217.4 (see title)
FRIDAY
Ok, so I fell. Hard. Yesterday was a crazy hectic day after 12:00 pm. I was running around with a partner on a new case that is really cool and exciting, but really stressful too. I didn't get a good snack in for the afternoon, and then Erik & I decided to go out to Y-knots for poker. We haven't been out for a while with family obligations and all. So, I fell. Hard. I got to Y-knots tired, stressed and hungry. I.e. recipe for a major beer craving. Now, excluding my trip to Panama City to see my family, I haven't drank in a month. This from a girl that probably put away about 15 or so beers a week. At least. So, I was craving hard, and I totally gave in. Course giving into the bucket of beer (to share with Erik!) quickly led to giving into bad food choices for dinner - i.e. buffalo chicken fingers, tater tots & ranch. Grrr. Why? So not necessary.
So all in all I had 3 1/2 beers (including one once we got home). And yes, I was definitely tipsy from them. But I did get to sleep by 10:30. So I did make it to boot camp this morning after all, even if I was feeling a bit tired. Good work out - didn't feel like it at first, but got into it after the warm up.
Today I've still not crawled up on the wagon. I'm such a creature of habit that when my routine gets messed up, I lose it. This morning I had a dentist appointment at 9:00 am. I got an email from the partner I'm working with at 7:00 am this morning asking my to drop by when I get in to discuss some projects. I emailed him and subsequently talked to him on the phone about my dentist appointment but bottom line, I ended up rushing into work after getting my tooth drilled. I had a small snack after my work out at 6:30 am, but didn't want to eat before my dentist appointment. Then I was all numb afterwards, and didn't want to try to eat with half my face not working, so I didn't end up getting lunch till about 1:00 pm. When I was ravenously hungry and ended up getting a chick-fil-a sandwich AND a Moe's naked burrito AND tortilla chips from our cafeteria downstairs. Who eats like this? I figured maybe I could be strong and not eat the chips, which came with the Moe's order (thus I didn't intentionally purchase that much food...). But no - I have no will power. I used to be smart enough to just say - "no chips please". Why didn't I do that today? Because I secretly knew I'd eat every one of those chips and enjoy it.
So now it's 3:00 pm and I'm full, bloated, blah feeling. Not at all the "program" I'm supposed to be on with 5-6 small meals. I don't feel like eating again at all today, though I'm sure that'll change in a few hours, knowing me. Uck.
On top of that Erik & I got into an emotional discussion last night (after my 3 1/2 beers) about my weight issues, self esteem issues, body issues, etc., and how I didn't feel like he was really noticing all the hard work I was doing. It's all worked out, though. Bottom line is he's just not a strong communicator, and though I know he loves me and finds me attractive, he doesn't say it much because that's just him. He promised to work on it and I promised to try to not get emotional again too soon.. Lol.
So yeah, the last 24 hours have kinda sucked.
And now I'm looking at a weekend where I'm definitely going to have to work. I've had a project I've been futzing around with that is due Monday and I haven't been able to work on it the last two days with this new case. So I need to buckle down and work on that this afternoon. Get as much done as possible so I'm not stuck with too much this weekend.
Good news is we have no social plans this weekend except a poker game Sunday night. At a friends house, not at a bar, so no temptations should exist. I should definitely be able to get in some exercise, and most importantly considering my emotional state - some sleep. I WILL be sleeping in tomorrow, and loving every minute of it.
That's about it - ah the life of a lawyer-bride. :-)
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Friday, May 16, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
Who knew family would be such a bad influence...
220.2 - yes, that's right. I'm VERY high today...
MONDAY
Wow, what a weekend. I've been out of town for 4 days and the scale is showing it. Bad scale. Ok, bad Cindy. Thursday I left for sunny Panama City Beach to meet up with my dad, his girlfriend, his girlfriend's 20 y/o son, my brother and my brother's wife for Thunder Beach - Panama City's version of bike week. It's basically where thousands of motorcycles convene to ride together, drink together, celebrate the coolness of bikes. My dad and brother have several bikes and brought down 4 of them in a trailer for us to ride. My dad didn't ride much, but my brother & I did a lot of riding on Friday and Saturday. It was really fun. I got my license about 10 years ago, and don't get to ride much. I've always wanted to buy a harley, but have never been able to justify the cost.
So Thursday night I left out of here about 2:00 and got to PCB around 7:00. I met up with my the family for a bit then went out for my first ride with Joey. I generally have a rule that I will not drink anything if I'm riding a motorcycle. It's just too dangerous. So, I easily passed on the alcohol at the first bar. Then we went to a german bar that had it's own beer and I gave in and tasted all 4 of their home brews. I probably swallowed a total of 1/2 a beer, so I wasn't worried about riding. I did kill the great 18 day no-drinking streak, though. Oh well - I never said I'd stay sober forever.
Friday and Saturday we did a bunch of riding and of course eating. The problem I have with my family is that food is always a focus. My father and brother are both significantly overweight. I was raised in a family where eating was a hobby. So, we did a lot of eating. And of course I didn't bring my laptop, so I wasn't entering anything in spark people. I have no idea the damage, but as you can see on the scale, it was large.
Also, contributing to the scale is the alcohol. After I killed my streak on Thursday night Friday and Saturday night we went out and played some pool and drank some beer. By some, I mean more than 5 beers each night. Ahh. Off the wagon...
Sunday morning I left out early because I had dinner plans back home. I have a friend who was just diagnosed with cancer and starts his chemo therapy today. He wanted to go out last night and have some fun before the stress and physical issues associated with chemo start.
So unfortunatly I had the horrible mentality that causes so many dieters to fail. I knew I'd killed my drinking streak. I knew I'd eaten badly for 4 days straight, so I figured - hell - why not finish it off with a bang and start being good "tomorrow". So, we ate and drank. and drank. and drank. It was really fun, though. Jimbo, my friend with cancer, wanted to play poker, so after dinner we went to a new bar that just started hosting poker games. It was great because Jimbo won the tournament of about 35 players. I also got 4th, so we got to play for a long time. It was really nice so see him have a good time and not think about all the bad stuff going on in his life right now.
So, here we are Monday morning. I've drank alcohol the last 4 nights. I have not exercised. I ate horribly. And I wrote nothing down. Thus, the scale is in the very scary 220's again. Granted. I know I can't gain 6 lbs in 4 days, so I know it will go back down to some extent tomorrow if I'm good today and hydrate. But it's sad how quickly all the hard work disappears.
These things happen though. There are going to be stumbling blocks. I'm also going to recover. I didn't get a work out in this morning, as I was obviously tired from being out way too late. And I don't know if I'll get one in tonight. But I do know that I will be journaling everything that I put in my mouth. I will be chugging water, starting when I hit post here. And I will not be consuming any alcohol tonight at y-knots, where we plan to meet up with Jimbo again and see how the first day went. It's a step up, back on the wagon. I can continue to make this work. I know I won't see a loss this week, but hopefully I'll get the scale back down around 214 by next Thursday. I have not more travel plans for a bit, so I shouldn't be too tempted.
Here's to starting again, and taking it one day at a time...again.
MONDAY
Wow, what a weekend. I've been out of town for 4 days and the scale is showing it. Bad scale. Ok, bad Cindy. Thursday I left for sunny Panama City Beach to meet up with my dad, his girlfriend, his girlfriend's 20 y/o son, my brother and my brother's wife for Thunder Beach - Panama City's version of bike week. It's basically where thousands of motorcycles convene to ride together, drink together, celebrate the coolness of bikes. My dad and brother have several bikes and brought down 4 of them in a trailer for us to ride. My dad didn't ride much, but my brother & I did a lot of riding on Friday and Saturday. It was really fun. I got my license about 10 years ago, and don't get to ride much. I've always wanted to buy a harley, but have never been able to justify the cost.
So Thursday night I left out of here about 2:00 and got to PCB around 7:00. I met up with my the family for a bit then went out for my first ride with Joey. I generally have a rule that I will not drink anything if I'm riding a motorcycle. It's just too dangerous. So, I easily passed on the alcohol at the first bar. Then we went to a german bar that had it's own beer and I gave in and tasted all 4 of their home brews. I probably swallowed a total of 1/2 a beer, so I wasn't worried about riding. I did kill the great 18 day no-drinking streak, though. Oh well - I never said I'd stay sober forever.
Friday and Saturday we did a bunch of riding and of course eating. The problem I have with my family is that food is always a focus. My father and brother are both significantly overweight. I was raised in a family where eating was a hobby. So, we did a lot of eating. And of course I didn't bring my laptop, so I wasn't entering anything in spark people. I have no idea the damage, but as you can see on the scale, it was large.
Also, contributing to the scale is the alcohol. After I killed my streak on Thursday night Friday and Saturday night we went out and played some pool and drank some beer. By some, I mean more than 5 beers each night. Ahh. Off the wagon...
Sunday morning I left out early because I had dinner plans back home. I have a friend who was just diagnosed with cancer and starts his chemo therapy today. He wanted to go out last night and have some fun before the stress and physical issues associated with chemo start.
So unfortunatly I had the horrible mentality that causes so many dieters to fail. I knew I'd killed my drinking streak. I knew I'd eaten badly for 4 days straight, so I figured - hell - why not finish it off with a bang and start being good "tomorrow". So, we ate and drank. and drank. and drank. It was really fun, though. Jimbo, my friend with cancer, wanted to play poker, so after dinner we went to a new bar that just started hosting poker games. It was great because Jimbo won the tournament of about 35 players. I also got 4th, so we got to play for a long time. It was really nice so see him have a good time and not think about all the bad stuff going on in his life right now.
So, here we are Monday morning. I've drank alcohol the last 4 nights. I have not exercised. I ate horribly. And I wrote nothing down. Thus, the scale is in the very scary 220's again. Granted. I know I can't gain 6 lbs in 4 days, so I know it will go back down to some extent tomorrow if I'm good today and hydrate. But it's sad how quickly all the hard work disappears.
These things happen though. There are going to be stumbling blocks. I'm also going to recover. I didn't get a work out in this morning, as I was obviously tired from being out way too late. And I don't know if I'll get one in tonight. But I do know that I will be journaling everything that I put in my mouth. I will be chugging water, starting when I hit post here. And I will not be consuming any alcohol tonight at y-knots, where we plan to meet up with Jimbo again and see how the first day went. It's a step up, back on the wagon. I can continue to make this work. I know I won't see a loss this week, but hopefully I'll get the scale back down around 214 by next Thursday. I have not more travel plans for a bit, so I shouldn't be too tempted.
