241.4
So yesterday I had a fight with my husband - nothing major or mariage threatening, just one of our occasional spats. So I left the house angry, and went to a bar to meet friends. But! I had already eaten a small but reasonable dinner and this bar doesn't serve food. So I'm safe right? I can have a few beers, commiserate with friends, and go home having not done too much damage to the scale.. um. no. I have NO control when I drink (food craving wise) and totally hit the taco bell drive through on the way home. Was I hungry? Sure felt like I was at the time. Did I choose to go home and pop some popcorn or have a handful of cashews? Nope. Bad cindy.
The scale did not punish me too badly this morning, but I fear tomorrow. It was a late night binge so maybe it will take a day for the punishment to hit. We shall see. So far today - good choices made, now to get through the next 8 hours...
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
Thursday, October 9, 2008
One Day at a time
235.8 (better)
Ok, so one day down back on the wagon and it feels good. I logged everything yesterday, for the first time in, oh, say 6 months! And i went over a bit. I'm supposed to eat like 1770 max calories and I had 1880. But I burned more than double my target calories so I call it a wash. Not bad for day one. Need to still get things lower, but it's a start and the scale rewarded me with a marginally less depressing number this morning. (Still absurd, however).
So yesterday I hit our firm gym at lunch - a first. I've never done a lunch work out here, but I really liked it. It's a small but really well equiped gym with a great locker room - meaning they have lockers with keys they provide you (don't have to bring your own lock), they provide towel service, the showers have shampoo, conditioner and soap already in them, and the provide hair dryers, flat irons, curling irons, hairspray, lotion, mouthwash, etc. Very nice. I got in and out, with a shower yesterday in just over an hour including 35 mins on the treadmill. I plan to do a little bit more today. If I could get this into a habit, I'd really see some results I think. And, it keeps me from spending too much on going out to lunch with Holly every day.
So, things are back on track. The only negative in my life right now is work. I have a lot of things to do but simply cannot get motivated to do them. I spend way too much time on facebook and myspace and blogs at work. REally bad. Particularly in this market when I'm lucky to have such a great job. Need to improve on that.
Otherwise, doing well! Amazing how a day on track can really make you feel better about life.
Ok, so one day down back on the wagon and it feels good. I logged everything yesterday, for the first time in, oh, say 6 months! And i went over a bit. I'm supposed to eat like 1770 max calories and I had 1880. But I burned more than double my target calories so I call it a wash. Not bad for day one. Need to still get things lower, but it's a start and the scale rewarded me with a marginally less depressing number this morning. (Still absurd, however).
So yesterday I hit our firm gym at lunch - a first. I've never done a lunch work out here, but I really liked it. It's a small but really well equiped gym with a great locker room - meaning they have lockers with keys they provide you (don't have to bring your own lock), they provide towel service, the showers have shampoo, conditioner and soap already in them, and the provide hair dryers, flat irons, curling irons, hairspray, lotion, mouthwash, etc. Very nice. I got in and out, with a shower yesterday in just over an hour including 35 mins on the treadmill. I plan to do a little bit more today. If I could get this into a habit, I'd really see some results I think. And, it keeps me from spending too much on going out to lunch with Holly every day.
So, things are back on track. The only negative in my life right now is work. I have a lot of things to do but simply cannot get motivated to do them. I spend way too much time on facebook and myspace and blogs at work. REally bad. Particularly in this market when I'm lucky to have such a great job. Need to improve on that.
Otherwise, doing well! Amazing how a day on track can really make you feel better about life.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Wedding Dress is In
TUESDAY
So I got a call yesterday from my bridal shop to say that my dress has come in - a MONTH early. Crazy. I'm so not ready for this! I'm sure it'll fit, but I'm still not at all where I wanted to be when the dress came in. I think I've decided to hold off on fittings until the end of July when the dress was supposed to come in. I'm going back to Boot camp on July 7th and hopefully will have made some more progress by then.
So the last few weeks I've been totally off program. Letting myself eat and drink what I wanted. It's time to re-focus. All the hard work I did the last couple months had really begun to show. I've had at least 10 people in the last 2 weeks comment on how they could tell I was losing weight. And I've responded by letting myself go. What gives? So - back on track this morning. I skipped the fast food breakfast and opted instead for a high protein option of a balance bar and some cashews. Lunch was a huge salad with chicken breast and vinagrette dressing (on the side!) I also had some sunchips which I didn't need, but overall a good choice. My new plan for the next 10 weeks or so is to try to have a small but protein rich breakfast, a salad for lunch and a "sensible" dinner. I go out a lot for dinner (and lunch for that matter) so maybe I can keep myself in check for 2 meals of the day then try not to go too off course for the dinner.
That's the plan. So far so good today. Here's to tomorrow.
So I got a call yesterday from my bridal shop to say that my dress has come in - a MONTH early. Crazy. I'm so not ready for this! I'm sure it'll fit, but I'm still not at all where I wanted to be when the dress came in. I think I've decided to hold off on fittings until the end of July when the dress was supposed to come in. I'm going back to Boot camp on July 7th and hopefully will have made some more progress by then.
So the last few weeks I've been totally off program. Letting myself eat and drink what I wanted. It's time to re-focus. All the hard work I did the last couple months had really begun to show. I've had at least 10 people in the last 2 weeks comment on how they could tell I was losing weight. And I've responded by letting myself go. What gives? So - back on track this morning. I skipped the fast food breakfast and opted instead for a high protein option of a balance bar and some cashews. Lunch was a huge salad with chicken breast and vinagrette dressing (on the side!) I also had some sunchips which I didn't need, but overall a good choice. My new plan for the next 10 weeks or so is to try to have a small but protein rich breakfast, a salad for lunch and a "sensible" dinner. I go out a lot for dinner (and lunch for that matter) so maybe I can keep myself in check for 2 meals of the day then try not to go too off course for the dinner.
That's the plan. So far so good today. Here's to tomorrow.
Friday, April 18, 2008
It's working...
217.0
FRIDAY
TGIF. Really. I'm not sure what went on this week but it's been so tough to be at work. I've been VERY unproductive, and really just kinda bleh about everything. Part of it is getting used to a new schedule. Holly and I try to carpool as much as possible to save money on gas and miles on the car. The problem is she just started a new schedule that is 10:30-7:00. Sounds fabulous right? She doesn't get to my house till 9:45 in the morning so I have "all" this time in the morning, right? Wrong. I sleep till 9:00 then get up and get ready. What's the deal with that?
Every day this week that I carpooled with her, I set my alarm for 8:00 thinking - that's still really sleeping in, and I can get up, run and feel great the rest of the day. What do I do? Snoooooooze. What the hell? It's not like I'm not getting enough sleep! We're asleep before midnight, so no excuse to lounge around till 9:00. WHY can't I get motivated?
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven't run in a little over a week. I think it's one of those things - when you get used to exercising, you crave it, or at least it feels normal, important. Maybe if I can be successful at running before work just 1 day next week, I'll enjoy it so much I'll be able to make it a habit. Grrrr.
