends over on Saturday to play some of the games. This actually turned out to be a good thing because for some of these games? Boy there's a work out. Particularly boxing, but even the bowling, baseball and tennis really work some muscles. I know because I am SOOOO sore today. Funny but I'm sore from playing video games. We played for about 6 hours, trading off so everyone could play. I decided to count it as 1 hour at moderate activity (we were definitely sweating at certain points) for 4 APs. Now that's a fun way to earn APs I tell you. :-)
Sunday I did finally get on the treadmill after putting in about 4 hours at work. I only did a mile, but it's a start. Tonight I plan to do another mile or maybe a little more. Problem is, I have a holiday party (one of like 6) tonight that I'm dragging Erik to. I'm going to try to just drink non-alcoholic drinks because I definitely won't feel like running after a couple glasses of wine. We'll see though.
All in all, I'm very pleased with my weekend WW-wise. I saw 219.4 yesterday so I'm not sure why I'm at 220 this morning. Maybe some of those sore muscles are retaining water. Who knows, but I like the feeling. I'm hoping to see a good 2+ lb loss this week!
Oh and on sweet news? Erik surprised me last night with roses and jewelry. It was our 2 1/2 year anniversary. It's not a proposal, but I know he's working up to that. It was actually very sweet. He's kinda shy on the romantic stuff and he totally had to drink like 3 beers to get out the sweet speech he planned. I didn't mind. :-)
Friday, December 7, 2007
Day 2. Ok start
Last WI: 222.2/At Home WI: 222.0 (??)
Friday
Well day two of my "recommitment" is going ok. Last night I didn't leave work till almost 8:00 so I totally slacked when I got home and had no motivation to jump on the treadmill like planned. Shocker. So I decided to catch up on the last episode of Hero's that I'd recorded, and munch on some popcorn and (fat free) chips. Not a horrible binge considering, but it was 10 points more than I needed. Instead of earning points through the treadmill, I ate them. Ahhh. baby steps. It was much better than my old Thursday night ritual of getting bombed since it was the night after WI and I had 7 whole days to make up for it. So, I ended up using 9 of my weekly "flex points". Not horrible, but certainly not necessary.
But now, a new day. I'm not sure what the plan is tonight. With my new work load, Erik and I haven't been going out much so he'll probably want to go out tonight. I guess I'm ok with that, but it does make for hard decisions WW-wise. I'm going to have to think through a plan today at work. Maybe I'll try to leave early enough to hit the treadmill before going out then I won't feel as guilty having a couple beers.
So Erik is taking my kitty to the vet this morning. In July I got a new kitten and now it's time for her to get spayed. Why am I stressed? I'm not so much worried about the vet, or even how Sapphire will handle it. I'm stressed because I'm not the one dropping her off. The vet doesn't open till 8:00 and it's about 20 minutes away from our house - in the wrong directly for me to go to work. So to take her myself I wouldn't have made it in to work until probably 9:30 or later. Not acceptable. All Erik has to do is take her there and drop her off. Why am I stressed? Makes no sense. I pick her up tomorrow, and I'm sure it'll be fine, but I just hate not being in control I guess.
Anyway - I have to do well today. I'm still planning on being a good little WW this week. I'm definitely going to end up eating all my flex points (as last night proved) but I'm going to try to limit it to that and any APs I earn. See what a good OP week will do for me...
Friday
Well day two of my "recommitment" is going ok. Last night I didn't leave work till almost 8:00 so I totally slacked when I got home and had no motivation to jump on the treadmill like planned. Shocker. So I decided to catch up on the last episode of Hero's that I'd recorded, and munch on some popcorn and (fat free) chips. Not a horrible binge considering, but it was 10 points more than I needed. Instead of earning points through the treadmill, I ate them. Ahhh. baby steps. It was much better than my old Thursday night ritual of getting bombed since it was the night after WI and I had 7 whole days to make up for it. So, I ended up using 9 of my weekly "flex points". Not horrible, but certainly not necessary.