Here's to starting again, and taking it one day at a time...again.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Good scale, good scale...
214.2
TUESDAY
Wow. So friendly scale today. Please don't let me down on Thursday! I was very good yesterday and hit the treadmill for 60 minutes of good interval training. I bought a heart rate monitor the other day. I'm a little disappointed because the model I bought doesn't calculate calories. But I am pleased ot see that it interacts with my treadmill such that I don't even have to wear the wrist part - it transmits directly to the treadmill. So that's cool. I had a good run and kept my heart rate up and down in a pretty good range for intervals. I also ate very minimally all day until we went out last night. I knew we would be going to Y-knots, so I only had about 600 calories all day until we left. I also burned over 600 on the treadmill. So, I allowed myself a little splurge at dinner and had this wonderful southwestern wrap they have that of course has lots of cheese, but is really good. I calculated it, generously I think, at 750 calories. Who knows though with something like that.
But I have stuck with the no alcohol streak. It's been 17 days. And honestly, I don't even miss it. I haven't been at an event or party yet that really centered around alcohol, so mostly I've just given up having a couple beers when Erik & I go out. Now, I just get diet coke, and really don't feel all that deprived. Once again, I'm not vowing I've given it up completely till the wedding, but no need in pointless drinking right now. Every calorie counts. In looking at my calendar I don't really have anything scheduled in the next few weeks that should tempt me. This weekend I'm going to Panama City for Bike-week but am going to meet my dad and brother, neither of whom really drink, so shouldn't be tempted there. The next weekend, mothers' day weekend, my mom will be in town, so no temptation there. Frankly, I don't have any temptations until possibly June. Boy would that be crazy if I could hold out that long.
Who knows. Just taking it one day at a time. Today I have my follow up appointment for the Lasik where I'll get my contacts out. I'm going to try to do a separate post on that tonight and update how things are going.
TUESDAY
Wow. So friendly scale today. Please don't let me down on Thursday! I was very good yesterday and hit the treadmill for 60 minutes of good interval training. I bought a heart rate monitor the other day. I'm a little disappointed because the model I bought doesn't calculate calories. But I am pleased ot see that it interacts with my treadmill such that I don't even have to wear the wrist part - it transmits directly to the treadmill. So that's cool. I had a good run and kept my heart rate up and down in a pretty good range for intervals. I also ate very minimally all day until we went out last night. I knew we would be going to Y-knots, so I only had about 600 calories all day until we left. I also burned over 600 on the treadmill. So, I allowed myself a little splurge at dinner and had this wonderful southwestern wrap they have that of course has lots of cheese, but is really good. I calculated it, generously I think, at 750 calories. Who knows though with something like that.
But I have stuck with the no alcohol streak. It's been 17 days. And honestly, I don't even miss it. I haven't been at an event or party yet that really centered around alcohol, so mostly I've just given up having a couple beers when Erik & I go out. Now, I just get diet coke, and really don't feel all that deprived. Once again, I'm not vowing I've given it up completely till the wedding, but no need in pointless drinking right now. Every calorie counts. In looking at my calendar I don't really have anything scheduled in the next few weeks that should tempt me. This weekend I'm going to Panama City for Bike-week but am going to meet my dad and brother, neither of whom really drink, so shouldn't be tempted there. The next weekend, mothers' day weekend, my mom will be in town, so no temptation there. Frankly, I don't have any temptations until possibly June. Boy would that be crazy if I could hold out that long.
Who knows. Just taking it one day at a time. Today I have my follow up appointment for the Lasik where I'll get my contacts out. I'm going to try to do a separate post on that tonight and update how things are going.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Boot Camp
215.4 (hell yeah)
MONDAY
I had a great weekend. I'm in such a good place today. First, I had no alcohol. Erik had Daniel and we didn't go out at all this weekend. As I posted earlier, I was kinda sick on Saturday morning, but somehow it mostly cleared itself up by Saturday night and I feel good today. Yesterday I was kind of lazy but got a lot of little things done around the house including laundry, sorting and responding to mail, organizing counters. I didn't get any boxes unpacked, but I'll count my small victories.
Food-wise I was fabulous on Saturday which showed me 215.4 yesterday on the scale (so this is day 2 in the 215's). Yesterday I splurged a little at dinner, had 6 wings and small fries at Taco Mac, but I was really low on calories there rest of the day so apparently it didn't hurt me on the scale this morning.
Last night Erik left for a 4 day trip to DC for work. After he left, I had dinner, then went and browsed Books a Million for a couple hours. I ended up buying a book that provides a boot-camp style program for 6 weeks that includes cardio, weights & pilates. It's called 6 weeks to a bikini. Now I'm much farther than 6 weeks away from wearing a bikini, but I liked the format, I liked that all of the weight training could be done at home, and I like the bit of pilates thrown in. I've always wanted to try that and never did.
So, with that encouragement, I got my lazy ass up this morning at 8:00 am (I know - so NOT early) and hit the treadmill for my "Week 1, Monday" assignment. It was interval training which basically means really hard running mixed in with jogging/walking for recovery. I was actually a little disappointed with how I did. I did the exercise as assigned, but expected to be able to kick it up a bit considering my recent running. I guess over a week off, and being sick this weekend, did me in, cause I was REALLY tired and didn't run nearly as long as I've done before. Hopefully Wednesday's cardio will feel better.
Either way, I did 55 minutes on the treadmill this morning for 4 miles and over 600 calories burned. Not a bad start to the day. Now I knew I'd feel good if I could get myself up and do the exercise. Why did it take me so long to do it?
I really hope I can stick to this program. I'm a little less than 19 weeks out from the wedding, which means I could do this program 3 times through and maybe really see some changes.
So - so far so good. Last week I cut out the alcohol. This week, no alcohol PLUS exercise. I really think I might see something good at weigh in on Thursday!
Here's to: Day 9 of no alcohol Day 1 of Boot Camp!
Here we go...
MONDAY
I had a great weekend. I'm in such a good place today. First, I had no alcohol. Erik had Daniel and we didn't go out at all this weekend. As I posted earlier, I was kinda sick on Saturday morning, but somehow it mostly cleared itself up by Saturday night and I feel good today. Yesterday I was kind of lazy but got a lot of little things done around the house including laundry, sorting and responding to mail, organizing counters. I didn't get any boxes unpacked, but I'll count my small victories.
Food-wise I was fabulous on Saturday which showed me 215.4 yesterday on the scale (so this is day 2 in the 215's). Yesterday I splurged a little at dinner, had 6 wings and small fries at Taco Mac, but I was really low on calories there rest of the day so apparently it didn't hurt me on the scale this morning.
Last night Erik left for a 4 day trip to DC for work. After he left, I had dinner, then went and browsed Books a Million for a couple hours. I ended up buying a book that provides a boot-camp style program for 6 weeks that includes cardio, weights & pilates. It's called 6 weeks to a bikini. Now I'm much farther than 6 weeks away from wearing a bikini, but I liked the format, I liked that all of the weight training could be done at home, and I like the bit of pilates thrown in. I've always wanted to try that and never did.
So, with that encouragement, I got my lazy ass up this morning at 8:00 am (I know - so NOT early) and hit the treadmill for my "Week 1, Monday" assignment. It was interval training which basically means really hard running mixed in with jogging/walking for recovery. I was actually a little disappointed with how I did. I did the exercise as assigned, but expected to be able to kick it up a bit considering my recent running. I guess over a week off, and being sick this weekend, did me in, cause I was REALLY tired and didn't run nearly as long as I've done before. Hopefully Wednesday's cardio will feel better.
Either way, I did 55 minutes on the treadmill this morning for 4 miles and over 600 calories burned. Not a bad start to the day. Now I knew I'd feel good if I could get myself up and do the exercise. Why did it take me so long to do it?
I really hope I can stick to this program. I'm a little less than 19 weeks out from the wedding, which means I could do this program 3 times through and maybe really see some changes.
So - so far so good. Last week I cut out the alcohol. This week, no alcohol PLUS exercise. I really think I might see something good at weigh in on Thursday!
Here's to: Day 9 of no alcohol Day 1 of Boot Camp!
Here we go...
Friday, April 18, 2008
It's working...
217.0
FRIDAY
TGIF. Really. I'm not sure what went on this week but it's been so tough to be at work. I've been VERY unproductive, and really just kinda bleh about everything. Part of it is getting used to a new schedule. Holly and I try to carpool as much as possible to save money on gas and miles on the car. The problem is she just started a new schedule that is 10:30-7:00. Sounds fabulous right? She doesn't get to my house till 9:45 in the morning so I have "all" this time in the morning, right? Wrong. I sleep till 9:00 then get up and get ready. What's the deal with that?
Every day this week that I carpooled with her, I set my alarm for 8:00 thinking - that's still really sleeping in, and I can get up, run and feel great the rest of the day. What do I do? Snoooooooze. What the hell? It's not like I'm not getting enough sleep! We're asleep before midnight, so no excuse to lounge around till 9:00. WHY can't I get motivated?
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven't run in a little over a week. I think it's one of those things - when you get used to exercising, you crave it, or at least it feels normal, important. Maybe if I can be successful at running before work just 1 day next week, I'll enjoy it so much I'll be able to make it a habit. Grrrr.
So the good news is that I'm still alcohol free. Notwithstanding the fact that we've gone out EVERY night this week. Not usual for us, but for whatever reason, we did. Wednesday night we went to dinner and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Sake. Last night we went to Y-Knots - our normal Thursday night hangout - and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Gin. Boy is Erik loving my new found sobriety. He has a DD every day! But the good news is that even though I haven't been exactly good this week food-wise, the scale is going down.
I didn't weigh in yesterday because I knew it'd be a gain. I know, I know, bad excuse. But hey, I'm still staying on track regardless. I hope to weigh in next week. I'd like to get the scale back into the 215 area and below this week.
Small steps, though, right? This week the focus was on having fun without alcohol. Next week we need to get exercise back in. Starting this weekend. Erik has his son this weekend, so shouldn't be anything too crazy going on. No plans to go out tonight (for once) but I DO plan to get a run in. Tomorrow Daniel has a baseball game early, then I have a poker tournament I might play, but still no alcohol to be drank! Sunday is church and more exercise. I'm looking forward to this weekend very much.
Day 6 of Sobriety and still truckin!
