Busy - Focusing is hard

FRIDAY

Well, as is the case of late, I've been very busy with work, boot camp, and wedding planning. And the weight loss progress has stopped. I'm a bit frustrated as I'm running out of time. We're 37 days away. I've been good on the boot camp front, but not good on the food front. I'm kinda peeved at myself too. But my problem is when I'm stressed I eat. And life is stressful right now. I had a very frustrating day yesterday with a paralegal at the office that simply isn't doing her job. So when I went out with Erik I felt entitled to have a beer or 4. It was a nice release, but an unnecessary weekday drinking binge.

Oh well - the wedding is coming - ready or not. And I think I'm ready other than weight-wise. I've got lots of appointments coming up to finalize things, the scariest of which is the dress fitting. I'm trying to put it off as long as possible, but it's coming too - ready or not.

I don't really have much else to say - this post is really a same ol same ol type of post. Gee - I'm not losing weight - gee I'm eating too much - gee maybe that's why I'm not losing weight. No real epiphanies there.

don't feel like blogging

217.0 (eh).

MONDAY

Not really in the mood to blog today, or the last week really. I'm kinda in a funk. Not sure why. Erik & I got in a fight last night that started over something small then got me all worked up. We're fine now, but it was emotionally draining. I've missed 3 boot camps now, after not making it this morning. I did email my instructors today though and promised to be there tomorrow. I'm not sure what's going on. I'm very slow at work, which leads to stress about my job security. I know it's not just me, but I still stress.

Anyway - hopefully I'll snap out of this shortly. I'm not loving life right now, though even in saying that I realize how selfish that is and how many blessings I have. Why is it sometimes hard to appreciate them?