242.8 (small increase yes, but hey, I did have a few beers last night...)
Is it odd how when you have a plan for your health, a weightloss plan, a work out plan, an overall plan with goals and steps to get there, you feel better already. I mean I've only been back on track 3 days and I know there's no physical evidence yet, but I already feel slimmer, more confident, more motivated, more energized. Funny.
Today I took a new step in my plan to beat my brother's butt - I signed up for a new gym. Well actually it's an old gym - one I used to belong to when I worked at a firm four blocks away, before my days as a prosecutor, but new now, nonetheless. There's a gym in my building but I went in there the other day and realized that it's so small, neglected, etc., that I never go and never feel motivated to go. It's independently owned, so understandably they can't do a lot of renovations or keep the equipment super current. This "new" gym is one I used to go to - it's a chain (LAFitness) and there are like 3 billion locations around Atlanta, actually a brand new one near my office that I didn't even know exsited, that has a pool (very cool). And it's actually cheaper than the independant, in-my-building gym (which I guess shouldn't surprise me).
So I signed up. And I have my gym bag with me. And I'm going to work out tonight on the way home. I asked about personal training prices, and man they're just so damn expensive. I mean $240 a month to get a guy for 30 minutes once a week? And it goes up from there as you can imagine. Ridiculous. The only reason I wanted a personal trainer is to have someone develop a program for me, and keep me motivated. Well I decided to do the next best thing. Right after I signed up for the gym, I headed two blocks down to the Barnes & Noble and bought 2 things -The Body Sculpting Bible for Women and "The Ultimate Workout Logbook". For $40 I get most of what I wanted an instructor for. The bodysculpting book has a program that has me lifting weights 3 days a week, telling me exactly what exercise to do, changing the program every day, and then cycling to a new program every 2 weeks. Ok - so I have my program.
The "logbook" is, believe it or not a good part of my motivation. Let me explain. I've realized that if you want to be successful at something you have to figure out how to utilize your strengths to get it down. Self motivation is not a strength of mine. I'm a lazy bum. If I had the metabolism of my huband or best friend I don't think I'd even know what a "dumb bell" looked like. I'd totally be lazy and live off the benefits of my body's ability to burn the food I ate.
Alas, I don't so I need to find the "strength" that can get me what I want. In yesterday's post I found one - competition. I hate to lose, particularly to my brother, so that will keep me going to some extent. For a while at least. But I need more.
I thought about it today and realized that I need to tie my love for school into this journey. Yes, I do need to keep learning about fitness and nutrition, but what I really mean is I need the structure. One of the things I LOVE about school is its structure. You have a definite beginning - the first day of class - and a definite end - finals, and everything in between is planned out. For many classes you know the first day the assignments you'll have for every subsequent class. You have a plan - a road map.
I like assignments. And I like finite end points and goals.
So this log book and "program" gives me that. I have an assignment. I have to complete a very specific routine three days a week. And my "grade" is based upon my writing it down in my log book.
So where's the definite end? Of course there's not really an END end - I'll be doing this my entire life - but there are mini-ends. First is the first 2 weeks - the "program" has me doing a set routine for 2 weeks, then it changes. Then it's the first 6 weeks - the program gradually intensifies for 6 weeks then you cycle back to the first week's intensity, but with a different routine.
Then there's the running portion. Part of my assignment 3 times a week is to get on the treadmill and do the cardio. The program in the book just calls for 20 mins of cardio - no program for that. That's not good enough for me. For me, I've always measured my success cardiovascularly based upon my running. I've done a marathon, for goodness sake. But today when I jump on that treadmill, honestly I'll be lucky to be able to run a half mile straight without walking. So I need to build that back up. Slowly.
So I'm using the Couchto5K program to get me back in running shape - thus - giving me an assignment for each day. Today I've already written it down on a post-it to take with me to the treadmill. Along with my post-it outlining exactly which weight training exercises to do.
Today is Day 1. And I will get my homework done.
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
Thursday, September 18, 2008
First Run a Success
232.4 (up, but am sore so I'll blame it on that).
I did it. I got back to the gym. I had to do all the stuff you do at a new gym - figure out where the lockers where, how the towel service worked, where everything is located. But, I did all that and then I got on the treadmill. And Ran. I ended up doing week 4 of the C25K program. Essentially I did a 5 minute warm-up walk, ran 1/4 mile, walked 1/8 mile, ran 1/2 mile, walked 1/4 mile, ran 1/4 mile, walked 1/8 mile, ran 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile. Ultimately I ended a little over 2.5 miles, in about 33:00 minutes. Not bad. I burned about 400 calories, and am a little sore today but all that was to be expected.
I didn't hit the weights like I'd hoped. I'm always bad about motivation for weight training. But I didn't beat myself up about it because I did the most important thing - started again. So today I'm going back. I packed my gym bag, brought it to my office, and it's sitting in the corner of the room looking at me.
Last night I started thinking about things - I felt good that I'd ran again, but I was beating myself up for not eating right or drinking enough water that day. Then I realized that I can take this one step at a time. Always in my life when I decide to do something I do it 200%. I mean I go overboard and try to do it al at once. And I'm usually sucessful - for a time at least - until I burn out. This time I want to be ok with taking it slow.