FRIDAY
TGIF. Really. I'm not sure what went on this week but it's been so tough to be at work. I've been VERY unproductive, and really just kinda bleh about everything. Part of it is getting used to a new schedule. Holly and I try to carpool as much as possible to save money on gas and miles on the car. The problem is she just started a new schedule that is 10:30-7:00. Sounds fabulous right? She doesn't get to my house till 9:45 in the morning so I have "all" this time in the morning, right? Wrong. I sleep till 9:00 then get up and get ready. What's the deal with that?
Every day this week that I carpooled with her, I set my alarm for 8:00 thinking - that's still really sleeping in, and I can get up, run and feel great the rest of the day. What do I do? Snoooooooze. What the hell? It's not like I'm not getting enough sleep! We're asleep before midnight, so no excuse to lounge around till 9:00. WHY can't I get motivated?
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven't run in a little over a week. I think it's one of those things - when you get used to exercising, you crave it, or at least it feels normal, important. Maybe if I can be successful at running before work just 1 day next week, I'll enjoy it so much I'll be able to make it a habit. Grrrr.
So the good news is that I'm still alcohol free. Notwithstanding the fact that we've gone out EVERY night this week. Not usual for us, but for whatever reason, we did. Wednesday night we went to dinner and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Sake. Last night we went to Y-Knots - our normal Thursday night hangout - and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Gin. Boy is Erik loving my new found sobriety. He has a DD every day! But the good news is that even though I haven't been exactly good this week food-wise, the scale is going down.
I didn't weigh in yesterday because I knew it'd be a gain. I know, I know, bad excuse. But hey, I'm still staying on track regardless. I hope to weigh in next week. I'd like to get the scale back into the 215 area and below this week.
Small steps, though, right? This week the focus was on having fun without alcohol. Next week we need to get exercise back in. Starting this weekend. Erik has his son this weekend, so shouldn't be anything too crazy going on. No plans to go out tonight (for once) but I DO plan to get a run in. Tomorrow Daniel has a baseball game early, then I have a poker tournament I might play, but still no alcohol to be drank! Sunday is church and more exercise. I'm looking forward to this weekend very much.
Day 6 of Sobriety and still truckin!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sobriety...
217.8 (better, but still..)
WEDNESDAY
Well I have some small successes to report, besides the scale getting back in a reasonable range. not the 215 I saw 2 weeks ago, but it's going back down, so that's good.
My success is on the alcohol front. I've totally gone out the last two nights - Monday at Erik's request and last night on my own when he had a Kiwanis meeting - and had...drum roll please....NO ALCOHOL. Ok, so maybe that should not be such a huge announcement, but I cannot remember the last time I went out to a bar for poker and did not drink alcohol. I bet it was a time when I was really hung over. Seriously. I'm a huge social drinker and always like to have something in my hand. Diet coke it was last night. That problem is that waitresses are not eager to refill your diet coke since you already paid for it. So I had to get up a couple times and walk to the bar for a refill. Oh well, more exercise, right?
So maybe that's why the scale has gone down despite the fact that I cannot seem to get my lazy butt to exercise this week. Maybe.
So we're on day 4 of my new sobriety. I'm not promising a 4 month streak, but I'm going to see how far I can go. Holly brought up the idea of having a party next weekend, which would be a real challenge because when we host parties, it's all about the drinking. But we'll see.
Nothing else too exciting to report. Boy my blog is boring... ;-)
WEDNESDAY
Well I have some small successes to report, besides the scale getting back in a reasonable range. not the 215 I saw 2 weeks ago, but it's going back down, so that's good.
My success is on the alcohol front. I've totally gone out the last two nights - Monday at Erik's request and last night on my own when he had a Kiwanis meeting - and had...drum roll please....NO ALCOHOL. Ok, so maybe that should not be such a huge announcement, but I cannot remember the last time I went out to a bar for poker and did not drink alcohol. I bet it was a time when I was really hung over. Seriously. I'm a huge social drinker and always like to have something in my hand. Diet coke it was last night. That problem is that waitresses are not eager to refill your diet coke since you already paid for it. So I had to get up a couple times and walk to the bar for a refill. Oh well, more exercise, right?
So maybe that's why the scale has gone down despite the fact that I cannot seem to get my lazy butt to exercise this week. Maybe.
So we're on day 4 of my new sobriety. I'm not promising a 4 month streak, but I'm going to see how far I can go. Holly brought up the idea of having a party next weekend, which would be a real challenge because when we host parties, it's all about the drinking. But we'll see.
Nothing else too exciting to report. Boy my blog is boring... ;-)
Monday, April 14, 2008
No more excuses
220.8 (oh yeah).
MONDAY
Ok, so no more excuses. No more parties. No more trips. For awhile at least. This morning's weigh in is the first I've had in a few days as I was out of town in Miami for an associate's retreat. I do attribute some of it to being dehydrated. I kept waking up last night dying of thirst and I was very bad about water this weekend. But that doesn't explain most of it. Most of it is 4 days of not tracking, of eating what I want, of not exercising, of drinking alcohol.
So here I declare. NO MORE ALCOHOL. That's a start. I WILL TRACK ALL FOOD. That's another good start. We'll see how long I go. By calculations, I have no "need" to drink alcohol until August for my bachelorette party and then wedding. Nothing special planned between now and then. So why not detox for 3-4 months?
Very ambitious I know, but I'm going to try. I really want to see if I can do it. For the diet, but also for myself. I know I'm not an alcoholic, but I do drink frequently. I have a really bad family history of alcoholism and alcohol related deaths. I need to prove to myself that this is just an indulgence, not some sort of dependency.
So here we go. Day 2 of no alcohol (had my last drink about 10:00 pm Saturday night). I'll report daily I hope on my success's.
Also, we will be tracking food and exercising. I've got just under 19 weeks before the wedding. Time to get serious.
MONDAY
Ok, so no more excuses. No more parties. No more trips. For awhile at least. This morning's weigh in is the first I've had in a few days as I was out of town in Miami for an associate's retreat. I do attribute some of it to being dehydrated. I kept waking up last night dying of thirst and I was very bad about water this weekend. But that doesn't explain most of it. Most of it is 4 days of not tracking, of eating what I want, of not exercising, of drinking alcohol.
So here I declare. NO MORE ALCOHOL. That's a start. I WILL TRACK ALL FOOD. That's another good start. We'll see how long I go. By calculations, I have no "need" to drink alcohol until August for my bachelorette party and then wedding. Nothing special planned between now and then. So why not detox for 3-4 months?
Very ambitious I know, but I'm going to try. I really want to see if I can do it. For the diet, but also for myself. I know I'm not an alcoholic, but I do drink frequently. I have a really bad family history of alcoholism and alcohol related deaths. I need to prove to myself that this is just an indulgence, not some sort of dependency.
So here we go. Day 2 of no alcohol (had my last drink about 10:00 pm Saturday night). I'll report daily I hope on my success's.
Also, we will be tracking food and exercising. I've got just under 19 weeks before the wedding. Time to get serious.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Why do we sabotoge?
217.6
MONDAY
So, after my AMAZING weigh in on Thursday, what did I do? Proceed to eat and drink merrily for 3 days. What the hell? I have a co-worker who sits next to me at the office who's also doing weight watchers. She came in this morning and we compared notes. We both agree that one of our biggest struggles is that we totally self-sabotage when we have a good week/day/scale showing. Her's this week was a morning scale-hop - she saw a good number and then justified copious amounts of ice cream. Mine was my fabulous weigh in on Thursday justifying a stupid alcohol binge on Friday night. The worst part about it was that Erik & I had plans to go to the movies on Friday which, at worst, would have resulted in a popcorn binge. Instead, at the last minute, we decided to go to Y-Knots and drink too much. Well I, at least, drank too much. Which lead to 11:00 pm ordering of "pub rolls" these fabulously cheesy, chicken roll thingies that are, of course, deep fried and very good. I wasn't even HUNGRY but the alcohol ALWAYS has me craving food. Bad girl.
Saturday and Sunday were better but not perfect. I had a wonderfully productive weekend house-wise and got lots of boxes unpacked. But Saturday we did go to that movie and I did have that popcorn binge. Sunday after church we went to Ted's Montana Grill for Bison burgers and Mexican for dinner (dinner was Erik's idea, but did I object? NO!).
Oh - and have I logged all this craziness into Sparkpeople? Of course not.
SO - today has been declared another 1200 calorie day. I can DO this. I WILL have a light lunch. I WILL run 3 miles as SOON as I get home, and I WILL eat VERY little for dinner. I WILL. All is not lost. The scale reading today is about what it was last Wednesday before my kick butt day/work out that dropped it to the 215's. I can still recover before Thursday. But oh - how low would I be if this weekend never happened?
Eh - woulda, coulda, shoulda, right? Moving on...
MONDAY
So, after my AMAZING weigh in on Thursday, what did I do? Proceed to eat and drink merrily for 3 days. What the hell? I have a co-worker who sits next to me at the office who's also doing weight watchers. She came in this morning and we compared notes. We both agree that one of our biggest struggles is that we totally self-sabotage when we have a good week/day/scale showing. Her's this week was a morning scale-hop - she saw a good number and then justified copious amounts of ice cream. Mine was my fabulous weigh in on Thursday justifying a stupid alcohol binge on Friday night. The worst part about it was that Erik & I had plans to go to the movies on Friday which, at worst, would have resulted in a popcorn binge. Instead, at the last minute, we decided to go to Y-Knots and drink too much. Well I, at least, drank too much. Which lead to 11:00 pm ordering of "pub rolls" these fabulously cheesy, chicken roll thingies that are, of course, deep fried and very good. I wasn't even HUNGRY but the alcohol ALWAYS has me craving food. Bad girl.
Saturday and Sunday were better but not perfect. I had a wonderfully productive weekend house-wise and got lots of boxes unpacked. But Saturday we did go to that movie and I did have that popcorn binge. Sunday after church we went to Ted's Montana Grill for Bison burgers and Mexican for dinner (dinner was Erik's idea, but did I object? NO!).
Oh - and have I logged all this craziness into Sparkpeople? Of course not.
SO - today has been declared another 1200 calorie day. I can DO this. I WILL have a light lunch. I WILL run 3 miles as SOON as I get home, and I WILL eat VERY little for dinner. I WILL. All is not lost. The scale reading today is about what it was last Wednesday before my kick butt day/work out that dropped it to the 215's. I can still recover before Thursday. But oh - how low would I be if this weekend never happened?