So the good news is that I'm still alcohol free. Notwithstanding the fact that we've gone out EVERY night this week. Not usual for us, but for whatever reason, we did. Wednesday night we went to dinner and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Sake. Last night we went to Y-Knots - our normal Thursday night hangout - and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Gin. Boy is Erik loving my new found sobriety. He has a DD every day! But the good news is that even though I haven't been exactly good this week food-wise, the scale is going down.
I didn't weigh in yesterday because I knew it'd be a gain. I know, I know, bad excuse. But hey, I'm still staying on track regardless. I hope to weigh in next week. I'd like to get the scale back into the 215 area and below this week.
Small steps, though, right? This week the focus was on having fun without alcohol. Next week we need to get exercise back in. Starting this weekend. Erik has his son this weekend, so shouldn't be anything too crazy going on. No plans to go out tonight (for once) but I DO plan to get a run in. Tomorrow Daniel has a baseball game early, then I have a poker tournament I might play, but still no alcohol to be drank! Sunday is church and more exercise. I'm looking forward to this weekend very much.
Day 6 of Sobriety and still truckin!
FRIDAY
TGIF. Really. I'm not sure what went on this week but it's been so tough to be at work. I've been VERY unproductive, and really just kinda bleh about everything. Part of it is getting used to a new schedule. Holly and I try to carpool as much as possible to save money on gas and miles on the car. The problem is she just started a new schedule that is 10:30-7:00. Sounds fabulous right? She doesn't get to my house till 9:45 in the morning so I have "all" this time in the morning, right? Wrong. I sleep till 9:00 then get up and get ready. What's the deal with that?
Every day this week that I carpooled with her, I set my alarm for 8:00 thinking - that's still really sleeping in, and I can get up, run and feel great the rest of the day. What do I do? Snoooooooze. What the hell? It's not like I'm not getting enough sleep! We're asleep before midnight, so no excuse to lounge around till 9:00. WHY can't I get motivated?
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven't run in a little over a week. I think it's one of those things - when you get used to exercising, you crave it, or at least it feels normal, important. Maybe if I can be successful at running before work just 1 day next week, I'll enjoy it so much I'll be able to make it a habit. Grrrr.
So the good news is that I'm still alcohol free. Notwithstanding the fact that we've gone out EVERY night this week. Not usual for us, but for whatever reason, we did. Wednesday night we went to dinner and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Sake. Last night we went to Y-Knots - our normal Thursday night hangout - and I drank Diet Coke while Erik drank Gin. Boy is Erik loving my new found sobriety. He has a DD every day! But the good news is that even though I haven't been exactly good this week food-wise, the scale is going down.
I didn't weigh in yesterday because I knew it'd be a gain. I know, I know, bad excuse. But hey, I'm still staying on track regardless. I hope to weigh in next week. I'd like to get the scale back into the 215 area and below this week.
Small steps, though, right? This week the focus was on having fun without alcohol. Next week we need to get exercise back in. Starting this weekend. Erik has his son this weekend, so shouldn't be anything too crazy going on. No plans to go out tonight (for once) but I DO plan to get a run in. Tomorrow Daniel has a baseball game early, then I have a poker tournament I might play, but still no alcohol to be drank! Sunday is church and more exercise. I'm looking forward to this weekend very much.
Day 6 of Sobriety and still truckin!
Monday, April 14, 2008
No more excuses
220.8 (oh yeah).
MONDAY
Ok, so no more excuses. No more parties. No more trips. For awhile at least. This morning's weigh in is the first I've had in a few days as I was out of town in Miami for an associate's retreat. I do attribute some of it to being dehydrated. I kept waking up last night dying of thirst and I was very bad about water this weekend. But that doesn't explain most of it. Most of it is 4 days of not tracking, of eating what I want, of not exercising, of drinking alcohol.
So here I declare. NO MORE ALCOHOL. That's a start. I WILL TRACK ALL FOOD. That's another good start. We'll see how long I go. By calculations, I have no "need" to drink alcohol until August for my bachelorette party and then wedding. Nothing special planned between now and then. So why not detox for 3-4 months?
Very ambitious I know, but I'm going to try. I really want to see if I can do it. For the diet, but also for myself. I know I'm not an alcoholic, but I do drink frequently. I have a really bad family history of alcoholism and alcohol related deaths. I need to prove to myself that this is just an indulgence, not some sort of dependency.
So here we go. Day 2 of no alcohol (had my last drink about 10:00 pm Saturday night). I'll report daily I hope on my success's.
Also, we will be tracking food and exercising. I've got just under 19 weeks before the wedding. Time to get serious.
MONDAY
Ok, so no more excuses. No more parties. No more trips. For awhile at least. This morning's weigh in is the first I've had in a few days as I was out of town in Miami for an associate's retreat. I do attribute some of it to being dehydrated. I kept waking up last night dying of thirst and I was very bad about water this weekend. But that doesn't explain most of it. Most of it is 4 days of not tracking, of eating what I want, of not exercising, of drinking alcohol.
So here I declare. NO MORE ALCOHOL. That's a start. I WILL TRACK ALL FOOD. That's another good start. We'll see how long I go. By calculations, I have no "need" to drink alcohol until August for my bachelorette party and then wedding. Nothing special planned between now and then. So why not detox for 3-4 months?
Very ambitious I know, but I'm going to try. I really want to see if I can do it. For the diet, but also for myself. I know I'm not an alcoholic, but I do drink frequently. I have a really bad family history of alcoholism and alcohol related deaths. I need to prove to myself that this is just an indulgence, not some sort of dependency.
So here we go. Day 2 of no alcohol (had my last drink about 10:00 pm Saturday night). I'll report daily I hope on my success's.
Also, we will be tracking food and exercising. I've got just under 19 weeks before the wedding. Time to get serious.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Weee Living healthy really DOES work...
218.0
Monday
This weekend was WONDERFUL. Well, it actually started off bad because my Lasik procedure didn't happen. Really frustrating. I took the day off work, and had it all scheduled to get a ride for my 11:00 am appointment. Then I got a call, the night before, from the clinic - one of those computer reminders - that said "just reminding you of your appointment at 1:15 pm." What? I thought it was at 11:00. It's like 7 pm when they call so I just go with it and call my ride to reschedule. So I show up at 1:05 pm on Friday. I get there and she says "what? you're appointment was at 11:00!" Oh hell. Turns out the call they gave me was for my follow up appointment on tuesday. Why they called me for THAT appointment the day before my surgery, I don't KNOW. But by the time I got there, the doctor was on his way out to other appointments and could do it. I was SOOO frustrated I actually cried in the stupid eye clinic. Grrr. But - I took the frustration home, allowed myself a luxury nap then got back to work on unpacking and eating right.
I've been very good for about 5 days with a little splurge last night at Longhorn. This Sparkpeople thing is working really well right now. I actually saw 216.6 on the scale yesterday. Then Longhorn and a few beers last night, but today - right back on track. I've had 1450 calories for the day AND ran 4 miles today on the treadmill, walking 1 more for a total of 817 calories burned! Hell yeah! So I know that's really not enough food for one day with that kind of work out but today is a detox day after yesterday's splurge. I'll balance out again tomorrow to a reasonable number. Hopefully I'll see that beautiful 216 again tomorrow!