But now, a new day. I'm not sure what the plan is tonight. With my new work load, Erik and I haven't been going out much so he'll probably want to go out tonight. I guess I'm ok with that, but it does make for hard decisions WW-wise. I'm going to have to think through a plan today at work. Maybe I'll try to leave early enough to hit the treadmill before going out then I won't feel as guilty having a couple beers.
So Erik is taking my kitty to the vet this morning. In July I got a new kitten and now it's time for her to get spayed. Why am I stressed? I'm not so much worried about the vet, or even how Sapphire will handle it. I'm stressed because I'm not the one dropping her off. The vet doesn't open till 8:00 and it's about 20 minutes away from our house - in the wrong directly for me to go to work. So to take her myself I wouldn't have made it in to work until probably 9:30 or later. Not acceptable. All Erik has to do is take her there and drop her off. Why am I stressed? Makes no sense. I pick her up tomorrow, and I'm sure it'll be fine, but I just hate not being in control I guess.
Anyway - I have to do well today. I'm still planning on being a good little WW this week. I'm definitely going to end up eating all my flex points (as last night proved) but I'm going to try to limit it to that and any APs I earn. See what a good OP week will do for me...
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Ok - now is the time to do it!
Last WI: 215.4/At Home WI: 218.4 (ICK!)
SATURDAY
Ok, so I didn't make it to the gym yesterday. I was at work until 6:30 getting ready for trials on Monday. Today I have plans to meet up with Erik and his son at 12:30 for a T-ball game for Daniel. Then we have a bridal couple's shower this evening. It should be fun. I'm going to pack my gym bag and try to head to the gym after the T-ball game, before the shower. I need to do this. I've tracked my points so far today - breakfast (wow, huh?). I had poached eggs on toast with some nuts and cheese - 8 pts. I've got to get a hold on this. The scale this morning scared the crap out of me.
Well, Erik and I drafted our lease purchase documents last night. He's going to try to get the buyer/lessor to sign on Monday. Then it's time to pack - yipee... Oh well, I am excited about the new house. It's in a really cool location and is a very nice house. We can't afford to stay there long term, but in reality it'll be very cool to live there for a while.
Ok so plan today - TRACK and EXCERSISE! Ready set GO!
SATURDAY
Ok, so I didn't make it to the gym yesterday. I was at work until 6:30 getting ready for trials on Monday. Today I have plans to meet up with Erik and his son at 12:30 for a T-ball game for Daniel. Then we have a bridal couple's shower this evening. It should be fun. I'm going to pack my gym bag and try to head to the gym after the T-ball game, before the shower. I need to do this. I've tracked my points so far today - breakfast (wow, huh?). I had poached eggs on toast with some nuts and cheese - 8 pts. I've got to get a hold on this. The scale this morning scared the crap out of me.
Well, Erik and I drafted our lease purchase documents last night. He's going to try to get the buyer/lessor to sign on Monday. Then it's time to pack - yipee... Oh well, I am excited about the new house. It's in a really cool location and is a very nice house. We can't afford to stay there long term, but in reality it'll be very cool to live there for a while.
Ok so plan today - TRACK and EXCERSISE! Ready set GO!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Small Gain -
Last WI: 215.4/At Home WI: 217.4 (drinking last night...)
FRIDAY
Well I faced the music yesterday and hit the scale at a WW meeting. I was so pleased to see that I'd only gained less than a pound in my 3 weeks of being off program. I feel very fortunate. I'm totally surprised and had expected at least 2 lbs. Course I went out and celebrated by drinking too much alcohol and eating too many fatty foods. Eh. Such is life, right? I was also very disappointed to watch FSU lose to Wake Forest last night. I'm an FSU grad and a big fan. I'm so pissed that we lost. Grrr. I totally overindulged watching the game, so I'm feeling pretty crappy today which does not help with the plan of running tonight.