Eh - woulda, coulda, shoulda, right? Moving on...
Monday, March 17, 2008
St. Patty's Day!
221.6
MONDAY
SO much has happened in the last week. - why don't I post more often?!? Oh yeah, cause I'm CRAZY busy with everything except work. Go figure.
Anyway, Wednesday I did, indeed, buy a dress. I ordered my fabulous wedding dress, and it will be here mid July. Yeah - time to totally get crackin on this weight loss stuff! Holly also ordered her bridesmaid dress, and I've instructed Gloria to get me measurements for hers. I think I've also decided on the junior bridesmaid dresses, but I'm still thinking on that.
Wedding invitations went out on Thursday morning. Or at least most of them. Erik is still getting me addresses for several people, and I dropped another 10 in the mail today, but for the most part they're out. People have started viewing our wedding website, which is exciting. One person (a very reliable guy) has already booked his room. yeah!
House is about 2/3rds of the way packed. We are living amongst boxes, people. And lots of them. We spent about 4 hours on Saturday and another 2 last night packing. We have maybe 3 or 4 more to go. Hopefully that will get done tomorrow. Erik's begged off a reprieve for tonight after our very productive weekend.
Closing is set for tomorrow, and according to my lender and realtor all is good. We do our final "walk-through" tonight at 7:00.
I had a weekend retreat for work last weekend that was wonderful information-wise, but I had WAAAY too much wine on Friday night. not a good thing since I was with co-workers. I absolutely hate that I did that. I don't "think" I did anything stupid, but there are fuzzy spots near the end of the night, that tells me I just don't know. No one said anything at the meetings on Saturday morning, but I hate that feeling of wondering if you said or did something stupid. Very bad. I'm actually really pissed at myself for this. I shouldn't get drunk ever, but it's relatively harmless when I'm with my fiance, or close friends. With work people it's completely inexcusable, even if they do provide you with unlimited liquor & wine in the hospitality suite...
So, understandably Saturday I was hung over and feeling crappy - and thus eating crappy. Sunday was Erik's son's birthday party at his mother's house (Erik's ex-wife). That went well considering, she's actually very civil to me to my face at least. Besides, she was too busy being pissed at Erik for getting Daniel there later than she preferred ("what's more important, Church or your son's birthday?"... huh?) Whatever.
Got a little sun burnt yesterday, but I could use it.
Today I'm super slow at work, again. I've asked for work and been told that it's "coming". Since it's slow, I signed up for a CLE (continuing legal education) class all day Wednesday in an area I'd like to work in (White Collar Crime). It's being co-hosted by one of the partners in my firm, so it's a good networking idea anyway.
Hopefully things will pick up later this week. I've got to get some projects to work on!
Tonight after our walk-through I think we're going out, but I AM NOT GOING TO DRINK. Ok, I've said it in all caps so I have to follow through, right? I could probably lose 20 lbs b/w now and the wedding just by cutting out alcohol. Why is that so hard?
MONDAY
SO much has happened in the last week. - why don't I post more often?!? Oh yeah, cause I'm CRAZY busy with everything except work. Go figure.
Anyway, Wednesday I did, indeed, buy a dress. I ordered my fabulous wedding dress, and it will be here mid July. Yeah - time to totally get crackin on this weight loss stuff! Holly also ordered her bridesmaid dress, and I've instructed Gloria to get me measurements for hers. I think I've also decided on the junior bridesmaid dresses, but I'm still thinking on that.
Wedding invitations went out on Thursday morning. Or at least most of them. Erik is still getting me addresses for several people, and I dropped another 10 in the mail today, but for the most part they're out. People have started viewing our wedding website, which is exciting. One person (a very reliable guy) has already booked his room. yeah!
House is about 2/3rds of the way packed. We are living amongst boxes, people. And lots of them. We spent about 4 hours on Saturday and another 2 last night packing. We have maybe 3 or 4 more to go. Hopefully that will get done tomorrow. Erik's begged off a reprieve for tonight after our very productive weekend.
Closing is set for tomorrow, and according to my lender and realtor all is good. We do our final "walk-through" tonight at 7:00.
I had a weekend retreat for work last weekend that was wonderful information-wise, but I had WAAAY too much wine on Friday night. not a good thing since I was with co-workers. I absolutely hate that I did that. I don't "think" I did anything stupid, but there are fuzzy spots near the end of the night, that tells me I just don't know. No one said anything at the meetings on Saturday morning, but I hate that feeling of wondering if you said or did something stupid. Very bad. I'm actually really pissed at myself for this. I shouldn't get drunk ever, but it's relatively harmless when I'm with my fiance, or close friends. With work people it's completely inexcusable, even if they do provide you with unlimited liquor & wine in the hospitality suite...
So, understandably Saturday I was hung over and feeling crappy - and thus eating crappy. Sunday was Erik's son's birthday party at his mother's house (Erik's ex-wife). That went well considering, she's actually very civil to me to my face at least. Besides, she was too busy being pissed at Erik for getting Daniel there later than she preferred ("what's more important, Church or your son's birthday?"... huh?) Whatever.
Got a little sun burnt yesterday, but I could use it.
Today I'm super slow at work, again. I've asked for work and been told that it's "coming". Since it's slow, I signed up for a CLE (continuing legal education) class all day Wednesday in an area I'd like to work in (White Collar Crime). It's being co-hosted by one of the partners in my firm, so it's a good networking idea anyway.
Hopefully things will pick up later this week. I've got to get some projects to work on!
Tonight after our walk-through I think we're going out, but I AM NOT GOING TO DRINK. Ok, I've said it in all caps so I have to follow through, right? I could probably lose 20 lbs b/w now and the wedding just by cutting out alcohol. Why is that so hard?
Monday, January 14, 2008
YEAH!
Last WI: 224.8/Morning WI: 221.0 (YEAH)
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Alcohol is the Devil
Don't ask
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Sabotage, Sabotage
Last WI: 214.6/At Home WI: 214.6 (better, but not good).
THURSDAY
Well it's Thursday - WI day - and I have mixed emotions. I woke up yesterday to 216+ on the scale and really felt my week was over. Part of that high number was the beers I had the night before, but it was also a good part legitimate bad eating. I planned to have a perfect day yesterday. It started off right with my balance bar for breakfast but when I got to work, Holly was waiting for me. She works with me, but usually in a different office. She had to come by our office for something so we caught up and gossiped for a while. She ended up staying till after 11:00 and wanted to go to lunch. Now this is the bride I described before - eats EVERYTHING and will be wearing a size 2 wedding dress. Yes 2. So she of course wanted to go to Slices - a great pizza place down the road. I had planned on subway for my "perfect day" but gave in (surprise surprise). I did only have 1 slice of pizza - it's one of those places that have huge slices - and she had two (bitch). :-)
Obviously the scale is down this morning, though frankly I'm surprised. I was late getting out of work and had agreed to volunteer at the fair again last night. So I picked up McDonald's for dinner - very healthy. Then after a few hours at the fair I agreed to let Erik get me a hot dog - didn't need it. And finally, instead of going to the gym when my shift ended at 8:30 I went home. And had a glass of wine. Oh the good choices abound.
So this week has sucked. It's so common for me to have like 4-6 weeks of going great and then sabotage. I know I'll see a gain if I go to WI today. I'm thinking about not going. Now I know they always say you should "face the music" and WI anyway. But I hate seeing the gain. I don't know. I haven't decided. I think part of it will depend on scheduling. I've got an appointment out of the office at 3:00 to meet with a witness (named Pig - charming huh?). If I get done with that appointment in time, I should be able to go home, change cars and clothes and WI before I need to be at the fair at 5:45 (last night of volunteering). The good news is that for the 2nd week in a row I won't have my typical Thursday night after WI drinking binge due to the fair commitment. Any hot dog/fair food I eat could not be worse that consuming bar food and 10 beers.
So here's the plan. I've let myself go this week on both food and exercise. I'll forgive myself that. We all need a break now and then. I have got to recommit though. WI or no WI today I have got to make this coming week a good one. I'm back to a normal schedule with the exception of Saturday which will be crazy football day. Holly's an Alabama grad and I'm an FSU grad. Well, this year is the first year in a very long time that our teams play each other. So we got tickets. It's a game in Jacksonville so Holly, Dana, me and Erik are driving down Saturday for a 5:00 game and have to come back afterwards because Holly has to teach Sunday school in the morning. Will be a very long day with one of us very unhappy. But should be fun regardless. I'm looking forward to it. Tomorrow night we're celebrating Erik's birthday with friends. He turned 36 last Friday but had family in town, and then the fair, so we haven't really been able to celebrate. So I will be DD that night and he will be getting toasted I'm sure. That should be fun. And then Sunday we have a different poker league that has a game. Busy weekend, but with the exception of Saturday (game day!) I should be able to make some good food choices AND get some exercise in. That's the plan. Back on track. I've had my "vacation" from WW. Now I need to DO THIS. Not long till the wedding!
THURSDAY
Well it's Thursday - WI day - and I have mixed emotions. I woke up yesterday to 216+ on the scale and really felt my week was over. Part of that high number was the beers I had the night before, but it was also a good part legitimate bad eating. I planned to have a perfect day yesterday. It started off right with my balance bar for breakfast but when I got to work, Holly was waiting for me. She works with me, but usually in a different office. She had to come by our office for something so we caught up and gossiped for a while. She ended up staying till after 11:00 and wanted to go to lunch. Now this is the bride I described before - eats EVERYTHING and will be wearing a size 2 wedding dress. Yes 2. So she of course wanted to go to Slices - a great pizza place down the road. I had planned on subway for my "perfect day" but gave in (surprise surprise). I did only have 1 slice of pizza - it's one of those places that have huge slices - and she had two (bitch). :-)
Obviously the scale is down this morning, though frankly I'm surprised. I was late getting out of work and had agreed to volunteer at the fair again last night. So I picked up McDonald's for dinner - very healthy. Then after a few hours at the fair I agreed to let Erik get me a hot dog - didn't need it. And finally, instead of going to the gym when my shift ended at 8:30 I went home. And had a glass of wine. Oh the good choices abound.