I'm still going to keep weighing in with WW because I bought at 16 week at-work pass so I'm already paid. I just won't tell them I'm doing sparkpeople instead. It's still good for the weekly accountability and the pep talks. Besides if I lose 10lbs in the session my firm will reimburse 50% of my costs. I'm only down 3 as of last weigh in so I need to do 7 in the next 6 weeks or so to get that reimbursement. They way this week is going, though I think I'll hit 5 by Thursday.
Why is it that some weeks motivation doesn't seem to be a problem. Why are those weeks so few and far between? I'm going to ride this as long as I can...
Monday
This weekend was WONDERFUL. Well, it actually started off bad because my Lasik procedure didn't happen. Really frustrating. I took the day off work, and had it all scheduled to get a ride for my 11:00 am appointment. Then I got a call, the night before, from the clinic - one of those computer reminders - that said "just reminding you of your appointment at 1:15 pm." What? I thought it was at 11:00. It's like 7 pm when they call so I just go with it and call my ride to reschedule. So I show up at 1:05 pm on Friday. I get there and she says "what? you're appointment was at 11:00!" Oh hell. Turns out the call they gave me was for my follow up appointment on tuesday. Why they called me for THAT appointment the day before my surgery, I don't KNOW. But by the time I got there, the doctor was on his way out to other appointments and could do it. I was SOOO frustrated I actually cried in the stupid eye clinic. Grrr. But - I took the frustration home, allowed myself a luxury nap then got back to work on unpacking and eating right.
I've been very good for about 5 days with a little splurge last night at Longhorn. This Sparkpeople thing is working really well right now. I actually saw 216.6 on the scale yesterday. Then Longhorn and a few beers last night, but today - right back on track. I've had 1450 calories for the day AND ran 4 miles today on the treadmill, walking 1 more for a total of 817 calories burned! Hell yeah! So I know that's really not enough food for one day with that kind of work out but today is a detox day after yesterday's splurge. I'll balance out again tomorrow to a reasonable number. Hopefully I'll see that beautiful 216 again tomorrow!
I'm still going to keep weighing in with WW because I bought at 16 week at-work pass so I'm already paid. I just won't tell them I'm doing sparkpeople instead. It's still good for the weekly accountability and the pep talks. Besides if I lose 10lbs in the session my firm will reimburse 50% of my costs. I'm only down 3 as of last weigh in so I need to do 7 in the next 6 weeks or so to get that reimbursement. They way this week is going, though I think I'll hit 5 by Thursday.
Why is it that some weeks motivation doesn't seem to be a problem. Why are those weeks so few and far between? I'm going to ride this as long as I can...
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
On the right TRACK!
Last WI: 224.8/At Home WI: 220.4 (HELL YEAH!)
TUESDAY
Well, It's been almost a week since the engagement, and I'm down over 5 lbs on the scale. Yes, yes, I know the first week back on track is always a great loss, but I'm LOVIN it! I don't count an official WI till Thursday, which is actually going to be a real WI, at a meeting. A girl who sits near me at work wants to go to WW with me at work starting this week. I'm all for it. I need a "buddy"! She is also engaged and getting married in October. The thing is, she's tiny! Ok, so maybe not tiny, but I would bet she's already in the healthy range WW provides. She wants to lose 10 lbs for her wedding though. I can understand that, and I'm all for having someone to go to the meetings with. Hopefully this will be the added plus that gets me where I need to be.
So I haven't exercised this week, and I really haven't had any excuse. Work has been busy, but I've definitely had time at home when I could have hit the treadmill. But I plan to hit it at LEAST once this week, and I plan to buy some 10 & 15lb weights this weekend at Target to get into some strength training at home. I can DO this!
WW has a "tool for living" called anchoring. They have a lot of "cheesy" tools that I generally don't find helpful for me, but this one is very appropriate right now. I don't know what the official description of it is, but my understanding is that you have some physical item that you carry around with you that reminds you of why you're doing this, what your goals are, what your motivation is, etc. I've never been able to find the right "anchor" until now. I'm sure you can guess what it is - my engagement ring. Everytime I get hungry (i.e. bored) when I haven't planned a snack or meal, I look at it. Everytime I want to eat MORE after I've eaten a reasonable size meal, I look at it. And I always tell myself, I don't want to be a fat bride.
Now, many might feel that is superficial. I can't believe you only want to lose weight for your wedding. You don't want to do it to be healthy? Well of course I do. But that motivation hasn't worked the last 6 years. Maybe this one will. I'm using it if it works.
On fun wedding news, I found a place that I would LOVE to have my wedding at. At least based upon what I found on the website. Holly & I are going up there this Sunday to look at it. I hope it's everything they advertise. If so, it'll be perfect!
Here's to a good WW motivated week!
TUESDAY
Well, It's been almost a week since the engagement, and I'm down over 5 lbs on the scale. Yes, yes, I know the first week back on track is always a great loss, but I'm LOVIN it! I don't count an official WI till Thursday, which is actually going to be a real WI, at a meeting. A girl who sits near me at work wants to go to WW with me at work starting this week. I'm all for it. I need a "buddy"! She is also engaged and getting married in October. The thing is, she's tiny! Ok, so maybe not tiny, but I would bet she's already in the healthy range WW provides. She wants to lose 10 lbs for her wedding though. I can understand that, and I'm all for having someone to go to the meetings with. Hopefully this will be the added plus that gets me where I need to be.
So I haven't exercised this week, and I really haven't had any excuse. Work has been busy, but I've definitely had time at home when I could have hit the treadmill. But I plan to hit it at LEAST once this week, and I plan to buy some 10 & 15lb weights this weekend at Target to get into some strength training at home. I can DO this!
WW has a "tool for living" called anchoring. They have a lot of "cheesy" tools that I generally don't find helpful for me, but this one is very appropriate right now. I don't know what the official description of it is, but my understanding is that you have some physical item that you carry around with you that reminds you of why you're doing this, what your goals are, what your motivation is, etc. I've never been able to find the right "anchor" until now. I'm sure you can guess what it is - my engagement ring. Everytime I get hungry (i.e. bored) when I haven't planned a snack or meal, I look at it. Everytime I want to eat MORE after I've eaten a reasonable size meal, I look at it. And I always tell myself, I don't want to be a fat bride.
Now, many might feel that is superficial. I can't believe you only want to lose weight for your wedding. You don't want to do it to be healthy? Well of course I do. But that motivation hasn't worked the last 6 years. Maybe this one will. I'm using it if it works.
On fun wedding news, I found a place that I would LOVE to have my wedding at. At least based upon what I found on the website. Holly & I are going up there this Sunday to look at it. I hope it's everything they advertise. If so, it'll be perfect!
Here's to a good WW motivated week!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
ENGAGED!