I do have some good news. Erik met with the couple interested in lease/purchasing our house last night and worked out the details. It looks like I'll be moving at the end of the month. Which is good and bad. It's good that we've got someone in the house, and some income coming in toward the mortgage. It's bad because we have to move - never fun - and we have to move into the Tyrone house, a house we have on the market and one I really want us to sell. It's way more house than we need, and I had hoped it would sell first. Unfortunately, no such luck.
Oh well, I'm happy that we're moving forward toward our goal of getting both houses sold. It actually works out good in the sense that I took that last week of October/first week of November off before I start the new job, so I'll have time to move. I hope this is what is supposed to happen. I really believe things happen for a reason, and I hope this is what is meant to be. I guess it has to be now.
FRIDAY
Well I faced the music yesterday and hit the scale at a WW meeting. I was so pleased to see that I'd only gained less than a pound in my 3 weeks of being off program. I feel very fortunate. I'm totally surprised and had expected at least 2 lbs. Course I went out and celebrated by drinking too much alcohol and eating too many fatty foods. Eh. Such is life, right? I was also very disappointed to watch FSU lose to Wake Forest last night. I'm an FSU grad and a big fan. I'm so pissed that we lost. Grrr. I totally overindulged watching the game, so I'm feeling pretty crappy today which does not help with the plan of running tonight.
I do have some good news. Erik met with the couple interested in lease/purchasing our house last night and worked out the details. It looks like I'll be moving at the end of the month. Which is good and bad. It's good that we've got someone in the house, and some income coming in toward the mortgage. It's bad because we have to move - never fun - and we have to move into the Tyrone house, a house we have on the market and one I really want us to sell. It's way more house than we need, and I had hoped it would sell first. Unfortunately, no such luck.
Oh well, I'm happy that we're moving forward toward our goal of getting both houses sold. It actually works out good in the sense that I took that last week of October/first week of November off before I start the new job, so I'll have time to move. I hope this is what is supposed to happen. I really believe things happen for a reason, and I hope this is what is meant to be. I guess it has to be now.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
I will WI today!
Last WI: 214.6 (several weeks ago)/At Home WI: 216.0 (ugh).
THURSDAY
Ok, so it's my normal WI day. And I'm GOING. I AM GOING. So that was for my benefit. I said that last week and bailed. But today I've brought WI clothes. I had a big breakfast, and I'm going to face the music. Like so many people I hate to WI when I think I'll see a gain. I know I'll see a gain now since it's been like 3 weeks, but it's time to recommit and the only way to do that is to jump back on the wagon. 100%. So here I go.
I did make it to the gym on Monday, but I haven't since. Boo. I only did 1.5 miles. I was struggling a bit because of asthma - haven't been on top of my medicine lately. I figured I'd start small and come back Tuesday and do a bit more. Well, best laid plans. I totally slacked Tuesday and yesterday. Booo. But, I can only look forward. I will run tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday. That's the plan.
Other than that things are going ok. I'm excited about the new job and am making plans accordingly. Life at home is a little stressful. I'm not sure how much I've written about it, but Erik, my boyfriend, owns 2 houses right now and both are on the market. Well, as most people know the market is struggling a lot lately so he hasn't been able to sell either of them. It's made for some difficult conversations about finances, and our future. He's not willing to propose (understandably) until he's cash-flow positive. I sometimes feel like he's not doing enough to solve the problem, which in turn makes me feel like I'm not a priority since our future is on hold because of this problem. But we've been trying to work through it.
Well, Monday a couple came by that wanted to look at the house we're living in. They really liked it an are talking to Erik about a lease purchase. I don't know if it's going to work out or not, but if it does, we would be moving by the end of the month into the other house. Getting this house under a lease-purchase contract would be great for our future, he would feel comfortable proposing, but it doesn't solve the problem completely, as we still have another house, and the lease purchase could always fall through.