So this week has sucked. It's so common for me to have like 4-6 weeks of going great and then sabotage. I know I'll see a gain if I go to WI today. I'm thinking about not going. Now I know they always say you should "face the music" and WI anyway. But I hate seeing the gain. I don't know. I haven't decided. I think part of it will depend on scheduling. I've got an appointment out of the office at 3:00 to meet with a witness (named Pig - charming huh?). If I get done with that appointment in time, I should be able to go home, change cars and clothes and WI before I need to be at the fair at 5:45 (last night of volunteering). The good news is that for the 2nd week in a row I won't have my typical Thursday night after WI drinking binge due to the fair commitment. Any hot dog/fair food I eat could not be worse that consuming bar food and 10 beers.
So here's the plan. I've let myself go this week on both food and exercise. I'll forgive myself that. We all need a break now and then. I have got to recommit though. WI or no WI today I have got to make this coming week a good one. I'm back to a normal schedule with the exception of Saturday which will be crazy football day. Holly's an Alabama grad and I'm an FSU grad. Well, this year is the first year in a very long time that our teams play each other. So we got tickets. It's a game in Jacksonville so Holly, Dana, me and Erik are driving down Saturday for a 5:00 game and have to come back afterwards because Holly has to teach Sunday school in the morning. Will be a very long day with one of us very unhappy. But should be fun regardless. I'm looking forward to it. Tomorrow night we're celebrating Erik's birthday with friends. He turned 36 last Friday but had family in town, and then the fair, so we haven't really been able to celebrate. So I will be DD that night and he will be getting toasted I'm sure. That should be fun. And then Sunday we have a different poker league that has a game. Busy weekend, but with the exception of Saturday (game day!) I should be able to make some good food choices AND get some exercise in. That's the plan. Back on track. I've had my "vacation" from WW. Now I need to DO THIS. Not long till the wedding!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Over-indulging
Last WI: 216.8/At Home WI: 217.6
TUESDAY
As you can see by this morning's scale reading - I went overboard yesterday. I knew I was going to and I really did nothing to stop or prevent it. Let's start with Sunday - my last "good" day. After the gym, I didn't leave the house. Erik went into work for a bit and I read/napped. When he got home we watched the netflix movies we had and ordered Chinese in. I was "ok" in that I order chicken chow mien - which is good - but also had two egg rolls - which is bad. All in all though it was still a very good day and I came in under points. I was rewarded yesterday with a scale reading of 215.8 - lowest yet.
Then yesterday came. Every year my best friend Holly and I have a party on labor day. The last few years, it's also coincided with the first FSU game. So this year we planned for a 2:00 start with drinks, snacks, and some craps. We then started a poker tournament at 7:00 and the football game started at 8:00. I was doing ok until the football came kicked off. I had been drinking some, but mixed in some non-alcoholic drinks as well. I wanted to see the game. Then the game came on....and we did HORRIBLY. I mean bad. And Holly started delivering jagger-bombs to me and others - I think to help dull the pain of my team playing so badly.
Ultimately I had to ask Erik the final score this morning. I knew we lost cause I had no memory of being happy at the end of the night, but I didn't know how bad. Turns out we sort of rallied in the second half and brought the score within 6 but couldn't close it out. We lost 24 to 18. :-(
So - I did end up doing well in the poker tournament at least. But, I drank too much - munched on snacks too much - and feel like crap today for it. Why do I DO this to myself?
So I'm at work, trying to wrap up the day. It's been rough. The day has DRAGGED by and I totally came in late. Erik called a while ago too and said he wants to go to the gym with me again tonight. Which is actually really a good thing because I need to go and feeling like I do would likely come up with a justification for not going. Having him want to go commits me to going. I need to. I'm scheduled to do 3 miles today and I really need to keep up the schedule if I want to lose this week.
I desperately hope that the scale gets back under 216 tomorrow. I was so happy to see the 215's - I'd hate to have ruined it all. Now I know I didn't gain 2lbs in one day, but I need to recover quickly as Thursday's approachin.
Today I've had a huge publix sub for lunch. I had bought it yesterday on the way to the party with the idea that I would eat that instead of junk food, but it didn't work. So I missed breakfast today and had it for lunch. I was more than I should have had though - it was a whole sub and at publix those are huge. I'm counting it at 18pts which is a LOT. I also just had a peach to try to get some fruit in for the day. Shortly I'll be leaving to head home and meet Erik for the gym. Dinner tonight will be something very light and I will desperately try not to eat any of the APs I earn.
Just in a foul mood today. I hate FSU losing the first game of the season. Booo! Grrrr. Grump grump.
TUESDAY
As you can see by this morning's scale reading - I went overboard yesterday. I knew I was going to and I really did nothing to stop or prevent it. Let's start with Sunday - my last "good" day. After the gym, I didn't leave the house. Erik went into work for a bit and I read/napped. When he got home we watched the netflix movies we had and ordered Chinese in. I was "ok" in that I order chicken chow mien - which is good - but also had two egg rolls - which is bad. All in all though it was still a very good day and I came in under points. I was rewarded yesterday with a scale reading of 215.8 - lowest yet.
Then yesterday came. Every year my best friend Holly and I have a party on labor day. The last few years, it's also coincided with the first FSU game. So this year we planned for a 2:00 start with drinks, snacks, and some craps. We then started a poker tournament at 7:00 and the football game started at 8:00. I was doing ok until the football came kicked off. I had been drinking some, but mixed in some non-alcoholic drinks as well. I wanted to see the game. Then the game came on....and we did HORRIBLY. I mean bad. And Holly started delivering jagger-bombs to me and others - I think to help dull the pain of my team playing so badly.
Ultimately I had to ask Erik the final score this morning. I knew we lost cause I had no memory of being happy at the end of the night, but I didn't know how bad. Turns out we sort of rallied in the second half and brought the score within 6 but couldn't close it out. We lost 24 to 18. :-(
So - I did end up doing well in the poker tournament at least. But, I drank too much - munched on snacks too much - and feel like crap today for it. Why do I DO this to myself?
So I'm at work, trying to wrap up the day. It's been rough. The day has DRAGGED by and I totally came in late. Erik called a while ago too and said he wants to go to the gym with me again tonight. Which is actually really a good thing because I need to go and feeling like I do would likely come up with a justification for not going. Having him want to go commits me to going. I need to. I'm scheduled to do 3 miles today and I really need to keep up the schedule if I want to lose this week.
I desperately hope that the scale gets back under 216 tomorrow. I was so happy to see the 215's - I'd hate to have ruined it all. Now I know I didn't gain 2lbs in one day, but I need to recover quickly as Thursday's approachin.
Today I've had a huge publix sub for lunch. I had bought it yesterday on the way to the party with the idea that I would eat that instead of junk food, but it didn't work. So I missed breakfast today and had it for lunch. I was more than I should have had though - it was a whole sub and at publix those are huge. I'm counting it at 18pts which is a LOT. I also just had a peach to try to get some fruit in for the day. Shortly I'll be leaving to head home and meet Erik for the gym. Dinner tonight will be something very light and I will desperately try not to eat any of the APs I earn.
Just in a foul mood today. I hate FSU losing the first game of the season. Booo! Grrrr. Grump grump.
Friday, August 31, 2007
I love being WRONG (this time)
Last WI: 216.8 (!!)/At Home WI: 217.0
FRIDAY
YEAH! I am so happy I was wrong! I went to WI yesterday and lost 1.8 lbs. That is wonderful for me. I will always be shooting for 2+ lbs but anytime I do 1.5 or more, I'm thrilled. I am ON MY WAY!
That said, I'm still not in any sort of new territory. I was as low as 211.8 in January so I'll REALLY feel successful once I pass that mark. But I'm moving right along and that's all I can do.
Last night - as per usual - I went out and overindulged. But I'm ok with that. I've got my gym bag packed and I'm headed there after work to get in 2.5 miles at least. I've got a plan and it's working. Boy does that feel good!
FRIDAY
YEAH! I am so happy I was wrong! I went to WI yesterday and lost 1.8 lbs. That is wonderful for me. I will always be shooting for 2+ lbs but anytime I do 1.5 or more, I'm thrilled. I am ON MY WAY!
That said, I'm still not in any sort of new territory. I was as low as 211.8 in January so I'll REALLY feel successful once I pass that mark. But I'm moving right along and that's all I can do.
Last night - as per usual - I went out and overindulged. But I'm ok with that. I've got my gym bag packed and I'm headed there after work to get in 2.5 miles at least. I've got a plan and it's working. Boy does that feel good!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Am I Becoming a Gym Rat
Last WI: 218.6/At Home WI: 217.0 (woo hoo!)
TUESDAY
So maybe I'm not actually becoming a gym rat - I think those people actually look forward to going to the gym. I'm not going to delude myself on that issue - I don't hate it, but it's definitely not the highlight of my day. But I am going much more frequently these days.
Yesterday I got off work later than I hoped - like 4:30 (my usual off time) and made it home a little after 5:00 and wanted to go to the gym. I was concerned that I wouldn't make it home in time for people to start showing up for our Monday night poker game that started at 7:00. Generally no one shows up till 6:45 or later, but on occasion as early as 6:30. And of course, after my work out I need to shower and change before I can be seen by civilized friends...
Anyway, I beeped Erik (love Nextel!) and he said he thought he could get out of work on time and be home by 6:00. Score! I headed off to the gym to see what kind of cardio damage I could do.
I did very well! I did a total of 60 minutes on the elliptical machines. My gym has two types of ellipticals, one type there are about 6 machines, one type there is only one machine. Of course the one that has only one machine is a favorite of most people so it's often occupied. So I jumped on the more common type and kicked out 30 minutes. Just as minute 29 was passing, they guy on the popular machine finished. So I finished out my 30 minutes on the first machine then kicked out another 30 on the other one. Woo Hoo - 60 minutes of good heart thumping cardio. The machines said I burned 960 or so calories, so I'm counting 9 APs. Not bad.
So far this month (which is almost over I know) I've done 91 APs worth of exercise. Definitely a banner month for me. That's over 9100 calories burned. Probably more like over 10,000 since I always low ball my APs. Awesome. Amazing how diet and exercise work. lol.
Well, I ended up getting home about 6:20. No one (but Erik) was there yet so I jumped in the shower. By the time I was cleaned up Holly had shown up and others were on their way. I didn't want to make a sandwich or cook dinner in front of guests, so for "dinner" I ended up just munching on the snacks Erik had put out. I did cut up some broccoli, but mostly my dinner consisted of beer, light tostitos, bacon cheddar dip, and broccoli. Very healthy, yes. But hey - it could be worse.