Last WI: 224.8/At Home: 223.8
SATURDAY
Well it's been a crazy couple weeks! Last weekend Erik & I, along with 6 other friends went to Tunica, MS for a casino/poker weekend. I had a lot of fun and did really well, though didn't make the big money. I played in a $550 tournament on Friday night that won me a $7500 seat in the "big" tournament on Sunday. In that tournament I got 38th out of 180. Unfortunately, they only paid out to 18th place. But, considering I was playing with mostly pros, I did very well and was very pleased with myself. That said, it would have been nice to cash as 18th paid $12K and 1st paid $450K. Oh well, there's always next year.
We got home on Monday, and then on Wednesday night Erik proposed!!! It was so funny. Turns out he picked up the ring the thursday before on the way to Tunica and had planned to do it in Tunica. He even scheduled a fancy dinner for us, that we ended up missing since we misunderstood the closing time of the restaurant. So, since he couldn't do it last weekend, he decided to do it at the location of our first date - Chaps. He totally surprised me, which is something I didn't think he could do knowing that it was coming sometime in the next few months. Anyway, I came by after work, we played poker with all our friends, and turns out I did really well that night. He had planned on doing it when I went out of the poker tournament, but I ended up getting 3rd. So he did it as we were paying our tab. Course by this time, the place was pretty empty, but that's ok, it was very sweet. He totally shocked me. Dana, his closest friend, was there running the poker show and knew it was coming, but other than that he kept it a total secret. So funny and sweet. I'm so happy.
So above is a very blurry picture of the ring taken from my camera phone. I still need to sit down and upload a nice one with my digital camera.
So Thursday I did very little at work, even though I am SWAMPED. I billed two hours, then Holly came up and we had lunch and looked at bride magazines and talked about locations the rest of the day. I think she's more excited than me! Course she just finished her wedding, so she's probably in withdrawal. Of course Thursday night I got an email on my blackberry saying EMERGENCY EMERGENCY the next 8 days will be hell and we need everyone to work major hours to get a project done by 2/1. So, after 24 hours of wedding talk and excitement, I've had to put it aside and work my butt off. I billed 14 hours yesterday and am sitting at work now (taking a much needed brain break). I expect to bill at least 10, hopefully 12 or 13 hours today. Tomorrow I'm taking a short break to go to church and look at a few houses that we'd scheduled with the realtor, then going to try to bill at least 6 hours. Monday - Friday look like 12-14 hours days. Then hopefully next weekend I can veg, and enjoy being a bride!
As for the wedding, there still lots to think about as far as a date, but we're talking about August/September, possibly labor day weekend if we can find a location we like that isn't booked. Who knows - can't think about it for 6 more days.
So that's me excitement! WOO HOO. Finally I'm a bride. At least for 7 or so months! :-)
Oh - and now I think I FINALLY got the motivation to do what I need to WW-wise. Since Erik proposed, I've been diligently tracking my points and making good choices. No exercise, as work has limited that, but after this emergency passes, I expect to get back to that too. I'm giving myself 2 months to lose as much as I can before I start looking at wedding dresses. I'm EXCITED!
Monday, January 14, 2008
YEAH!
Last WI: 224.8/Morning WI: 221.0 (YEAH)
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Screw You Scale
Last WI: 224.8/Morning WI: 224.8
Thursday.
Ok. Now I'm just pissed. And hurt and depressed. What the hell. So yesterday I didn't follow my plan 100%, but enough not to deserve this. I ended up staying at work till 7:30. Went home - chugged like a million ounces of water, and went to bed. I was asleep before 11:00. No I didn't hit the treadmill, but NO I didn't eat dinner either. I only started to feel the tiniest bit hungry about 8:30 pm and said - nope. I will not eat again today. I've probably hit my points with that evil sushi buffet, and I need to see a good number on the scale tomorrow. So I went to bed, having last eating about 2:00 pm.
This morning (after getting up no less than 3 times last night to pee - thanks million ounces of water) I jumped on the scale and saw 224.8. What? 3.2 lb gain? Are you freaking kidding me? This is the number I've vowed to record on all my stupid websites and databases? Ok. So I just don't get it. No, I wasn't perfect this week, but I did TRY. More than I've done in over a month. I ran 2 times (again more than over a month). I tracked everything I ate on WW e-tools - even when I went over. And shit - I didn't eat for over 17 hours before WI! WTF? Now when I get sick and don't eat for 17 hours the scale plummets (then rebounds once I start eating). But hell, I didn't even care if it was a "fake" number this morning, so long as it wasn't a 3.2 lb gain! I'm so mad and sad and disappointed and confused.
I feel like the scale just laughs at me as it climbs to nearly new heights. Now my stupid ticker at the top looks like I just started this journey. Oh boy do I wish I had just started this journey. Every day this week the scale creeped up, laughing the whole way....222, ha ha, 223, ha ha ha, 224, ha ha ha ha. Oh - you don't like 224.8? No I didn't, so what did I do - brushed my teeth and then re-hopped. HA HA HA - 225.4. Fine. I'll take 224.8. WTF. Maybe my scale's messed up? That would be too much to hope for.
I've said it a million ways, and I'll say it again. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I didn't expect this fabulous loss - I mean come on, I wasn't perfect. But I didn't expect a "fabulous" gain either.
So - the question remains. What am I going to do about it. Well, a big part of me wants to say FUCK YOU SCALE and just eat whatever I want. Gorge on pizza hut and McDonalds. Say so what if I'm 300 lbs next year. So what.
But I know that won't make me happy either. As I noted yesterday, I am over weight, but I'm not horribly unhealthy. At 300 lbs I'd be horribly unhealthy.
So, I'll try again. I had my stupid 3 pt weight watcher muffin for breakfast. I've packed some snacks (including that apple and orange I so proudly DIDN'T eat yesterday). And I'll try to get through another day. Sad, disappointed and depressed. But I'll get through.
I'll count my blessings, and be happy for a life that, with the exception of weight struggles, is pretty darn good - good job, good family, good man. Stop complaining and keep trying.
Sadly. Disappointedly. We'll leave it at that. Oh - and no sushi buffet...for a long while.
Thursday.
Ok. Now I'm just pissed. And hurt and depressed. What the hell. So yesterday I didn't follow my plan 100%, but enough not to deserve this. I ended up staying at work till 7:30. Went home - chugged like a million ounces of water, and went to bed. I was asleep before 11:00. No I didn't hit the treadmill, but NO I didn't eat dinner either. I only started to feel the tiniest bit hungry about 8:30 pm and said - nope. I will not eat again today. I've probably hit my points with that evil sushi buffet, and I need to see a good number on the scale tomorrow. So I went to bed, having last eating about 2:00 pm.