I decided last night that today I'd work on eating better and drinking more water, with a goal of doing a little better each day. And sticking to the gym. I am going a little crazy in that department with plans to go every work day. I don't have to go for long, but I want to make myself go every night before I go home. I rarely have evening commitments that require me to be home at a particular time, so it shouldn't be a problem most of the time. Also, part of the reason I haven't been good about exercising on my own treadmill is that by the time I get home, I'm starving, and want to eat dinner. That's usually about 8:00 at night and I by the time I'm "digested" enough to feel comfortable exercising, it's bed time.
So this is a good solution. I work out right after work then I can go home and have dinner without guilt. And go to bed without guilt. I'll use my treadmill on the weekends, so it's not all a waste. That's the plan. Day 1 in the books. I'm going to shoot for getting under 230 by the end of the month. That should be really doable, but I'm going to set small goals this time around, and meet every one of them.
I did it. I got back to the gym. I had to do all the stuff you do at a new gym - figure out where the lockers where, how the towel service worked, where everything is located. But, I did all that and then I got on the treadmill. And Ran. I ended up doing week 4 of the C25K program. Essentially I did a 5 minute warm-up walk, ran 1/4 mile, walked 1/8 mile, ran 1/2 mile, walked 1/4 mile, ran 1/4 mile, walked 1/8 mile, ran 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile. Ultimately I ended a little over 2.5 miles, in about 33:00 minutes. Not bad. I burned about 400 calories, and am a little sore today but all that was to be expected.
I didn't hit the weights like I'd hoped. I'm always bad about motivation for weight training. But I didn't beat myself up about it because I did the most important thing - started again. So today I'm going back. I packed my gym bag, brought it to my office, and it's sitting in the corner of the room looking at me.
Last night I started thinking about things - I felt good that I'd ran again, but I was beating myself up for not eating right or drinking enough water that day. Then I realized that I can take this one step at a time. Always in my life when I decide to do something I do it 200%. I mean I go overboard and try to do it al at once. And I'm usually sucessful - for a time at least - until I burn out. This time I want to be ok with taking it slow.
I decided last night that today I'd work on eating better and drinking more water, with a goal of doing a little better each day. And sticking to the gym. I am going a little crazy in that department with plans to go every work day. I don't have to go for long, but I want to make myself go every night before I go home. I rarely have evening commitments that require me to be home at a particular time, so it shouldn't be a problem most of the time. Also, part of the reason I haven't been good about exercising on my own treadmill is that by the time I get home, I'm starving, and want to eat dinner. That's usually about 8:00 at night and I by the time I'm "digested" enough to feel comfortable exercising, it's bed time.
So this is a good solution. I work out right after work then I can go home and have dinner without guilt. And go to bed without guilt. I'll use my treadmill on the weekends, so it's not all a waste. That's the plan. Day 1 in the books. I'm going to shoot for getting under 230 by the end of the month. That should be really doable, but I'm going to set small goals this time around, and meet every one of them.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
9.5 weeks
WEDNESDAY
So I am 9.5 weeks away from the wedding. That would be 67 days. Really? I mean, only 67 days? I feel like I should have more to do. But I keep checking the wedding "checklists" and everything's on track. Now I just need to get closer to finalize a head count, then I can do the last big things on the list. It seems almost too easy.
Now - onto the focus of this blog - weight and weight loss. 9.5 weeks is a long time but not SO long that it is daunting. 4 months is daunting. 67 days is "a bit". I would like to convince myself that I can be a very good dieter/exerciser for 67 days. That doesn't sound unreasonable. I've done it before. We all know I'm going to totally party it up at the wedding and honeymoon beyond. So, can I sacrifice my beloved beer/pizza/fries/burgers/etc. for 67 days? Can I prioritize exercise over poker and sleeping in? Can I?
Of course only time will tell, but here we are, and I'm ready to try. Today I logged my breakfast into spark people. I will log my lunch as well. And dinner. And EXERCISE. Because tonight I am going to dust off my beautiful treadmill and give it a "whirl". Literally. 67 days. I can and WILL do this.
So far today:
Calories consumed: 482
Calories remaining available: 1018
Exercise yet to be done: 60 minutes/~700 calories
HERE WE GO...
So I am 9.5 weeks away from the wedding. That would be 67 days. Really? I mean, only 67 days? I feel like I should have more to do. But I keep checking the wedding "checklists" and everything's on track. Now I just need to get closer to finalize a head count, then I can do the last big things on the list. It seems almost too easy.
Now - onto the focus of this blog - weight and weight loss. 9.5 weeks is a long time but not SO long that it is daunting. 4 months is daunting. 67 days is "a bit". I would like to convince myself that I can be a very good dieter/exerciser for 67 days. That doesn't sound unreasonable. I've done it before. We all know I'm going to totally party it up at the wedding and honeymoon beyond. So, can I sacrifice my beloved beer/pizza/fries/burgers/etc. for 67 days? Can I prioritize exercise over poker and sleeping in? Can I?
Of course only time will tell, but here we are, and I'm ready to try. Today I logged my breakfast into spark people. I will log my lunch as well. And dinner. And EXERCISE. Because tonight I am going to dust off my beautiful treadmill and give it a "whirl". Literally. 67 days. I can and WILL do this.
So far today:
Calories consumed: 482
Calories remaining available: 1018
Exercise yet to be done: 60 minutes/~700 calories
HERE WE GO...