Today I got in touch with an acquaintance that is a financial planner that is willing to look over both our finances to see what we can do to work toward a life together. My salary will increase substantially with this new job and I just want to make sure we're doing the right thing as far as what to pay off - where to invest, etc. Fortunately Erik's willing to participate, so hopefully this will ease some of the tension.
Work is busy too - we have trials starting on Monday and right now I'm preparing to try two different child molestation cases. I had thought they would both plea, but it's not looking good. I've got to be ready for trial.
Anyway - busy busy. But I've got to find time to get back on the wagon health-wise. I can do it, I just have to commit!
THURSDAY
Ok, so it's my normal WI day. And I'm GOING. I AM GOING. So that was for my benefit. I said that last week and bailed. But today I've brought WI clothes. I had a big breakfast, and I'm going to face the music. Like so many people I hate to WI when I think I'll see a gain. I know I'll see a gain now since it's been like 3 weeks, but it's time to recommit and the only way to do that is to jump back on the wagon. 100%. So here I go.
I did make it to the gym on Monday, but I haven't since. Boo. I only did 1.5 miles. I was struggling a bit because of asthma - haven't been on top of my medicine lately. I figured I'd start small and come back Tuesday and do a bit more. Well, best laid plans. I totally slacked Tuesday and yesterday. Booo. But, I can only look forward. I will run tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday. That's the plan.
Other than that things are going ok. I'm excited about the new job and am making plans accordingly. Life at home is a little stressful. I'm not sure how much I've written about it, but Erik, my boyfriend, owns 2 houses right now and both are on the market. Well, as most people know the market is struggling a lot lately so he hasn't been able to sell either of them. It's made for some difficult conversations about finances, and our future. He's not willing to propose (understandably) until he's cash-flow positive. I sometimes feel like he's not doing enough to solve the problem, which in turn makes me feel like I'm not a priority since our future is on hold because of this problem. But we've been trying to work through it.
Well, Monday a couple came by that wanted to look at the house we're living in. They really liked it an are talking to Erik about a lease purchase. I don't know if it's going to work out or not, but if it does, we would be moving by the end of the month into the other house. Getting this house under a lease-purchase contract would be great for our future, he would feel comfortable proposing, but it doesn't solve the problem completely, as we still have another house, and the lease purchase could always fall through.
Today I got in touch with an acquaintance that is a financial planner that is willing to look over both our finances to see what we can do to work toward a life together. My salary will increase substantially with this new job and I just want to make sure we're doing the right thing as far as what to pay off - where to invest, etc. Fortunately Erik's willing to participate, so hopefully this will ease some of the tension.
Work is busy too - we have trials starting on Monday and right now I'm preparing to try two different child molestation cases. I had thought they would both plea, but it's not looking good. I've got to be ready for trial.
Anyway - busy busy. But I've got to find time to get back on the wagon health-wise. I can do it, I just have to commit!
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Sabotage, Sabotage
Last WI: 214.6/At Home WI: 214.6 (better, but not good).
THURSDAY
Well it's Thursday - WI day - and I have mixed emotions. I woke up yesterday to 216+ on the scale and really felt my week was over. Part of that high number was the beers I had the night before, but it was also a good part legitimate bad eating. I planned to have a perfect day yesterday. It started off right with my balance bar for breakfast but when I got to work, Holly was waiting for me. She works with me, but usually in a different office. She had to come by our office for something so we caught up and gossiped for a while. She ended up staying till after 11:00 and wanted to go to lunch. Now this is the bride I described before - eats EVERYTHING and will be wearing a size 2 wedding dress. Yes 2. So she of course wanted to go to Slices - a great pizza place down the road. I had planned on subway for my "perfect day" but gave in (surprise surprise). I did only have 1 slice of pizza - it's one of those places that have huge slices - and she had two (bitch). :-)
Obviously the scale is down this morning, though frankly I'm surprised. I was late getting out of work and had agreed to volunteer at the fair again last night. So I picked up McDonald's for dinner - very healthy. Then after a few hours at the fair I agreed to let Erik get me a hot dog - didn't need it. And finally, instead of going to the gym when my shift ended at 8:30 I went home. And had a glass of wine. Oh the good choices abound.