This morning (after getting up no less than 3 times last night to pee - thanks million ounces of water) I jumped on the scale and saw 224.8. What? 3.2 lb gain? Are you freaking kidding me? This is the number I've vowed to record on all my stupid websites and databases? Ok. So I just don't get it. No, I wasn't perfect this week, but I did TRY. More than I've done in over a month. I ran 2 times (again more than over a month). I tracked everything I ate on WW e-tools - even when I went over. And shit - I didn't eat for over 17 hours before WI! WTF? Now when I get sick and don't eat for 17 hours the scale plummets (then rebounds once I start eating). But hell, I didn't even care if it was a "fake" number this morning, so long as it wasn't a 3.2 lb gain! I'm so mad and sad and disappointed and confused.
I feel like the scale just laughs at me as it climbs to nearly new heights. Now my stupid ticker at the top looks like I just started this journey. Oh boy do I wish I had just started this journey. Every day this week the scale creeped up, laughing the whole way....222, ha ha, 223, ha ha ha, 224, ha ha ha ha. Oh - you don't like 224.8? No I didn't, so what did I do - brushed my teeth and then re-hopped. HA HA HA - 225.4. Fine. I'll take 224.8. WTF. Maybe my scale's messed up? That would be too much to hope for.
I've said it a million ways, and I'll say it again. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I didn't expect this fabulous loss - I mean come on, I wasn't perfect. But I didn't expect a "fabulous" gain either.
So - the question remains. What am I going to do about it. Well, a big part of me wants to say FUCK YOU SCALE and just eat whatever I want. Gorge on pizza hut and McDonalds. Say so what if I'm 300 lbs next year. So what.
But I know that won't make me happy either. As I noted yesterday, I am over weight, but I'm not horribly unhealthy. At 300 lbs I'd be horribly unhealthy.
So, I'll try again. I had my stupid 3 pt weight watcher muffin for breakfast. I've packed some snacks (including that apple and orange I so proudly DIDN'T eat yesterday). And I'll try to get through another day. Sad, disappointed and depressed. But I'll get through.
I'll count my blessings, and be happy for a life that, with the exception of weight struggles, is pretty darn good - good job, good family, good man. Stop complaining and keep trying.
Sadly. Disappointedly. We'll leave it at that. Oh - and no sushi buffet...for a long while.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Sodium sodium sodium...
Last WI: 221.6/At home WI: 224.4 (yep.)
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
No reward for hard work today.
Last WI: 221.6/Morning WI; 223.6 (wtf?)
TUESDAY
So, I know weight fluctuates daily based on more than just caloric intake. But I was hoping to see a lower number this morning. I was so good yesterday. Ate exactly my points, plus one of the activity points I earned by running 2 miles/walking .5 yesterday after working late (8:30). So dedicated and so not rewarded. Oh well - we'll do it again and hope for the best tomorrow. Gotta keep pluggin along. I did really well with water and fruits and veggies yesterday too, so all around a good day. Here's to another...
I won't be working out tonight as I think I need a break after two hard pushes on the treadmill. My legs are a little sore and I'd hate to hurt myself after my slackerness the last few months. So today is off to rest, and back at it tomorrow.
So far this morning I've had a balance bar and a banana (total 6 pts) and I'm still starving. I think today is going to be a tough day. I've got to figure out a yummy, filling, low point lunch to keep me going.
Other than that, no new news.
TUESDAY
So, I know weight fluctuates daily based on more than just caloric intake. But I was hoping to see a lower number this morning. I was so good yesterday. Ate exactly my points, plus one of the activity points I earned by running 2 miles/walking .5 yesterday after working late (8:30). So dedicated and so not rewarded. Oh well - we'll do it again and hope for the best tomorrow. Gotta keep pluggin along. I did really well with water and fruits and veggies yesterday too, so all around a good day. Here's to another...
I won't be working out tonight as I think I need a break after two hard pushes on the treadmill. My legs are a little sore and I'd hate to hurt myself after my slackerness the last few months. So today is off to rest, and back at it tomorrow.
So far this morning I've had a balance bar and a banana (total 6 pts) and I'm still starving. I think today is going to be a tough day. I've got to figure out a yummy, filling, low point lunch to keep me going.
Other than that, no new news.
Monday, January 7, 2008
Mantras - Can they work?
Last WI: 221.6/Morning WI: 222.8
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
Friday, December 7, 2007
Day 2. Ok start
Last WI: 222.2/At Home WI: 222.0 (??)
Friday
Well day two of my "recommitment" is going ok. Last night I didn't leave work till almost 8:00 so I totally slacked when I got home and had no motivation to jump on the treadmill like planned. Shocker. So I decided to catch up on the last episode of Hero's that I'd recorded, and munch on some popcorn and (fat free) chips. Not a horrible binge considering, but it was 10 points more than I needed. Instead of earning points through the treadmill, I ate them. Ahhh. baby steps. It was much better than my old Thursday night ritual of getting bombed since it was the night after WI and I had 7 whole days to make up for it. So, I ended up using 9 of my weekly "flex points". Not horrible, but certainly not necessary.
But now, a new day. I'm not sure what the plan is tonight. With my new work load, Erik and I haven't been going out much so he'll probably want to go out tonight. I guess I'm ok with that, but it does make for hard decisions WW-wise. I'm going to have to think through a plan today at work. Maybe I'll try to leave early enough to hit the treadmill before going out then I won't feel as guilty having a couple beers.
So Erik is taking my kitty to the vet this morning. In July I got a new kitten and now it's time for her to get spayed. Why am I stressed? I'm not so much worried about the vet, or even how Sapphire will handle it. I'm stressed because I'm not the one dropping her off. The vet doesn't open till 8:00 and it's about 20 minutes away from our house - in the wrong directly for me to go to work. So to take her myself I wouldn't have made it in to work until probably 9:30 or later. Not acceptable. All Erik has to do is take her there and drop her off. Why am I stressed? Makes no sense. I pick her up tomorrow, and I'm sure it'll be fine, but I just hate not being in control I guess.
Anyway - I have to do well today. I'm still planning on being a good little WW this week. I'm definitely going to end up eating all my flex points (as last night proved) but I'm going to try to limit it to that and any APs I earn. See what a good OP week will do for me...
Friday
Well day two of my "recommitment" is going ok. Last night I didn't leave work till almost 8:00 so I totally slacked when I got home and had no motivation to jump on the treadmill like planned. Shocker. So I decided to catch up on the last episode of Hero's that I'd recorded, and munch on some popcorn and (fat free) chips. Not a horrible binge considering, but it was 10 points more than I needed. Instead of earning points through the treadmill, I ate them. Ahhh. baby steps. It was much better than my old Thursday night ritual of getting bombed since it was the night after WI and I had 7 whole days to make up for it. So, I ended up using 9 of my weekly "flex points". Not horrible, but certainly not necessary.
But now, a new day. I'm not sure what the plan is tonight. With my new work load, Erik and I haven't been going out much so he'll probably want to go out tonight. I guess I'm ok with that, but it does make for hard decisions WW-wise. I'm going to have to think through a plan today at work. Maybe I'll try to leave early enough to hit the treadmill before going out then I won't feel as guilty having a couple beers.