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Moved in and Funkdity funk funk
220.0
Thursday
This weekend was CRAAAAAZZY. Like totally crazy busy. I ended up taking off Thursday & Friday from work to get my house ready for "the move". Holly's husband Dana was a godsend and helped me both days buy a refrigerator, lawn mower & patio furniture and install all that and a dishwasher. He's very handy! Than Saturday began the GREAT MOVE. I had about 6 friends meet me at my old house at 10:30 to start loading up the gynormous U-Haul I bought. We got it loaded, with more friends trickling in, about 12:30 and headed to the new house. A few mor friends met us there for the unload. Half way through unloading we sent half the big strong guys off to my storage facility to empty that out as well (which included a pian0 - let me tell you they LOVED me for that one). By the time they got back with that stuff we had the U-Haul emptied. By 4:30 we had the trucks/trailers/etc. from storag emptied and the party commenced. In exchange for physical labor Erik & I supplied Pizza, Wings, Beer & Water throughout the day. And we started our celebratory poker tournament at about 6:30 for all participants.
Sunday was church, then easter dinner at Holly's then home for nap & unpacking. So much unpacking to do...
Then this week I've been car-pooling with Holly because I'm not allowed to wear my contacts. I'm having lasik surgery tomorrow morning and this week have had to live with a blurry world. It's really odd. My eyes aren't that bad compared to a lot of people but I do have to squint if the TV is more than aobut 10 feet away. Anyway, technically I'm not supposed to drive w/o contacts/glasses so I've been riding w/Holly. Why don't I wear glasses you say? Well because about a month ago my someone or something (read my crazy cat!) decided to hide my glasses and I haven't been able to find them - not even after the move. I think they took them outside and burried them. Grrr. So blind I am - till tomorrow at least.
Food-wise I was really bad this weekend. Got lots of exercise with moving, but balanced it with beer, pizza & wings. Not good.
So my weight has totally fluctuated this week. Way too high. But finally I got back on track yesterday. I'm trying something different. I'm trying Sparkpeople. I've read lots of blogs on people who use it and thought I'd give it a try. The problem with weight watchers I'm having is that I've done it so long, that I really cheat too much. I know how to cheat points - find the foods with the most fiber so it's lower point - eat two servings separatly so it's less points than it would be in one sitting - stupid stuff that doesn't lower the calorie content of the food, but just lets me abuse the program. I'm just in a rut with weight watchers and need a change. So Sparkpeople here I come. I logged all my food yesterday and even got a good run in last night. Today so far I'm doing well. I've logged breakfast and lunch and will find something good for dinner.
I've got 22 weeks till the wedding. 22 weeks. I started with almost 30 and I've wasted about 8 without any real weight loss. not good. I can do a lot in 22 weeks but I've got to stick with it. I've got to. This HAS to be important.
I was researching DJ's yesterday and one had a bunch of pictures of weddings he hosted. I saw all these beautiful brides. I hate pictures of me right now. I really don't want to hate my wedding photos. So 22 weeks to make it happen. I HAVE to.
Today's plan - 200-500 calories for dinner - good run on the treadmill and some strength training. Get to bed at a reasonable time - no alcohol - no Y-knots (bar we usually go to on Thursdays). Just good healthy living. i can DO this!
Thursday
This weekend was CRAAAAAZZY. Like totally crazy busy. I ended up taking off Thursday & Friday from work to get my house ready for "the move". Holly's husband Dana was a godsend and helped me both days buy a refrigerator, lawn mower & patio furniture and install all that and a dishwasher. He's very handy! Than Saturday began the GREAT MOVE. I had about 6 friends meet me at my old house at 10:30 to start loading up the gynormous U-Haul I bought. We got it loaded, with more friends trickling in, about 12:30 and headed to the new house. A few mor friends met us there for the unload. Half way through unloading we sent half the big strong guys off to my storage facility to empty that out as well (which included a pian0 - let me tell you they LOVED me for that one). By the time they got back with that stuff we had the U-Haul emptied. By 4:30 we had the trucks/trailers/etc. from storag emptied and the party commenced. In exchange for physical labor Erik & I supplied Pizza, Wings, Beer & Water throughout the day. And we started our celebratory poker tournament at about 6:30 for all participants.
Sunday was church, then easter dinner at Holly's then home for nap & unpacking. So much unpacking to do...
Then this week I've been car-pooling with Holly because I'm not allowed to wear my contacts. I'm having lasik surgery tomorrow morning and this week have had to live with a blurry world. It's really odd. My eyes aren't that bad compared to a lot of people but I do have to squint if the TV is more than aobut 10 feet away. Anyway, technically I'm not supposed to drive w/o contacts/glasses so I've been riding w/Holly. Why don't I wear glasses you say? Well because about a month ago my someone or something (read my crazy cat!) decided to hide my glasses and I haven't been able to find them - not even after the move. I think they took them outside and burried them. Grrr. So blind I am - till tomorrow at least.
Food-wise I was really bad this weekend. Got lots of exercise with moving, but balanced it with beer, pizza & wings. Not good.