So this week has sucked. It's so common for me to have like 4-6 weeks of going great and then sabotage. I know I'll see a gain if I go to WI today. I'm thinking about not going. Now I know they always say you should "face the music" and WI anyway. But I hate seeing the gain. I don't know. I haven't decided. I think part of it will depend on scheduling. I've got an appointment out of the office at 3:00 to meet with a witness (named Pig - charming huh?). If I get done with that appointment in time, I should be able to go home, change cars and clothes and WI before I need to be at the fair at 5:45 (last night of volunteering). The good news is that for the 2nd week in a row I won't have my typical Thursday night after WI drinking binge due to the fair commitment. Any hot dog/fair food I eat could not be worse that consuming bar food and 10 beers.
So here's the plan. I've let myself go this week on both food and exercise. I'll forgive myself that. We all need a break now and then. I have got to recommit though. WI or no WI today I have got to make this coming week a good one. I'm back to a normal schedule with the exception of Saturday which will be crazy football day. Holly's an Alabama grad and I'm an FSU grad. Well, this year is the first year in a very long time that our teams play each other. So we got tickets. It's a game in Jacksonville so Holly, Dana, me and Erik are driving down Saturday for a 5:00 game and have to come back afterwards because Holly has to teach Sunday school in the morning. Will be a very long day with one of us very unhappy. But should be fun regardless. I'm looking forward to it. Tomorrow night we're celebrating Erik's birthday with friends. He turned 36 last Friday but had family in town, and then the fair, so we haven't really been able to celebrate. So I will be DD that night and he will be getting toasted I'm sure. That should be fun. And then Sunday we have a different poker league that has a game. Busy weekend, but with the exception of Saturday (game day!) I should be able to make some good food choices AND get some exercise in. That's the plan. Back on track. I've had my "vacation" from WW. Now I need to DO THIS. Not long till the wedding!
THURSDAY
Well it's Thursday - WI day - and I have mixed emotions. I woke up yesterday to 216+ on the scale and really felt my week was over. Part of that high number was the beers I had the night before, but it was also a good part legitimate bad eating. I planned to have a perfect day yesterday. It started off right with my balance bar for breakfast but when I got to work, Holly was waiting for me. She works with me, but usually in a different office. She had to come by our office for something so we caught up and gossiped for a while. She ended up staying till after 11:00 and wanted to go to lunch. Now this is the bride I described before - eats EVERYTHING and will be wearing a size 2 wedding dress. Yes 2. So she of course wanted to go to Slices - a great pizza place down the road. I had planned on subway for my "perfect day" but gave in (surprise surprise). I did only have 1 slice of pizza - it's one of those places that have huge slices - and she had two (bitch). :-)
Obviously the scale is down this morning, though frankly I'm surprised. I was late getting out of work and had agreed to volunteer at the fair again last night. So I picked up McDonald's for dinner - very healthy. Then after a few hours at the fair I agreed to let Erik get me a hot dog - didn't need it. And finally, instead of going to the gym when my shift ended at 8:30 I went home. And had a glass of wine. Oh the good choices abound.
So this week has sucked. It's so common for me to have like 4-6 weeks of going great and then sabotage. I know I'll see a gain if I go to WI today. I'm thinking about not going. Now I know they always say you should "face the music" and WI anyway. But I hate seeing the gain. I don't know. I haven't decided. I think part of it will depend on scheduling. I've got an appointment out of the office at 3:00 to meet with a witness (named Pig - charming huh?). If I get done with that appointment in time, I should be able to go home, change cars and clothes and WI before I need to be at the fair at 5:45 (last night of volunteering). The good news is that for the 2nd week in a row I won't have my typical Thursday night after WI drinking binge due to the fair commitment. Any hot dog/fair food I eat could not be worse that consuming bar food and 10 beers.