So Erik is taking my kitty to the vet this morning. In July I got a new kitten and now it's time for her to get spayed. Why am I stressed? I'm not so much worried about the vet, or even how Sapphire will handle it. I'm stressed because I'm not the one dropping her off. The vet doesn't open till 8:00 and it's about 20 minutes away from our house - in the wrong directly for me to go to work. So to take her myself I wouldn't have made it in to work until probably 9:30 or later. Not acceptable. All Erik has to do is take her there and drop her off. Why am I stressed? Makes no sense. I pick her up tomorrow, and I'm sure it'll be fine, but I just hate not being in control I guess.
Anyway - I have to do well today. I'm still planning on being a good little WW this week. I'm definitely going to end up eating all my flex points (as last night proved) but I'm going to try to limit it to that and any APs I earn. See what a good OP week will do for me...
Thursday, December 6, 2007
New Job, New Committment - is it December already?
Last WI (today) 222.2 (UGH)/At Home WI: 220.8
THURSAY
Ok, so I took a month off. Grrr. Lot's has happened in the last month. I started a new job, my best friend got married, I visited family, I got super sick (still getting over it). Now I'm up to 222 on the WW scale and have a LOT of work to do. BUT there's no time to start like the present, so here I go.
I did have one other great thing happen over the last month. I got a treadmill! My dad, who's something of an odd entrepreneur, went to an auction for a fitness center and randomly bought all the equipment. So when we went to see him for Thanksgiving, Erik and I borrowed a truck (from his ex-wife - weird) and picked me up a treadmill. NO MORE EXCUSES! So, we got it home and I used it three times, then got horribly sick. Like hacking up a lung sick. So now, I'm still coughin a little, but have vowed that tonight I will get back on that treadmill.
Today I also had WI. Since I started this job, I decided I wouldn't be able to make my old meeting anymore, I just don't get out of work in time. But - the good news is that my new firm has a WW at work program. And, if you lose 10 lbs in a session, they pay for half. Cool huh? The WI's are every Thursday right in the building at lunch. So I joined. Then came thanksgiving, and my illness, so it's been 3 weeks since my last WI. I only gained 1.2 but I hadn't exactly made great progress in the 1 week since I started here. So, bottom line is that I'm up .6 from when I started. But I can't look at it that way. I have to commit to this week. I really haven't done anything WW-ish in over a month so I can't complain. So today I logged onto WW.com and logged my food. I went shopping yesterday and stocked up on good choices. I made a plan to run on the treadmill tonight and to have a great week to kick things off. If I truly tracked and exercised for a whole week, I'd probably lose 3+ pounds. I haven't done that perfectly in years. I don't know why. I know it works, but I just can't commit.
But there are no food or drink oriented plans this weekend. I am totally free to be PERFECT. The good news is with the new job I haven't been going out during the week as much. The bad news is that I'm sitting at a desk for 10+ hours and totally get the munchies. I'm working toward solving that, though and today brought a number of low point snacks to have in my drawer if the urge arises.
SO - heres the stats so far:
Breakfast - chik-fil-a breakfast burrito (9pts)
Lunch - Ceasar salad, lean cuisine entree, broccoli, roasted potatos (10 pts).
Snack - hostess 100 calorie cakes (1 pt - yes, 1 pt b/c they have 5 grams of fiber)
That leaves me with 9 pts left for the day.
Oh and I have a new theory on exercise. I've been very bad in the past about eating my APs before I earn them. Like on a day like today when I plan to run tonight, I'd say - oh I'll earn at least 4 APs so I'll eat them now. Then I wouldn't do the work out and end up in the negative anyway. So now, I'm only allowed to eat the APs from the day before if at all. That way if I work out at night I won't feel like I'm being jipped if I don't want to eat them that night (often I work out at 8:00 or later) and I won't be cheating and eating them early and then not even earning them. So - day after APs plan in ON. If I earn 4 APs tonight - all the better for tomorrow!
Time to execute!
THURSAY
Ok, so I took a month off. Grrr. Lot's has happened in the last month. I started a new job, my best friend got married, I visited family, I got super sick (still getting over it). Now I'm up to 222 on the WW scale and have a LOT of work to do. BUT there's no time to start like the present, so here I go.
I did have one other great thing happen over the last month. I got a treadmill! My dad, who's something of an odd entrepreneur, went to an auction for a fitness center and randomly bought all the equipment. So when we went to see him for Thanksgiving, Erik and I borrowed a truck (from his ex-wife - weird) and picked me up a treadmill. NO MORE EXCUSES! So, we got it home and I used it three times, then got horribly sick. Like hacking up a lung sick. So now, I'm still coughin a little, but have vowed that tonight I will get back on that treadmill.
Today I also had WI. Since I started this job, I decided I wouldn't be able to make my old meeting anymore, I just don't get out of work in time. But - the good news is that my new firm has a WW at work program. And, if you lose 10 lbs in a session, they pay for half. Cool huh? The WI's are every Thursday right in the building at lunch. So I joined. Then came thanksgiving, and my illness, so it's been 3 weeks since my last WI. I only gained 1.2 but I hadn't exactly made great progress in the 1 week since I started here. So, bottom line is that I'm up .6 from when I started. But I can't look at it that way. I have to commit to this week. I really haven't done anything WW-ish in over a month so I can't complain. So today I logged onto WW.com and logged my food. I went shopping yesterday and stocked up on good choices. I made a plan to run on the treadmill tonight and to have a great week to kick things off. If I truly tracked and exercised for a whole week, I'd probably lose 3+ pounds. I haven't done that perfectly in years. I don't know why. I know it works, but I just can't commit.
But there are no food or drink oriented plans this weekend. I am totally free to be PERFECT. The good news is with the new job I haven't been going out during the week as much. The bad news is that I'm sitting at a desk for 10+ hours and totally get the munchies. I'm working toward solving that, though and today brought a number of low point snacks to have in my drawer if the urge arises.
SO - heres the stats so far:
Breakfast - chik-fil-a breakfast burrito (9pts)
Lunch - Ceasar salad, lean cuisine entree, broccoli, roasted potatos (10 pts).
Snack - hostess 100 calorie cakes (1 pt - yes, 1 pt b/c they have 5 grams of fiber)
That leaves me with 9 pts left for the day.
Oh and I have a new theory on exercise. I've been very bad in the past about eating my APs before I earn them. Like on a day like today when I plan to run tonight, I'd say - oh I'll earn at least 4 APs so I'll eat them now. Then I wouldn't do the work out and end up in the negative anyway. So now, I'm only allowed to eat the APs from the day before if at all. That way if I work out at night I won't feel like I'm being jipped if I don't want to eat them that night (often I work out at 8:00 or later) and I won't be cheating and eating them early and then not even earning them. So - day after APs plan in ON. If I earn 4 APs tonight - all the better for tomorrow!
Time to execute!
Friday, November 2, 2007
Good Work Out
Last WI: 216.8/At Home WI: 220.8 (dehydrated)
FRIDAY
Today was a good day. I got up late, caught up on some TiVo, had a healthy lunch of turkey sandwich and an apple, then hit the road for some errands. After a pedicure and a couple hours at Barnes & Noble, I hit the gym and had a great workout. I did 2 miles on the treadmill and lifted a bunch. Not my best workout, but since I've only been once inthe last 3 weeks, it's a victory for me.