So my weight has totally fluctuated this week. Way too high. But finally I got back on track yesterday. I'm trying something different. I'm trying Sparkpeople. I've read lots of blogs on people who use it and thought I'd give it a try. The problem with weight watchers I'm having is that I've done it so long, that I really cheat too much. I know how to cheat points - find the foods with the most fiber so it's lower point - eat two servings separatly so it's less points than it would be in one sitting - stupid stuff that doesn't lower the calorie content of the food, but just lets me abuse the program. I'm just in a rut with weight watchers and need a change. So Sparkpeople here I come. I logged all my food yesterday and even got a good run in last night. Today so far I'm doing well. I've logged breakfast and lunch and will find something good for dinner.
I've got 22 weeks till the wedding. 22 weeks. I started with almost 30 and I've wasted about 8 without any real weight loss. not good. I can do a lot in 22 weeks but I've got to stick with it. I've got to. This HAS to be important.
I was researching DJ's yesterday and one had a bunch of pictures of weddings he hosted. I saw all these beautiful brides. I hate pictures of me right now. I really don't want to hate my wedding photos. So 22 weeks to make it happen. I HAVE to.
Today's plan - 200-500 calories for dinner - good run on the treadmill and some strength training. Get to bed at a reasonable time - no alcohol - no Y-knots (bar we usually go to on Thursdays). Just good healthy living. i can DO this!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Sodium sodium sodium...
Last WI: 221.6/At home WI: 224.4 (yep.)
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
Monday, January 7, 2008
Mantras - Can they work?
Last WI: 221.6/Morning WI: 222.8
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Highly Paid Internet Surfer.
Last WI: 221.6/At Home WI: 221.6
THURSDAY
I made some goals this week and so far I've kept two out of four. First, I was going to log all my food into my online WW journal every day regardless of how bad I was. Check. (and boy did yesterday look bad...). Second, I vowed to weigh in once a week, at home, on Thursday mornings, and record it online at WW (and here). Check. This morning showed a one pound gain, but considering yesterday's scary number, and my new years binge, I think I can handle that.
Goals three and four haven't gone as smoothly. Goal three - cardio 3 x per week. Goal 4 - strength 1 x per week. Granted I haven't been through a week yet, but so far nill on both. I totally planned to run yesterday (hello - treadmill 30 steps away from the bed...) but slacked. And slacked and slacked. no excuse. Just lazy. Why? Again, no excuse. Grrr.
So I've got to find a way to commit. I had hoped to start training for a half marathon here in Atlanta in March. I can still do it, but need to get my butt in gear NOW. I need to make up a schedule and stick to it. I'm going to do that right after I post this.
As for strength training? i know I need to do more than once a week. But I SOO hate doing it right now that I feel like once a week would be a great success. Maybe I'll go tonight after work....
As for work, I still have nothing to do, but have work on the horizon. I have a 10am meeting tomorrow to pick up a new case, and a 9am meeting on Monday for a current case. I'm also supposed to be hearing from a young partner this afternoon about a project, so there's hope. Meanwhile, I've been a very highly paid internet surfer.
THURSDAY
I made some goals this week and so far I've kept two out of four. First, I was going to log all my food into my online WW journal every day regardless of how bad I was. Check. (and boy did yesterday look bad...). Second, I vowed to weigh in once a week, at home, on Thursday mornings, and record it online at WW (and here). Check. This morning showed a one pound gain, but considering yesterday's scary number, and my new years binge, I think I can handle that.
Goals three and four haven't gone as smoothly. Goal three - cardio 3 x per week. Goal 4 - strength 1 x per week. Granted I haven't been through a week yet, but so far nill on both. I totally planned to run yesterday (hello - treadmill 30 steps away from the bed...) but slacked. And slacked and slacked. no excuse. Just lazy. Why? Again, no excuse. Grrr.
So I've got to find a way to commit. I had hoped to start training for a half marathon here in Atlanta in March. I can still do it, but need to get my butt in gear NOW. I need to make up a schedule and stick to it. I'm going to do that right after I post this.
As for strength training? i know I need to do more than once a week. But I SOO hate doing it right now that I feel like once a week would be a great success. Maybe I'll go tonight after work....
As for work, I still have nothing to do, but have work on the horizon. I have a 10am meeting tomorrow to pick up a new case, and a 9am meeting on Monday for a current case. I'm also supposed to be hearing from a young partner this afternoon about a project, so there's hope. Meanwhile, I've been a very highly paid internet surfer.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
New Year, Same old Goals...
Last WI: 220.6/At Home WI: 224.0 (ick!)
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
New Job Starts Monday
Last WI: 216.8 (today)/At Home WI: 218.2
THURSDAY
Well I drug myself back to a meeting today. I've been slacking still. Now it's November, and I've got got get it in gear. I start my new job Monday and have spent the week getting ready from getting my hair cut and colored, to updating my wardrobe. Good thing I'm getting a raise so I can pay for all of this.
I still haven't been able to get focused WW-wise or exercise wise. I've been off all week and haven't been to the gym once. Not good. We were out of town last weekend in biloxi gambling, and I totally overindulged on everything. I've gotten a bit back in line since getting home, but still not tracking fully and not yet exercising. I did get some good news though - looks like I'm getting a treadmill for thanksgiving. My dad got one from an auction recently and is going to give it to me. I'm very excited. No excuses for not exercising over the winter!
Anyway - I'm excited about the new job. I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself to be perfect WW-wise for the next week or so, I'm just going to try to make good choices and lose if possible, but at worst maintain. I need to figure things out with this job priority one.