So here's the plan. I've let myself go this week on both food and exercise. I'll forgive myself that. We all need a break now and then. I have got to recommit though. WI or no WI today I have got to make this coming week a good one. I'm back to a normal schedule with the exception of Saturday which will be crazy football day. Holly's an Alabama grad and I'm an FSU grad. Well, this year is the first year in a very long time that our teams play each other. So we got tickets. It's a game in Jacksonville so Holly, Dana, me and Erik are driving down Saturday for a 5:00 game and have to come back afterwards because Holly has to teach Sunday school in the morning. Will be a very long day with one of us very unhappy. But should be fun regardless. I'm looking forward to it. Tomorrow night we're celebrating Erik's birthday with friends. He turned 36 last Friday but had family in town, and then the fair, so we haven't really been able to celebrate. So I will be DD that night and he will be getting toasted I'm sure. That should be fun. And then Sunday we have a different poker league that has a game. Busy weekend, but with the exception of Saturday (game day!) I should be able to make some good food choices AND get some exercise in. That's the plan. Back on track. I've had my "vacation" from WW. Now I need to DO THIS. Not long till the wedding!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Law and Order had Nothing on Me!
Last WI: 218.6/At Home WI: 217.4 (ok.)
WEDNESDAY
So yesterday became a crazy day after work. I left at about 5:00 and was driving home when I was alerted (nextel) by an officer I work with regularly (remember I'm criminal prosecutor). The officer had been in my office earlier that day to tell me about a series of armed robberies they were investigating. They had arrested a girl on them and could link her to 3 robbery's in the last 2 months. Two of them were very solid cases, one was iffy due to identification issues. They also had a lead on a girl they thought was the robber's driver. They had interviewed this driver a couple times and she had never admitted to anything or even admitted she know the girl we've arrested as the robber. Anyway, my officer calls me at about 5:30. I'm minutes from home and about 30 minutes away from work. He says he has the driver girl in the office and she's said she's willing to talk if I can come down and give her immunity so that she won't worry about being prosecuted. After discussing it further with the officer we agreed that we didn't have enough to charge this girl anyway, and she might be able to shore up the primary perp's involvement in our case that is weaker. Well, I give her my immunity speech - which incidentally I had to make up since I've never done this before - and she agrees to talk. She gives us good information on the crime that was a little weaker and actually links the perp to a fourth robbery that had as yet been unsolved. I got to sit in an adjacent room with several officers and watch through closed circuit video while she was interviewed by one of our detectives. Very cool. So all in all it was a fun night. Much cooler than the typical "paperwork" day I have. Court days and out of office days like yesterday are what makes this job fun. I also am building a really good rapport with my officers which is always a really big help.
Anyway, that escapade put me behind schedule for the night. I was going to try to go to the gym after work and then go out to Chaps with Erik for poker and dinner. By the time I got out of the police department, I had to race home so Erik and I could make it to poker on time. No gym. So my solution was that I would try to go after poker and dinner. I already had my gym bag packed and in the car. And the best part about this plan was that it would keep me from drinking any alcohol at the bar. The bad news was that because I had these grand plans, I justified ordering a burger and mac n cheese for dinner. Booo. It was so good though.
Well, I ended up winning the poker tournament and didn't get out of there until about 10:30 pm. BUT - true to my word, I took Erik home, didn't even go into the house, and headed straight for the gym. I did my 2.5 mile run, walked another .5 miles, and headed home for shower/bed. Erik was passed out when I got there, but I was still very proud of myself for following through with my commitment.