Came home and had a good dinner of tuna casserole, green beans, celery and dip. Very low point day today. I'm hoping to hit the road running with this week and a good sign on the scale tomorrow. Here's to a good weekend!
FRIDAY
Today was a good day. I got up late, caught up on some TiVo, had a healthy lunch of turkey sandwich and an apple, then hit the road for some errands. After a pedicure and a couple hours at Barnes & Noble, I hit the gym and had a great workout. I did 2 miles on the treadmill and lifted a bunch. Not my best workout, but since I've only been once inthe last 3 weeks, it's a victory for me.
Came home and had a good dinner of tuna casserole, green beans, celery and dip. Very low point day today. I'm hoping to hit the road running with this week and a good sign on the scale tomorrow. Here's to a good weekend!
Monday, October 8, 2007
Back to Basics
Last WI: 214.6/At Home WI: 215.6
MONDAY
Ok, so I've got to recommit. This 2 weeks of sort of "eh" eating and exercising is par for the course for me. I always do really good for a month or two then can't keep it up. I take some time to sort of re-charge. I hope this has been enough. I'm actually thankful that the scale is still only a pound or so higher than when I was being good. I don't think I can make Onderland by the wedding now, but I can still make some more progress. That's the plan. I'd like to get down another 10 lbs by the wedding. Totally do-able. I have 7 1/2 weeks left, 8 weigh ins including this Thursday. I can do it.
So, I "vowed" I would wi last week. And I didn't. No real good excuse. I just didn't. But, I've not got a plan. I'm going to the gym today. I'm actually at home now. I have the day off for Columbus day. I'm doing laundry/cleaning, and frankly mostly being lazy.
These last couple weeks have been good though. Even if I've not been the perfect weight watcher. This last weekend the bride's sister-in-law threw her a surprise shower, so that was fun and nice. She's also been working on my 30'th birthday party that she's throwing me in a couple weeks. Erik and I are doing great. He had Daniel this weekend and it was a good weekend over all. Generally my life is really good. I'm excited about the new job coming up. Oh- and Erik and I booked a trip to Biloxi for the last weekend in October - leaving my last day at work and staying for 3 nights. That will be fun, and we have enough comps to get them to fly us down there and comp our rooms. I'm trying to talk the bride and her fiance into coming as well. That would be lots of fun.
Over all I just need to get refocused on the weight/exercise thing. It starts today. I'm going to see how much of my endurance I've lost - see how far I can run. :-)
MONDAY
Ok, so I've got to recommit. This 2 weeks of sort of "eh" eating and exercising is par for the course for me. I always do really good for a month or two then can't keep it up. I take some time to sort of re-charge. I hope this has been enough. I'm actually thankful that the scale is still only a pound or so higher than when I was being good. I don't think I can make Onderland by the wedding now, but I can still make some more progress. That's the plan. I'd like to get down another 10 lbs by the wedding. Totally do-able. I have 7 1/2 weeks left, 8 weigh ins including this Thursday. I can do it.
So, I "vowed" I would wi last week. And I didn't. No real good excuse. I just didn't. But, I've not got a plan. I'm going to the gym today. I'm actually at home now. I have the day off for Columbus day. I'm doing laundry/cleaning, and frankly mostly being lazy.
These last couple weeks have been good though. Even if I've not been the perfect weight watcher. This last weekend the bride's sister-in-law threw her a surprise shower, so that was fun and nice. She's also been working on my 30'th birthday party that she's throwing me in a couple weeks. Erik and I are doing great. He had Daniel this weekend and it was a good weekend over all. Generally my life is really good. I'm excited about the new job coming up. Oh- and Erik and I booked a trip to Biloxi for the last weekend in October - leaving my last day at work and staying for 3 nights. That will be fun, and we have enough comps to get them to fly us down there and comp our rooms. I'm trying to talk the bride and her fiance into coming as well. That would be lots of fun.
Over all I just need to get refocused on the weight/exercise thing. It starts today. I'm going to see how much of my endurance I've lost - see how far I can run. :-)
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Family Meals and Off Plan
Last WI: 214.6/Last at Home WI: 214.8
TUESDAY
Ok, so I know when I'm not bloggin, I'm usually not on plan. I knew the 211.8 was too good to be true.
This week has been tough. Erik's parents have been in town since last Wednesday and boy do they cook. And I feel very rude not eating what they cook. For example - they are leaving today and had bought some sausage for breakfasts that they hadn't cooked, so Erik's dad decided to get up this morning and cook me breakfast. Very sweet notion, but I usually have a balance bar for breakfast - my 4 point moderation. But instead, this morning, I felt obligated to have sausage and toast - much more than 4 points I'm certain. Grrr.
But - they left today so at lesat my food challenges should reduce. I've just not been on top of it at all. My only saving grace has been exercise. I ran 6 miles on Saturday and did 90 minutes of cardio on the elliptical and bike on Sunday. Yesterday I took my "rest" day and today I plan to do at leat 4 miles on the treadmill, hopefully 6, but a minimum of 60 minutes cardio either way. I've got to get this under control or these next few months are going to fly by with no progress.
I only have 67 days until Holly's wedding. I had really hoped to be in Onderland by then. I still can, but I have got to kick it up. After this Thursday - which I'm still hoping for some kind of loss - I have 9 more WI's before the wedding. I've got 14.6 lbs to lose. I can do it. I just have to rededicate myself!
Today I'm leaving work about 1:00 for a dentist appointment. Then I'm headed to the gym for my work-out then I'm volunteering at the local fair. I've already had a big breakfast as noted above, and am supposed to be going to lunch for a collegue's birthday shortly - Need to make good decisions!
Here's to a good day!
TUESDAY
Ok, so I know when I'm not bloggin, I'm usually not on plan. I knew the 211.8 was too good to be true.
This week has been tough. Erik's parents have been in town since last Wednesday and boy do they cook. And I feel very rude not eating what they cook. For example - they are leaving today and had bought some sausage for breakfasts that they hadn't cooked, so Erik's dad decided to get up this morning and cook me breakfast. Very sweet notion, but I usually have a balance bar for breakfast - my 4 point moderation. But instead, this morning, I felt obligated to have sausage and toast - much more than 4 points I'm certain. Grrr.
But - they left today so at lesat my food challenges should reduce. I've just not been on top of it at all. My only saving grace has been exercise. I ran 6 miles on Saturday and did 90 minutes of cardio on the elliptical and bike on Sunday. Yesterday I took my "rest" day and today I plan to do at leat 4 miles on the treadmill, hopefully 6, but a minimum of 60 minutes cardio either way. I've got to get this under control or these next few months are going to fly by with no progress.
I only have 67 days until Holly's wedding. I had really hoped to be in Onderland by then. I still can, but I have got to kick it up. After this Thursday - which I'm still hoping for some kind of loss - I have 9 more WI's before the wedding. I've got 14.6 lbs to lose. I can do it. I just have to rededicate myself!