Just wanted to update!
THURSDAY
Well I drug myself back to a meeting today. I've been slacking still. Now it's November, and I've got got get it in gear. I start my new job Monday and have spent the week getting ready from getting my hair cut and colored, to updating my wardrobe. Good thing I'm getting a raise so I can pay for all of this.
I still haven't been able to get focused WW-wise or exercise wise. I've been off all week and haven't been to the gym once. Not good. We were out of town last weekend in biloxi gambling, and I totally overindulged on everything. I've gotten a bit back in line since getting home, but still not tracking fully and not yet exercising. I did get some good news though - looks like I'm getting a treadmill for thanksgiving. My dad got one from an auction recently and is going to give it to me. I'm very excited. No excuses for not exercising over the winter!
Anyway - I'm excited about the new job. I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself to be perfect WW-wise for the next week or so, I'm just going to try to make good choices and lose if possible, but at worst maintain. I need to figure things out with this job priority one.
Just wanted to update!
Friday, August 31, 2007
I love being WRONG (this time)
Last WI: 216.8 (!!)/At Home WI: 217.0
FRIDAY
YEAH! I am so happy I was wrong! I went to WI yesterday and lost 1.8 lbs. That is wonderful for me. I will always be shooting for 2+ lbs but anytime I do 1.5 or more, I'm thrilled. I am ON MY WAY!
That said, I'm still not in any sort of new territory. I was as low as 211.8 in January so I'll REALLY feel successful once I pass that mark. But I'm moving right along and that's all I can do.
Last night - as per usual - I went out and overindulged. But I'm ok with that. I've got my gym bag packed and I'm headed there after work to get in 2.5 miles at least. I've got a plan and it's working. Boy does that feel good!
FRIDAY
YEAH! I am so happy I was wrong! I went to WI yesterday and lost 1.8 lbs. That is wonderful for me. I will always be shooting for 2+ lbs but anytime I do 1.5 or more, I'm thrilled. I am ON MY WAY!
That said, I'm still not in any sort of new territory. I was as low as 211.8 in January so I'll REALLY feel successful once I pass that mark. But I'm moving right along and that's all I can do.
Last night - as per usual - I went out and overindulged. But I'm ok with that. I've got my gym bag packed and I'm headed there after work to get in 2.5 miles at least. I've got a plan and it's working. Boy does that feel good!
Thursday, August 16, 2007
WI Day and I'm Excited?!?
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 219.4! (YEAH!)
THURSDAY
Well, it's amazing what happens when you do the right thing. Yeah - it's funny - diet and exercise work!
So today is the culmination of my first real week OP. I mean kicking butt. Granted - as you can see below, there were a few days that I went over, slipped, splurged, or otherwise didn't make the perfect choice. But for me, this week rocked. I exercised 5 times, earned 34 APs, stayed within my range or close to it most days. Oh what would happen if I really was perfect? Anyway - the loss isn't official till WI at 5:00 but I'm totally expecting the 2+lb loss I was hoping for. On my way to the bridesmaid dress!
So yesterday I bailed at work about 3:30, headed home and was really tired for some reason so I laid down and rested/read my book until about 5:45. Then I got my booty up and went to the gym. Yesterday was a "speed work" day so I warmed up doing a 1/2 mile run at 5.5 mph, then walked for .2 mile, then ran .25 miles at 6.4, walked .2, ran .25 at 6.5, walked .2, ran .25 at 6.4, walked .2, then finished up with a run of .5 at 5.5, and another short walk after that. Over all I did just over 2.2 miles in 30 minutes, but got some good "speed work" in there. That was my 3 x 400 day on the calendar. Then I did 30 minutes on the bike for a total of about 650 calories burned and 6 APs
When I got home, I discovered that Erik and our house guest had ordered (and ate) pizza, which is fine with me. I had told Erik I needed to eat healthy so he wisely ate without me. It was perfect. And after my good work out, and knowing WI was today, I wasn't even tempted by the leftover pizza. I had a bowl of whole grain pasta with chicken flavoring (Pasta sides by Lipton) and some steamed spinach and a handful of cashews for protein. All in all an 11 pt meal - exactly what I had left for the day, not even dipping into the APs. WOO HOO! So as you can see above, the scale was very friendly this morning.
Today's plan: Big breakfast (done - chick-fil-a burrito and some chips); no lunch; chug water (and my requisite diet coke) until about 1:00 pm; then "fast" until WI at 5:00. I have an appointment at work at 2:00 out of the office so I plan to leave from there after that and hit WalMart before WI. I need a new couple of sports bras. I used to have two that fit, but have somehow lost one. Now that I'm going to the gym 5 days a week, I have the choice of doing laundry every day or wearing a sweaty smelly bra some days. I've done both this week, but want to stop. So - new bra for me, along with some other odds and ends for the house. I should be able to get the WalMart trip in, WI and still get to the gym before Erik gets home. We usually go out on Thursday -it's my night to drink and he drives, so we'll probably leave the house around 7:00 or 7:30.
As for exercise, today is supposed to be a "rest" day on the schedule, but tomorrow I'm planning on giving blood at a local blood drive that runs 9:00-2:00. They usually run an afternoon drive - like 1:00-7:00 but for some reason this time they're doing it early, which really screws me. I had planned on running 2 miles on Friday but obviously cannot do so after giving blood. So my choices are get up early and run (yeah right!) or switch my "rest" day to Friday. I choose the latter. Especially since we're going out tonight and I'll likely be drinking. So - I will be squeezing in a work out today and "resting" tomorrow.