So this morning I had a gorgeous 217 on the scale. I truly hope that wasn't dehydration from the beer... I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
Due to some running around I missed breakfast this morning and ended up having lunch with Holly at Bugaboo Creek Steakhouse. Now I ordered my favorite non-steak item - the twin peaks chicken sandwich. I had a house salad with ranch to start and it came with fries but I only had like 3 or 4 of them. The sandwich is definitely high points though. I just can't figure out how much. It's a Cuban style bread, grilled chicken, Swiss and Monterrey jack cheese and spicy mustard. Probably a total of 8 or 9 inches long. I'm guessing at least 12 pts. Not sure.
Anyway - tonight I'm headed to the gym, probably with Erik, for 2.5 miles. Hopefully it'll go as well as Sunday's run!
Here's hoping!
TUESDAY
So maybe I'm not actually becoming a gym rat - I think those people actually look forward to going to the gym. I'm not going to delude myself on that issue - I don't hate it, but it's definitely not the highlight of my day. But I am going much more frequently these days.
Yesterday I got off work later than I hoped - like 4:30 (my usual off time) and made it home a little after 5:00 and wanted to go to the gym. I was concerned that I wouldn't make it home in time for people to start showing up for our Monday night poker game that started at 7:00. Generally no one shows up till 6:45 or later, but on occasion as early as 6:30. And of course, after my work out I need to shower and change before I can be seen by civilized friends...
Anyway, I beeped Erik (love Nextel!) and he said he thought he could get out of work on time and be home by 6:00. Score! I headed off to the gym to see what kind of cardio damage I could do.
I did very well! I did a total of 60 minutes on the elliptical machines. My gym has two types of ellipticals, one type there are about 6 machines, one type there is only one machine. Of course the one that has only one machine is a favorite of most people so it's often occupied. So I jumped on the more common type and kicked out 30 minutes. Just as minute 29 was passing, they guy on the popular machine finished. So I finished out my 30 minutes on the first machine then kicked out another 30 on the other one. Woo Hoo - 60 minutes of good heart thumping cardio. The machines said I burned 960 or so calories, so I'm counting 9 APs. Not bad.
So far this month (which is almost over I know) I've done 91 APs worth of exercise. Definitely a banner month for me. That's over 9100 calories burned. Probably more like over 10,000 since I always low ball my APs. Awesome. Amazing how diet and exercise work. lol.
Well, I ended up getting home about 6:20. No one (but Erik) was there yet so I jumped in the shower. By the time I was cleaned up Holly had shown up and others were on their way. I didn't want to make a sandwich or cook dinner in front of guests, so for "dinner" I ended up just munching on the snacks Erik had put out. I did cut up some broccoli, but mostly my dinner consisted of beer, light tostitos, bacon cheddar dip, and broccoli. Very healthy, yes. But hey - it could be worse.
So this morning I had a gorgeous 217 on the scale. I truly hope that wasn't dehydration from the beer... I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
Due to some running around I missed breakfast this morning and ended up having lunch with Holly at Bugaboo Creek Steakhouse. Now I ordered my favorite non-steak item - the twin peaks chicken sandwich. I had a house salad with ranch to start and it came with fries but I only had like 3 or 4 of them. The sandwich is definitely high points though. I just can't figure out how much. It's a Cuban style bread, grilled chicken, Swiss and Monterrey jack cheese and spicy mustard. Probably a total of 8 or 9 inches long. I'm guessing at least 12 pts. Not sure.
Anyway - tonight I'm headed to the gym, probably with Erik, for 2.5 miles. Hopefully it'll go as well as Sunday's run!
Here's hoping!
Monday, August 27, 2007
Late Night McDonald's Run. :-(
Last WI: 218.6/At Home WI: 217.8
MONDAY
Well, the weekend was nice and "ok" food-wise. I left work Friday and got a good 2.5 mile run in. I say "good" because I did it. It was REALLY hard. I realized about mile 1.5 that my asthma was making life difficult. Which is really odd because I've had asthma for some 10 or so years, but it is not exercise induced so it only effects me when I'm exercising if it was already acting up before I began exercising. I guess I didn't notice it before I got on the treadmill because I really had to push by mile 2.5. My heart rate was over 175, and I was breathing really heavy even though I was going very slow for me. But I got through it and found my inhaler when I got home - all is good. Then I went out Friday night. Erik had Daniel so I was on my own. I went to YKnots for beer and poker.
I ate "ok" - had the pubrolls appitizer which is not necessarily a good choice, but was at least a small portion size. Then I had a bunch of beer. Boo. I did check myself before I left and was ok to drive (I have a pocket breathalizer) but I was there like 5 hours and should not have consumed that many empty calories via beer. Then the worst part - I made a late night McDonald's run. Booo!
Saturday I was a total bum. I didn't work out at all. I did go to the grocery store and stock the house with good choices. I also bought lots of fruit to restock my work fruit bowl. Then I went to play poker in the afternoon and evening, and was better. I had 4 beers in the afternoon but they were beck's premier light - 64 calories per beer. Only one point. That's mainly because it's reduced alcohol content. They're good but expensive. I can't afford to drink those all the time. Besides lots of places don't carry it.
Then Saturday night I went to a friends house for a home game. Did well, and just snacked a bit, but didn't really have dinner and got home at 2:00 am withOUT making a late night McDonald's run. So that was good.
Sunday I laid around all day except for the trip to the gym with Erik where I had an AMAZING 4 mile run. I mean it was crazy - my run from Friday and yesterday were like night and day. I started out slow to be sure I could get the whole 4 miles in, but about 2 miles in kicked it up a little because I was feeling so good. I got a little bored, but physically I felt great. After the 4 miles I totally felt like I could have done 2 more. I actually felt guilty because I didn't feel like I'd worked out that hard, even though 4 miles is more than I've done in months. Very weird. But I'll take it. Maybe I'm finally regaining my cardio endurance I had previously. That would be nice. One factor is that I totally hit the inhaler before I started to be sure I was cool asthma-wise. Maybe that's what I needed. It's a non-steroid inhaler so it shouldn't have "enhanced" me in the bad way - just helped clear my lungs. Anyway, whatever it was, I'm thankful for the good run. I hope they continue to go so well.
Today I woke up to see 217.8 on the scale which is the lowest I've seen since I recommitted at the beginning of the month. So that's good. I'm hoping to get the scale down to about 216 by Thursday, so I'll see 2lbs at WI. But frankly any WI under 217 will be good. So - work to do.
Plan for today - I'm going to try to get out of work early enough to hit the gym before our Monday poker night. I'm hosting it tonight and people will start to show up around 6:45 or so. So if I can get home before 5:00 I should be able to get some time in at the gym. Even though I feel fine from my run yesterday I'm going to give running a break since today's technically a "rest" day and just do some elliptical. I figure I traded Saturday for my rest day since I was a slacker then. Hopefully this plan will work. Barring no craziness at work...
MONDAY
Well, the weekend was nice and "ok" food-wise. I left work Friday and got a good 2.5 mile run in. I say "good" because I did it. It was REALLY hard. I realized about mile 1.5 that my asthma was making life difficult. Which is really odd because I've had asthma for some 10 or so years, but it is not exercise induced so it only effects me when I'm exercising if it was already acting up before I began exercising. I guess I didn't notice it before I got on the treadmill because I really had to push by mile 2.5. My heart rate was over 175, and I was breathing really heavy even though I was going very slow for me. But I got through it and found my inhaler when I got home - all is good. Then I went out Friday night. Erik had Daniel so I was on my own. I went to YKnots for beer and poker.
I ate "ok" - had the pubrolls appitizer which is not necessarily a good choice, but was at least a small portion size. Then I had a bunch of beer. Boo. I did check myself before I left and was ok to drive (I have a pocket breathalizer) but I was there like 5 hours and should not have consumed that many empty calories via beer. Then the worst part - I made a late night McDonald's run. Booo!
Saturday I was a total bum. I didn't work out at all. I did go to the grocery store and stock the house with good choices. I also bought lots of fruit to restock my work fruit bowl. Then I went to play poker in the afternoon and evening, and was better. I had 4 beers in the afternoon but they were beck's premier light - 64 calories per beer. Only one point. That's mainly because it's reduced alcohol content. They're good but expensive. I can't afford to drink those all the time. Besides lots of places don't carry it.
Then Saturday night I went to a friends house for a home game. Did well, and just snacked a bit, but didn't really have dinner and got home at 2:00 am withOUT making a late night McDonald's run. So that was good.
Sunday I laid around all day except for the trip to the gym with Erik where I had an AMAZING 4 mile run. I mean it was crazy - my run from Friday and yesterday were like night and day. I started out slow to be sure I could get the whole 4 miles in, but about 2 miles in kicked it up a little because I was feeling so good. I got a little bored, but physically I felt great. After the 4 miles I totally felt like I could have done 2 more. I actually felt guilty because I didn't feel like I'd worked out that hard, even though 4 miles is more than I've done in months. Very weird. But I'll take it. Maybe I'm finally regaining my cardio endurance I had previously. That would be nice. One factor is that I totally hit the inhaler before I started to be sure I was cool asthma-wise. Maybe that's what I needed. It's a non-steroid inhaler so it shouldn't have "enhanced" me in the bad way - just helped clear my lungs. Anyway, whatever it was, I'm thankful for the good run. I hope they continue to go so well.
Today I woke up to see 217.8 on the scale which is the lowest I've seen since I recommitted at the beginning of the month. So that's good. I'm hoping to get the scale down to about 216 by Thursday, so I'll see 2lbs at WI. But frankly any WI under 217 will be good. So - work to do.
Plan for today - I'm going to try to get out of work early enough to hit the gym before our Monday poker night. I'm hosting it tonight and people will start to show up around 6:45 or so. So if I can get home before 5:00 I should be able to get some time in at the gym. Even though I feel fine from my run yesterday I'm going to give running a break since today's technically a "rest" day and just do some elliptical. I figure I traded Saturday for my rest day since I was a slacker then. Hopefully this plan will work. Barring no craziness at work...
Friday, August 17, 2007
I Lost 2.2lbs!
Last WI: 220.2/At Home WI: 218.4 (dehydration most likely)
FRIDAY
Well, yesterday was good. I ended up losing 2.2 lbs at WI. I was pleased but hate to admit I really had hoped to see less than 220 on the scale, seeing as how I saw 219 at home. But I can't complain. My goal was 2+ lbs and I met it. Now - for another week of it.