Today I'm leaving work about 1:00 for a dentist appointment. Then I'm headed to the gym for my work-out then I'm volunteering at the local fair. I've already had a big breakfast as noted above, and am supposed to be going to lunch for a collegue's birthday shortly - Need to make good decisions!
Here's to a good day!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Ran 5 Miles!
Last WI: 215.4/At Home WI: 215.8 (?)
TUESDAY
I've been bad. I'm not sure why. I got back from my mini vacation and have just not been able to get it together. Monday I couldn't get to the gym because of our poker game, and I ended up drinking a few beers last night at poker. So I'm not sure about this morning's WI. But who knows. Today I was ok until lunch (wow, huh?) when Holly asked me to go to lunch with her. We went to have pizza. I had two large slices, where I should have had only one (or a salad!). Boo.
Well, the good news is that I went to the gym after work and ran 5 Miles! That's right - first time I've done 5 miles in a very long time. It actually felt great. So that's good. I got home and Erik had made some shrimp and green beans for dinner. So that was good. I'm going to try not to eat any more tonight.
I don't know what's going to happen at WI. I guess I'm back to hoping for a maintain. I hate that. I've been doing so good. I totally should have had a loss this week if I'd just stuck to the plan. Oh well - all I can do now is remedy the problem. I'll work out tomorrow too, and hope for the best.
TUESDAY
I've been bad. I'm not sure why. I got back from my mini vacation and have just not been able to get it together. Monday I couldn't get to the gym because of our poker game, and I ended up drinking a few beers last night at poker. So I'm not sure about this morning's WI. But who knows. Today I was ok until lunch (wow, huh?) when Holly asked me to go to lunch with her. We went to have pizza. I had two large slices, where I should have had only one (or a salad!). Boo.
Well, the good news is that I went to the gym after work and ran 5 Miles! That's right - first time I've done 5 miles in a very long time. It actually felt great. So that's good. I got home and Erik had made some shrimp and green beans for dinner. So that was good. I'm going to try not to eat any more tonight.
I don't know what's going to happen at WI. I guess I'm back to hoping for a maintain. I hate that. I've been doing so good. I totally should have had a loss this week if I'd just stuck to the plan. Oh well - all I can do now is remedy the problem. I'll work out tomorrow too, and hope for the best.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Poker and Alcohol - Required Together!
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 220.0 (hope that's not a fluke!)
WEDNESDAY
Well, yesterday was perfect until the evening...again. I am totally weak at night even after a perfect OP day! I left work and went to the gym - ran 2 miles, then did the elliptical for a total of 6 APs. Not the 10 I'd hoped for, but my energy was just low so I took what I could get. I got home and had 9 points left for the day plus the 6 APs I'd earned. Erik had a friend coming into town from Michigan that he went to college with. His friend, Kevin, would be staying with us for two days. The tentative plan was for him to get in about 5:30 or 6:00 and we'd go to dinner. A little after 6:00 no boys and I'm starving, so I have a bowl of chicken noodle soup to tide me over (3pts). That still leaves me a good 12 points for dinner - totally doable with good choices. The boys finally get there about 7:00 and Erik decides he wants to go play poker.
Boooo!
We play at a restaurant called chaps, which I can totally eat ok at, but have the hardest times not drinking - particularly when playing poker. So we get there, we order, I make a good choice and order diet coke with my sandwich and salad - total of 14 points approx. Then about an hour into the poker game, I'm irritated by the people at my table and order a beer...then another. And you know where it goes from there. I ended the day with a total of 4 beers - and 8 unnecessary points. All in all I was 10 pts over for the day after eating my APs. Not horrible, but I didn't have them to spare after my Monday night splurge. I should NOT be splurging two nights in a row when I really need to post a good loss this week! Grrrr. The good news is that the scale was very friendly this morning - to the point that I think it was wrong but I was too scared to weigh again. I want so much to believe it's right. So I'm taking it and running with it and hoping to have my perfect day today. It's the day before WI and I have no choice, right?
The good news is that I've done TONS of exercise this week. Since WI I've earned 28 APs and plan for another 6 or so today. That is huge for me, so I'm hoping that will cover for the slips of the week.
Today I've had 7 pts so far for breakfast and snack. I havent figured out lunch yet as I'm trying to sneak out of work early so I may just have a bowl of soup I have and disappear around 2:00 or so - we'll see. Either way I am going back to the gym today. And at least I know I won't be tempted by alcohol tonight - Erik has Daniel and our house guest, so it's definitely a night it with the boys. I WILL make a good dinner for me, even if I have to be unsocial. Ideally I can eat just my target points and "bank" the APs for WI tomorrow. That's the plan man!
WEDNESDAY
Well, yesterday was perfect until the evening...again. I am totally weak at night even after a perfect OP day! I left work and went to the gym - ran 2 miles, then did the elliptical for a total of 6 APs. Not the 10 I'd hoped for, but my energy was just low so I took what I could get. I got home and had 9 points left for the day plus the 6 APs I'd earned. Erik had a friend coming into town from Michigan that he went to college with. His friend, Kevin, would be staying with us for two days. The tentative plan was for him to get in about 5:30 or 6:00 and we'd go to dinner. A little after 6:00 no boys and I'm starving, so I have a bowl of chicken noodle soup to tide me over (3pts). That still leaves me a good 12 points for dinner - totally doable with good choices. The boys finally get there about 7:00 and Erik decides he wants to go play poker.
Boooo!
We play at a restaurant called chaps, which I can totally eat ok at, but have the hardest times not drinking - particularly when playing poker. So we get there, we order, I make a good choice and order diet coke with my sandwich and salad - total of 14 points approx. Then about an hour into the poker game, I'm irritated by the people at my table and order a beer...then another. And you know where it goes from there. I ended the day with a total of 4 beers - and 8 unnecessary points. All in all I was 10 pts over for the day after eating my APs. Not horrible, but I didn't have them to spare after my Monday night splurge. I should NOT be splurging two nights in a row when I really need to post a good loss this week! Grrrr. The good news is that the scale was very friendly this morning - to the point that I think it was wrong but I was too scared to weigh again. I want so much to believe it's right. So I'm taking it and running with it and hoping to have my perfect day today. It's the day before WI and I have no choice, right?
The good news is that I've done TONS of exercise this week. Since WI I've earned 28 APs and plan for another 6 or so today. That is huge for me, so I'm hoping that will cover for the slips of the week.
Today I've had 7 pts so far for breakfast and snack. I havent figured out lunch yet as I'm trying to sneak out of work early so I may just have a bowl of soup I have and disappear around 2:00 or so - we'll see. Either way I am going back to the gym today. And at least I know I won't be tempted by alcohol tonight - Erik has Daniel and our house guest, so it's definitely a night it with the boys. I WILL make a good dinner for me, even if I have to be unsocial. Ideally I can eat just my target points and "bank" the APs for WI tomorrow. That's the plan man!
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