Over all my outlook is really good right now. I keep trying to "forget" that I was at under 213 in April of this year and if I hadn't let it all slip I'd be much closer to goal right now. That's destructive thinking though. All I can work on is today and tomorrow. I can't change last month. I CAN learn from it though, and hopefully I will.
I was reading another blog today by Jessifer, that talked about date related weight loss goals and how she feels they're dangerous. I agree with her logic that people who say "I must lose 40 lbs in 3 months" are likely to fail and thus be more discouraged than encouraged. I think, however, there is a constructive way to use a date related goal as motivation, as I am. I have 107 days until Holly's wedding. I want to be "as low as possible" on that date. I'm not saying I need to be 190lbs, or even 200lbs. but I would like to do as well as I can between now and then. And every lb I lose between now and then is one less lb I have to squeeze into that dress. "IDEALLY" I'll be under 200. That is my "HOPE" and I guess you would say "GOAL" but the over-arching thought is do as much as I can between now and then. Even 10lbs lost will make me look better in that dress. 20lbs? All the better. Etc., etc. So here's to 107 days of doing the best I can.
Here's a secret though - I'm not quitting after December 1st. That's really just an interim goal. I have a long way to go - i.e. my LIFETIME - so that's just the first step.
THURSDAY
Well, it's amazing what happens when you do the right thing. Yeah - it's funny - diet and exercise work!
So today is the culmination of my first real week OP. I mean kicking butt. Granted - as you can see below, there were a few days that I went over, slipped, splurged, or otherwise didn't make the perfect choice. But for me, this week rocked. I exercised 5 times, earned 34 APs, stayed within my range or close to it most days. Oh what would happen if I really was perfect? Anyway - the loss isn't official till WI at 5:00 but I'm totally expecting the 2+lb loss I was hoping for. On my way to the bridesmaid dress!
So yesterday I bailed at work about 3:30, headed home and was really tired for some reason so I laid down and rested/read my book until about 5:45. Then I got my booty up and went to the gym. Yesterday was a "speed work" day so I warmed up doing a 1/2 mile run at 5.5 mph, then walked for .2 mile, then ran .25 miles at 6.4, walked .2, ran .25 at 6.5, walked .2, ran .25 at 6.4, walked .2, then finished up with a run of .5 at 5.5, and another short walk after that. Over all I did just over 2.2 miles in 30 minutes, but got some good "speed work" in there. That was my 3 x 400 day on the calendar. Then I did 30 minutes on the bike for a total of about 650 calories burned and 6 APs
When I got home, I discovered that Erik and our house guest had ordered (and ate) pizza, which is fine with me. I had told Erik I needed to eat healthy so he wisely ate without me. It was perfect. And after my good work out, and knowing WI was today, I wasn't even tempted by the leftover pizza. I had a bowl of whole grain pasta with chicken flavoring (Pasta sides by Lipton) and some steamed spinach and a handful of cashews for protein. All in all an 11 pt meal - exactly what I had left for the day, not even dipping into the APs. WOO HOO! So as you can see above, the scale was very friendly this morning.
Today's plan: Big breakfast (done - chick-fil-a burrito and some chips); no lunch; chug water (and my requisite diet coke) until about 1:00 pm; then "fast" until WI at 5:00. I have an appointment at work at 2:00 out of the office so I plan to leave from there after that and hit WalMart before WI. I need a new couple of sports bras. I used to have two that fit, but have somehow lost one. Now that I'm going to the gym 5 days a week, I have the choice of doing laundry every day or wearing a sweaty smelly bra some days. I've done both this week, but want to stop. So - new bra for me, along with some other odds and ends for the house. I should be able to get the WalMart trip in, WI and still get to the gym before Erik gets home. We usually go out on Thursday -it's my night to drink and he drives, so we'll probably leave the house around 7:00 or 7:30.
As for exercise, today is supposed to be a "rest" day on the schedule, but tomorrow I'm planning on giving blood at a local blood drive that runs 9:00-2:00. They usually run an afternoon drive - like 1:00-7:00 but for some reason this time they're doing it early, which really screws me. I had planned on running 2 miles on Friday but obviously cannot do so after giving blood. So my choices are get up early and run (yeah right!) or switch my "rest" day to Friday. I choose the latter. Especially since we're going out tonight and I'll likely be drinking. So - I will be squeezing in a work out today and "resting" tomorrow.
Over all my outlook is really good right now. I keep trying to "forget" that I was at under 213 in April of this year and if I hadn't let it all slip I'd be much closer to goal right now. That's destructive thinking though. All I can work on is today and tomorrow. I can't change last month. I CAN learn from it though, and hopefully I will.
I was reading another blog today by Jessifer, that talked about date related weight loss goals and how she feels they're dangerous. I agree with her logic that people who say "I must lose 40 lbs in 3 months" are likely to fail and thus be more discouraged than encouraged. I think, however, there is a constructive way to use a date related goal as motivation, as I am. I have 107 days until Holly's wedding. I want to be "as low as possible" on that date. I'm not saying I need to be 190lbs, or even 200lbs. but I would like to do as well as I can between now and then. And every lb I lose between now and then is one less lb I have to squeeze into that dress. "IDEALLY" I'll be under 200. That is my "HOPE" and I guess you would say "GOAL" but the over-arching thought is do as much as I can between now and then. Even 10lbs lost will make me look better in that dress. 20lbs? All the better. Etc., etc. So here's to 107 days of doing the best I can.