It's funny, I didn't know what to expect at the gym at 11:00 at night. Erik and I belong to one of those 24 hour gyms where you can go in at anytime with a swipe card. I got there and was shocked to see lots of cars in the parking lot. Turns out lots of guys like to lift weights late at night? Who knew. I think I was the only woman there, and I certainly had the cardio machines to myself. That reminds me - I definitely need to get on a strength training program soon. I've totally been slacking in that department. Despite all this motivation to get to the gym, I just don't have any desire to lift weights. I'm going to have to drudge up that motivation soon.
So this morning I was hoping to see 217 or lower, but am not totally surprised I didn't. Yesterday's WI seemed too good to be true anyway. I still have hope for an under 217 WI by tomorrow though. Today I will be perfect! There are no plans to go out tonight. I will be eating very good at work today and head straight to the gym for some speed work before making a healthy dinner and getting to bed early. I WILL see a good loss tomorrow!
WEDNESDAY
So yesterday became a crazy day after work. I left at about 5:00 and was driving home when I was alerted (nextel) by an officer I work with regularly (remember I'm criminal prosecutor). The officer had been in my office earlier that day to tell me about a series of armed robberies they were investigating. They had arrested a girl on them and could link her to 3 robbery's in the last 2 months. Two of them were very solid cases, one was iffy due to identification issues. They also had a lead on a girl they thought was the robber's driver. They had interviewed this driver a couple times and she had never admitted to anything or even admitted she know the girl we've arrested as the robber. Anyway, my officer calls me at about 5:30. I'm minutes from home and about 30 minutes away from work. He says he has the driver girl in the office and she's said she's willing to talk if I can come down and give her immunity so that she won't worry about being prosecuted. After discussing it further with the officer we agreed that we didn't have enough to charge this girl anyway, and she might be able to shore up the primary perp's involvement in our case that is weaker. Well, I give her my immunity speech - which incidentally I had to make up since I've never done this before - and she agrees to talk. She gives us good information on the crime that was a little weaker and actually links the perp to a fourth robbery that had as yet been unsolved. I got to sit in an adjacent room with several officers and watch through closed circuit video while she was interviewed by one of our detectives. Very cool. So all in all it was a fun night. Much cooler than the typical "paperwork" day I have. Court days and out of office days like yesterday are what makes this job fun. I also am building a really good rapport with my officers which is always a really big help.
Anyway, that escapade put me behind schedule for the night. I was going to try to go to the gym after work and then go out to Chaps with Erik for poker and dinner. By the time I got out of the police department, I had to race home so Erik and I could make it to poker on time. No gym. So my solution was that I would try to go after poker and dinner. I already had my gym bag packed and in the car. And the best part about this plan was that it would keep me from drinking any alcohol at the bar. The bad news was that because I had these grand plans, I justified ordering a burger and mac n cheese for dinner. Booo. It was so good though.
Well, I ended up winning the poker tournament and didn't get out of there until about 10:30 pm. BUT - true to my word, I took Erik home, didn't even go into the house, and headed straight for the gym. I did my 2.5 mile run, walked another .5 miles, and headed home for shower/bed. Erik was passed out when I got there, but I was still very proud of myself for following through with my commitment.
It's funny, I didn't know what to expect at the gym at 11:00 at night. Erik and I belong to one of those 24 hour gyms where you can go in at anytime with a swipe card. I got there and was shocked to see lots of cars in the parking lot. Turns out lots of guys like to lift weights late at night? Who knew. I think I was the only woman there, and I certainly had the cardio machines to myself. That reminds me - I definitely need to get on a strength training program soon. I've totally been slacking in that department. Despite all this motivation to get to the gym, I just don't have any desire to lift weights. I'm going to have to drudge up that motivation soon.
So this morning I was hoping to see 217 or lower, but am not totally surprised I didn't. Yesterday's WI seemed too good to be true anyway. I still have hope for an under 217 WI by tomorrow though. Today I will be perfect! There are no plans to go out tonight. I will be eating very good at work today and head straight to the gym for some speed work before making a healthy dinner and getting to bed early. I WILL see a good loss tomorrow!
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