After WI I was really bad, as usual and picked up a horribly high point dinner - wings and fried mushrooms from our local wings and things. Then Erik and I went out for drinks and poker at Y-knots. I ended up drinking way too much (Mich Ultra) but came in 3rd at poker. So this morning I was totally dehydrated, which probably accounts for the drop in the scale even though I went WAY over in points yesterday.
Today I woke up tired and thirsty. I almost called into work this morning, but finally sucked it up since I knew it'd be a short day regardless. I got there a little after 9:00 and most of the office left at 11:30 for a going away lunch for Kim, one of our secretaries. I'm very sad Kim's leaving she was one of the coolest women, and was really good at handling some of our more difficult defense attorneys. But she got a job that moves her along professionally so I can't blame her and I wish her the best.
After lunch I went to give blood. I'm 0 Negative so I get called like clockwork every 2 months. So I went in and when I was going to the intake they asked me if I would be willing to give my red blood cells instead. Essentially that consists of them hooking you up to a machine that takes a pint of blood, spins out the red blood cells, and then gives you back the rest - plazma, platelets, white blood cells, etc. Then it does it again. They get two "units" of blood from you and I guess the red blood cells are particularly valuable. Anyway, I agreed, and boy did it wipe me out. I NEVER have effects from giving blood. I don't even feel faint. But this one had me feeling tingly and cold during and tired afterwards. So I came home and took a nap. I'm not even going to try the low intensity work out I had planned for the evening.
So tonight it's Erik's turn to drink, which is great because I definitely need the break. It's funny I don't get drunk all that often anymore, but when I do the next morning I just feel guilty. Even if nothing happened. I feel hung over of course, but also guilty, like I shouldn't be doing this anymore - to my body - to my mind - anything. I would love to say I'll resolve not to drink anymore but that just won't happen. I know better. Hopefully the frequency will continue to deminish, however.
Tomorrow morning we're getting up really early to drive to South Carolina for the night. Erik has a friend in the military that is currently in Iraq. Well his friend has kids that are in baseball and have this camp they need to go to this weekend. His wife can't take them, so Erik agreed that we would. So we're escorting two teen agers to Myrtle Beach area tomorrow through Sunday. The good news is that his friend, who is way too appreciative, has put us up at a resort, not just a hotel but a resort - so they definitely have a fitness center -already checked - and I WILL be using it tomorrow and Sunday. It's a promise it's a plan. It will happen.
So that's about it. Today I've already used all my points between a craving filled breakfast, fancy lunch, and the nutter butters and juice they give you at the blood drive. So I need to figure out a low point dinner so I don't have to use all my flex points for the week today.
Here's too a good weekend!
FRIDAY
Well, yesterday was good. I ended up losing 2.2 lbs at WI. I was pleased but hate to admit I really had hoped to see less than 220 on the scale, seeing as how I saw 219 at home. But I can't complain. My goal was 2+ lbs and I met it. Now - for another week of it.
After WI I was really bad, as usual and picked up a horribly high point dinner - wings and fried mushrooms from our local wings and things. Then Erik and I went out for drinks and poker at Y-knots. I ended up drinking way too much (Mich Ultra) but came in 3rd at poker. So this morning I was totally dehydrated, which probably accounts for the drop in the scale even though I went WAY over in points yesterday.
Today I woke up tired and thirsty. I almost called into work this morning, but finally sucked it up since I knew it'd be a short day regardless. I got there a little after 9:00 and most of the office left at 11:30 for a going away lunch for Kim, one of our secretaries. I'm very sad Kim's leaving she was one of the coolest women, and was really good at handling some of our more difficult defense attorneys. But she got a job that moves her along professionally so I can't blame her and I wish her the best.
After lunch I went to give blood. I'm 0 Negative so I get called like clockwork every 2 months. So I went in and when I was going to the intake they asked me if I would be willing to give my red blood cells instead. Essentially that consists of them hooking you up to a machine that takes a pint of blood, spins out the red blood cells, and then gives you back the rest - plazma, platelets, white blood cells, etc. Then it does it again. They get two "units" of blood from you and I guess the red blood cells are particularly valuable. Anyway, I agreed, and boy did it wipe me out. I NEVER have effects from giving blood. I don't even feel faint. But this one had me feeling tingly and cold during and tired afterwards. So I came home and took a nap. I'm not even going to try the low intensity work out I had planned for the evening.
So tonight it's Erik's turn to drink, which is great because I definitely need the break. It's funny I don't get drunk all that often anymore, but when I do the next morning I just feel guilty. Even if nothing happened. I feel hung over of course, but also guilty, like I shouldn't be doing this anymore - to my body - to my mind - anything. I would love to say I'll resolve not to drink anymore but that just won't happen. I know better. Hopefully the frequency will continue to deminish, however.
Tomorrow morning we're getting up really early to drive to South Carolina for the night. Erik has a friend in the military that is currently in Iraq. Well his friend has kids that are in baseball and have this camp they need to go to this weekend. His wife can't take them, so Erik agreed that we would. So we're escorting two teen agers to Myrtle Beach area tomorrow through Sunday. The good news is that his friend, who is way too appreciative, has put us up at a resort, not just a hotel but a resort - so they definitely have a fitness center -already checked - and I WILL be using it tomorrow and Sunday. It's a promise it's a plan. It will happen.
So that's about it. Today I've already used all my points between a craving filled breakfast, fancy lunch, and the nutter butters and juice they give you at the blood drive. So I need to figure out a low point dinner so I don't have to use all my flex points for the week today.
Here's too a good weekend!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Poker and Alcohol - Required Together!
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 220.0 (hope that's not a fluke!)
WEDNESDAY
Well, yesterday was perfect until the evening...again. I am totally weak at night even after a perfect OP day! I left work and went to the gym - ran 2 miles, then did the elliptical for a total of 6 APs. Not the 10 I'd hoped for, but my energy was just low so I took what I could get. I got home and had 9 points left for the day plus the 6 APs I'd earned. Erik had a friend coming into town from Michigan that he went to college with. His friend, Kevin, would be staying with us for two days. The tentative plan was for him to get in about 5:30 or 6:00 and we'd go to dinner. A little after 6:00 no boys and I'm starving, so I have a bowl of chicken noodle soup to tide me over (3pts). That still leaves me a good 12 points for dinner - totally doable with good choices. The boys finally get there about 7:00 and Erik decides he wants to go play poker.
Boooo!
We play at a restaurant called chaps, which I can totally eat ok at, but have the hardest times not drinking - particularly when playing poker. So we get there, we order, I make a good choice and order diet coke with my sandwich and salad - total of 14 points approx. Then about an hour into the poker game, I'm irritated by the people at my table and order a beer...then another. And you know where it goes from there. I ended the day with a total of 4 beers - and 8 unnecessary points. All in all I was 10 pts over for the day after eating my APs. Not horrible, but I didn't have them to spare after my Monday night splurge. I should NOT be splurging two nights in a row when I really need to post a good loss this week! Grrrr. The good news is that the scale was very friendly this morning - to the point that I think it was wrong but I was too scared to weigh again. I want so much to believe it's right. So I'm taking it and running with it and hoping to have my perfect day today. It's the day before WI and I have no choice, right?
The good news is that I've done TONS of exercise this week. Since WI I've earned 28 APs and plan for another 6 or so today. That is huge for me, so I'm hoping that will cover for the slips of the week.
Today I've had 7 pts so far for breakfast and snack. I havent figured out lunch yet as I'm trying to sneak out of work early so I may just have a bowl of soup I have and disappear around 2:00 or so - we'll see. Either way I am going back to the gym today. And at least I know I won't be tempted by alcohol tonight - Erik has Daniel and our house guest, so it's definitely a night it with the boys. I WILL make a good dinner for me, even if I have to be unsocial. Ideally I can eat just my target points and "bank" the APs for WI tomorrow. That's the plan man!
WEDNESDAY
Well, yesterday was perfect until the evening...again. I am totally weak at night even after a perfect OP day! I left work and went to the gym - ran 2 miles, then did the elliptical for a total of 6 APs. Not the 10 I'd hoped for, but my energy was just low so I took what I could get. I got home and had 9 points left for the day plus the 6 APs I'd earned. Erik had a friend coming into town from Michigan that he went to college with. His friend, Kevin, would be staying with us for two days. The tentative plan was for him to get in about 5:30 or 6:00 and we'd go to dinner. A little after 6:00 no boys and I'm starving, so I have a bowl of chicken noodle soup to tide me over (3pts). That still leaves me a good 12 points for dinner - totally doable with good choices. The boys finally get there about 7:00 and Erik decides he wants to go play poker.
Boooo!
We play at a restaurant called chaps, which I can totally eat ok at, but have the hardest times not drinking - particularly when playing poker. So we get there, we order, I make a good choice and order diet coke with my sandwich and salad - total of 14 points approx. Then about an hour into the poker game, I'm irritated by the people at my table and order a beer...then another. And you know where it goes from there. I ended the day with a total of 4 beers - and 8 unnecessary points. All in all I was 10 pts over for the day after eating my APs. Not horrible, but I didn't have them to spare after my Monday night splurge. I should NOT be splurging two nights in a row when I really need to post a good loss this week! Grrrr. The good news is that the scale was very friendly this morning - to the point that I think it was wrong but I was too scared to weigh again. I want so much to believe it's right. So I'm taking it and running with it and hoping to have my perfect day today. It's the day before WI and I have no choice, right?
The good news is that I've done TONS of exercise this week. Since WI I've earned 28 APs and plan for another 6 or so today. That is huge for me, so I'm hoping that will cover for the slips of the week.
Today I've had 7 pts so far for breakfast and snack. I havent figured out lunch yet as I'm trying to sneak out of work early so I may just have a bowl of soup I have and disappear around 2:00 or so - we'll see. Either way I am going back to the gym today. And at least I know I won't be tempted by alcohol tonight - Erik has Daniel and our house guest, so it's definitely a night it with the boys. I WILL make a good dinner for me, even if I have to be unsocial. Ideally I can eat just my target points and "bank" the APs for WI tomorrow. That's the plan man!
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Slight Binge with Wine and Beer.
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 221.4 (to be expected)
Well, I didn't follow my plan yesterday. :-( I didn't make it to the gym for weight training after work as I got delayed a bit and had people showing up at the house at 6:30. I did make a good dinner consisting of a tuna sandwich and some light chips. I had 10 points left and used them all. I prepared the "snacks" for our guests and included some very good choices for me - broccoli with light dip and "light" tostitos (fat free) with salsa.