Here's a secret though - I'm not quitting after December 1st. That's really just an interim goal. I have a long way to go - i.e. my LIFETIME - so that's just the first step.
Friday, August 10, 2007
113 Days Till Bridesmaid Dress
Last WI: 222.4/At Home WI: 222.8
FRIDAY
Well, I lost 0.4 on my first week "back on the wagon". But Frankel, I've sort of only had one foot on the wagon. Last week there wasn't a single day I didn't go over my points and into flex. I did exercise a bunch but ate every one of those AP's. That's not the way to work this program. I know this. Why can't I make myself do it right? I always do really good during the day at work, and then get a craving for something on the way home and kill the whole day with taco bell or McDonald's. I know my weakness, now I need to fix it.
Yesterday I had a minor victory. I weighed in at 5:30 and, as usual after WI, splurged for dinner - taco bell again (see a pattern?). But then I did make the good choice NOT to go out drinking like I usually do on Thursday night. Granted, my DD couldn't make it, so I would not have been able to drink much anyway, but I chose to stay home regardless. The bad part is that I had "planned" to go the gym instead, but didn't. :-(
Well, I looked at a calendar today and discovered I have 113 days until my BF's wedding. 113 days till I have to squeeze into a bridesmaid dress. And hopefully look good! My DBF is a groomsman, so this will make for a great opportunity for some "prom" type pictures of us. We'll both be super dressed up.
I've decided my new mantra is "every calorie I deny between now and then is one less calorie in my body at the wedding". Ok, so it doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but in general, every smart choice I make is one step closer to being where I want to be.
I talked to the bride today and she said that one of the other bridesmaids is on a diet as well - she's smaller than me but not by much - and had already lost 5 lbs. Well well well. Do we have a friendly competition going on here? I think SO. I can totally do better than that. :-) So, I've only lost 0.4 so far, but this can be a MONSTER week. I feel it.
Erik has Daniel this weekend so I'm thinking about just staying home tonight and tomorrow night. I have a date with the Bride tomorrow to go to the mall of Georgia to see Taylor Swift sing/perform. I also have a poker tournament on Sunday evening that Erik and I are going to. Other than that - no plans for the weekend. So here they are.....RUN RUN RUN. That's right. Tonight I'm going to try to do 3 miles on the TM. Tomorrow 2 or more, and Sunday 2 or more. That will be a minimum of 7 miles for the weekend and almost 1300 calories burned. Definitely a start. I'm going to try to eat only my target points, plus any AP's for the weekend. I need a good week to "jump start" this little competition. I have 16 more WI's before the wedding. I'd LOVE to average 2lbs per, but would honestly be happy if I lost 20 lbs between now and then.
I CAN DO IT!
So - baby steps. Today - I'm at work now. The Bride is calling me shortly to meet her and the groom for lunch and to go by the bridal shop. I WILL order a salad. After work I'm going to the gym. Then dinner will be a healthy choice at home.
That's the plan. NOW for the EXECUTION.
FRIDAY
Well, I lost 0.4 on my first week "back on the wagon". But Frankel, I've sort of only had one foot on the wagon. Last week there wasn't a single day I didn't go over my points and into flex. I did exercise a bunch but ate every one of those AP's. That's not the way to work this program. I know this. Why can't I make myself do it right? I always do really good during the day at work, and then get a craving for something on the way home and kill the whole day with taco bell or McDonald's. I know my weakness, now I need to fix it.
Yesterday I had a minor victory. I weighed in at 5:30 and, as usual after WI, splurged for dinner - taco bell again (see a pattern?). But then I did make the good choice NOT to go out drinking like I usually do on Thursday night. Granted, my DD couldn't make it, so I would not have been able to drink much anyway, but I chose to stay home regardless. The bad part is that I had "planned" to go the gym instead, but didn't. :-(
Well, I looked at a calendar today and discovered I have 113 days until my BF's wedding. 113 days till I have to squeeze into a bridesmaid dress. And hopefully look good! My DBF is a groomsman, so this will make for a great opportunity for some "prom" type pictures of us. We'll both be super dressed up.
I've decided my new mantra is "every calorie I deny between now and then is one less calorie in my body at the wedding". Ok, so it doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but in general, every smart choice I make is one step closer to being where I want to be.
I talked to the bride today and she said that one of the other bridesmaids is on a diet as well - she's smaller than me but not by much - and had already lost 5 lbs. Well well well. Do we have a friendly competition going on here? I think SO. I can totally do better than that. :-) So, I've only lost 0.4 so far, but this can be a MONSTER week. I feel it.