Unfortunately I also opened a bottle of wine. And by the end of the night had drank it all. :-* Plus two beers. :-( Plus snacked on the good food and the bad (spinach dip and cashews). All in all the day was great till the evening and my splurge wasn't totally over the top, like I've done in the past. But I'm still disappointed with myself. Today I need to get it back under control.
The good news is I won our poker game last night! :-) Woo hoo! It's been a while since I've posted a win and it felt good. The money isn't bad either. Now - to just learn to play poker withOUT alcohol...
So, I should be able to sneak out of work early today. I'm definitely going to the gym. I plan to run 3 miles, and hopefully kick in some elliptical or weight training to get in 10 APs. That's definitely on the high end but it helps after a splurge day to have a great AP day - sort of a la Wendie Plan.
Another factor is that Erik's highschool friend Kevin, whom I've never met, is coming in tonight to stay a couple days with us. I think he's moving to this area and needs a place to crash for a couple nights. Hopefully that won't mix up the food issues too much. I NEED to post a good loss this week for motivational reasons as well as the bridesmaid countdown. As of today I'm down about 1 lb. BUT I totally plan to kick that to over 2 by Thursday with today's extreme work out and another planned for tomorrow. I CAN do it. I haven't seen a 2 lb loss in AGES. Here we go!
Well, I didn't follow my plan yesterday. :-( I didn't make it to the gym for weight training after work as I got delayed a bit and had people showing up at the house at 6:30. I did make a good dinner consisting of a tuna sandwich and some light chips. I had 10 points left and used them all. I prepared the "snacks" for our guests and included some very good choices for me - broccoli with light dip and "light" tostitos (fat free) with salsa.
Unfortunately I also opened a bottle of wine. And by the end of the night had drank it all. :-* Plus two beers. :-( Plus snacked on the good food and the bad (spinach dip and cashews). All in all the day was great till the evening and my splurge wasn't totally over the top, like I've done in the past. But I'm still disappointed with myself. Today I need to get it back under control.
The good news is I won our poker game last night! :-) Woo hoo! It's been a while since I've posted a win and it felt good. The money isn't bad either. Now - to just learn to play poker withOUT alcohol...
So, I should be able to sneak out of work early today. I'm definitely going to the gym. I plan to run 3 miles, and hopefully kick in some elliptical or weight training to get in 10 APs. That's definitely on the high end but it helps after a splurge day to have a great AP day - sort of a la Wendie Plan.
Another factor is that Erik's highschool friend Kevin, whom I've never met, is coming in tonight to stay a couple days with us. I think he's moving to this area and needs a place to crash for a couple nights. Hopefully that won't mix up the food issues too much. I NEED to post a good loss this week for motivational reasons as well as the bridesmaid countdown. As of today I'm down about 1 lb. BUT I totally plan to kick that to over 2 by Thursday with today's extreme work out and another planned for tomorrow. I CAN do it. I haven't seen a 2 lb loss in AGES. Here we go!
Monday, August 13, 2007
Good Weekend Considering...
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 220.2 (woo hoo!)
MONDAY
I had a great weekend with only a few slips. Friday I executed my plan FLAWLESSLY! I had a salad for lunch with the Bride. I then went to the gym after work and ran 2 miles, walked 0.5 miles, and did some time on the elliptical for a total of over 600 calories burned (6 APs!). Then, ... GET THIS... I STAYED HOME friday night. Wow. Shocker. lol. The Bride invited me to go out for a movie with her and the roomie, and I declined. I was pooped after my work out and had a great dinner consisting of a tuna sandwich and some veggies. Great day.
Saturday I woke up to 220.4 on the scale, but it was the "slip day". Though not horrible at all. I started it off with a balance bar for breakfast (4pts) and then went to the gym and did a GREAT 3 mile run - fastest I've done in a long while, though not at all my best time. I then went to the grocery store and spent way too much stocking up on good food for the week. After that, the slip. I was supposed to go to the mall of Georgia with the Bride, but she got caught up doing bride stuff with her mom and didn't get done in time. So last minute I decided to go play poker at Three Dollar. Well, that was fine - I ate before I went and "allotted" myself 3-4 beers worth of points. Well, 3 hours and 5 beers later, a group of us decide to move the party to the Bride's house, and hang some more. Well, 4 hours, 4 slices of pizza and 5 MORE beers later, I'm headed home. Not horrible, but definitely not what I had planned initially for the evening. I had a good time though and didn't use ALL of my flex points in one day. lol. I still had 5 left going into Sunday.
Then Sunday - the perfect day. :-) Morning scale hopping showed 222.2 - to be expected after the "slip" Saturday, but I woke up to Erik and Daniel playing, and we went to church. I drove separately and had a balance bar on the way so I could go straight to the gym after church. I had a real tough run on Saturday so I opted to let my legs heal a bit and do the elliptical. 64 minutes and 1000 calories burned later, I was pooped. Went home, had a great lunch of steamed shrimp, rice and Green beans, then napped until 3:00. Headed to a friends house for a poker tournament and picked up Subway on the way for when I got hungry a couple hours in. All in all, I ate exactly my target points (28), earned 10 APs, but didn't eat a single one. Fabulous day.
So all in all it was a good weekend for me. Of late I've not counted points, splurged Thursday Friday and Saturday and had to try to make up for it on a hung over Sunday. Not this time. Only one "splurge" and it was controlled. Felt great on Sunday and had a great day then too. I'm very pleased, and hope to repeat this feat repeatedly. lol.
So today - I saw the scale down 2lbs, I think this could be a great week! 3 days will WI and I'm totally hoping for a 2+lb loss. I CAN do it. I had a turkey sandwich for breakfast with fresh tomato (5pts), 2 plums for a snack this morning (1pt) and am still figuring out lunch. The scary risk is tonight. We have our Monday poker league and we're hosting it at my house tonight. I generally like to have a beer or two with Monday poker, and I'll be providing some yummy (read fattening) snacks for the crew. So, the plan is this. I've got 22 pts remaining for the day. If I use 10 or so for lunch (subway anyone?) and get in some weight training after work (2APs) that leaves 14 for tonight. I'll have a filling dinner of something with lots of veggies, and try to save myself 4-6 pts for beer/snacks. I really should just avoid the beer. 2-3 beers isn't enough to even get me buzzed (sickly high tolerance) so it's really wasted calories. I wonder how strong my will power is. I'm going to have to think on it. The good thing is I've got some fresh broccoli and light dip I can put out that I love, so I'll have a healthy snack to choose. It's the beer that tempts me... Oh the life of an alcoholic.
Well, that's about it. I've got 110 days till the bridesmaid dress. I would LOVE to be in Onederland for the wedding. Here's hoping!
MONDAY
I had a great weekend with only a few slips. Friday I executed my plan FLAWLESSLY! I had a salad for lunch with the Bride. I then went to the gym after work and ran 2 miles, walked 0.5 miles, and did some time on the elliptical for a total of over 600 calories burned (6 APs!). Then, ... GET THIS... I STAYED HOME friday night. Wow. Shocker. lol. The Bride invited me to go out for a movie with her and the roomie, and I declined. I was pooped after my work out and had a great dinner consisting of a tuna sandwich and some veggies. Great day.
Saturday I woke up to 220.4 on the scale, but it was the "slip day". Though not horrible at all. I started it off with a balance bar for breakfast (4pts) and then went to the gym and did a GREAT 3 mile run - fastest I've done in a long while, though not at all my best time. I then went to the grocery store and spent way too much stocking up on good food for the week. After that, the slip. I was supposed to go to the mall of Georgia with the Bride, but she got caught up doing bride stuff with her mom and didn't get done in time. So last minute I decided to go play poker at Three Dollar. Well, that was fine - I ate before I went and "allotted" myself 3-4 beers worth of points. Well, 3 hours and 5 beers later, a group of us decide to move the party to the Bride's house, and hang some more. Well, 4 hours, 4 slices of pizza and 5 MORE beers later, I'm headed home. Not horrible, but definitely not what I had planned initially for the evening. I had a good time though and didn't use ALL of my flex points in one day. lol. I still had 5 left going into Sunday.
Then Sunday - the perfect day. :-) Morning scale hopping showed 222.2 - to be expected after the "slip" Saturday, but I woke up to Erik and Daniel playing, and we went to church. I drove separately and had a balance bar on the way so I could go straight to the gym after church. I had a real tough run on Saturday so I opted to let my legs heal a bit and do the elliptical. 64 minutes and 1000 calories burned later, I was pooped. Went home, had a great lunch of steamed shrimp, rice and Green beans, then napped until 3:00. Headed to a friends house for a poker tournament and picked up Subway on the way for when I got hungry a couple hours in. All in all, I ate exactly my target points (28), earned 10 APs, but didn't eat a single one. Fabulous day.
So all in all it was a good weekend for me. Of late I've not counted points, splurged Thursday Friday and Saturday and had to try to make up for it on a hung over Sunday. Not this time. Only one "splurge" and it was controlled. Felt great on Sunday and had a great day then too. I'm very pleased, and hope to repeat this feat repeatedly. lol.
So today - I saw the scale down 2lbs, I think this could be a great week! 3 days will WI and I'm totally hoping for a 2+lb loss. I CAN do it. I had a turkey sandwich for breakfast with fresh tomato (5pts), 2 plums for a snack this morning (1pt) and am still figuring out lunch. The scary risk is tonight. We have our Monday poker league and we're hosting it at my house tonight. I generally like to have a beer or two with Monday poker, and I'll be providing some yummy (read fattening) snacks for the crew. So, the plan is this. I've got 22 pts remaining for the day. If I use 10 or so for lunch (subway anyone?) and get in some weight training after work (2APs) that leaves 14 for tonight. I'll have a filling dinner of something with lots of veggies, and try to save myself 4-6 pts for beer/snacks. I really should just avoid the beer. 2-3 beers isn't enough to even get me buzzed (sickly high tolerance) so it's really wasted calories. I wonder how strong my will power is. I'm going to have to think on it. The good thing is I've got some fresh broccoli and light dip I can put out that I love, so I'll have a healthy snack to choose. It's the beer that tempts me... Oh the life of an alcoholic.
Well, that's about it. I've got 110 days till the bridesmaid dress. I would LOVE to be in Onederland for the wedding. Here's hoping!
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