Erik has Daniel this weekend so I'm thinking about just staying home tonight and tomorrow night. I have a date with the Bride tomorrow to go to the mall of Georgia to see Taylor Swift sing/perform. I also have a poker tournament on Sunday evening that Erik and I are going to. Other than that - no plans for the weekend. So here they are.....RUN RUN RUN. That's right. Tonight I'm going to try to do 3 miles on the TM. Tomorrow 2 or more, and Sunday 2 or more. That will be a minimum of 7 miles for the weekend and almost 1300 calories burned. Definitely a start. I'm going to try to eat only my target points, plus any AP's for the weekend. I need a good week to "jump start" this little competition. I have 16 more WI's before the wedding. I'd LOVE to average 2lbs per, but would honestly be happy if I lost 20 lbs between now and then.
I CAN DO IT!
So - baby steps. Today - I'm at work now. The Bride is calling me shortly to meet her and the groom for lunch and to go by the bridal shop. I WILL order a salad. After work I'm going to the gym. Then dinner will be a healthy choice at home.
That's the plan. NOW for the EXECUTION.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Ok, so Back on the Wagon
Last WI: (3 weeks ago)/At Home WI: 218.6 (actually this is good..)
WEDNESDAY
Well, I fell off the wagon. For a WHILE. I climbed back on, and then fell off again. For another WHILE. But I'm back up on it and determined once again. I haven't weighed in for a couple weeks, so I won't post a WI number until after tomorrow when I officially face the music.
I won't go into the last 2 months, but the last couple weeks I've been really bad. I went to Michigan with Erik for his family vacation to stay with his partents for a week last week. It was lots of fun and very relaxing. We took his son up there and had a really good time. But I was HORRIBLE food-wise. I didn't eat healthy at all, and his dad - though a wonderful cook - is also a food pusher. I'm so weak that I accepted often. Not good. I also brought my running shoes and didn't run even once. :-(
We got back on Friday last week and the same day we flew in, my best friend from college flew in as well. Gloria is her name and she currently lives in Hawaii and is pursuing her doctorate in Psychology. She gets over to see me about once a year, so she's in town now for a week or so. So - my grand plans to get back OP after we got back got pushed back a few days as I had a very fun weekend with G. Ate too much though and definitely drank too much. I dropped her at her grandparents on Monday morning (they live close) and will pick her up again tomorrow for one more weekend of fun. So Monday I should have been good. But I wasn't. So yesterday was my recommitment day.
The only good I did this weekend was that I did make it to the gym on Sunday and ran almost 3 miles on the treadmill - ran 30 minutes and didn't quite make 3 miles. I went back yesterday evening and tried again and was only 15 sec's shy of doing the 3 miles in 30 mins. I plan to try again tonight.
My left knee was hurting a bit on both runs. Both times it began hurting about mile 1.5 or 2.0. I hope it's just "under use" and not some real injury. I'm going to try not to push it, but I do want to try to run 3-4 days a week from now on. Today I plan to run and probably won't be able to again until Saturday.
Well, after I got back from Michigan I got on the scale and Sat, Sun, and Mon, I saw 220's. Not good at all. So after my "perfect" day yesterday, today the scale read 218.6. So that's why I'm happy with that number. Even though it's a full 5 lbs higher than 2 months ago. I'm ok. I just have to keep plugin along.
I've started a new challenge on the WW board. A group of us is trying to lose 20 lbs in 20 weeks. They started July 1. I really started yesterday but am going to try to catch up. The challenge runs us almost up to Thanksgiving, the day I'm going to *try* to run the Atlanta half marathon, so I really think this will be good. I think WI tomorrow will be something close to 220, hopefully 218, but if I can lose 20 lbs by thanksgiving, I'll be on ONEDERLAND which I haven't seen in a very long time.
That's the plan!
Today I'm leaving work around 4:30. I'm going to go home, change, hit the gym, and then hang out with Erik tonight. I've got 10 more points left for the day, not counting any I earn at the gym, so I should be good for a second "perfect" day. :0)
WEDNESDAY
Well, I fell off the wagon. For a WHILE. I climbed back on, and then fell off again. For another WHILE. But I'm back up on it and determined once again. I haven't weighed in for a couple weeks, so I won't post a WI number until after tomorrow when I officially face the music.
I won't go into the last 2 months, but the last couple weeks I've been really bad. I went to Michigan with Erik for his family vacation to stay with his partents for a week last week. It was lots of fun and very relaxing. We took his son up there and had a really good time. But I was HORRIBLE food-wise. I didn't eat healthy at all, and his dad - though a wonderful cook - is also a food pusher. I'm so weak that I accepted often. Not good. I also brought my running shoes and didn't run even once. :-(
We got back on Friday last week and the same day we flew in, my best friend from college flew in as well. Gloria is her name and she currently lives in Hawaii and is pursuing her doctorate in Psychology. She gets over to see me about once a year, so she's in town now for a week or so. So - my grand plans to get back OP after we got back got pushed back a few days as I had a very fun weekend with G. Ate too much though and definitely drank too much. I dropped her at her grandparents on Monday morning (they live close) and will pick her up again tomorrow for one more weekend of fun. So Monday I should have been good. But I wasn't. So yesterday was my recommitment day.
The only good I did this weekend was that I did make it to the gym on Sunday and ran almost 3 miles on the treadmill - ran 30 minutes and didn't quite make 3 miles. I went back yesterday evening and tried again and was only 15 sec's shy of doing the 3 miles in 30 mins. I plan to try again tonight.
My left knee was hurting a bit on both runs. Both times it began hurting about mile 1.5 or 2.0. I hope it's just "under use" and not some real injury. I'm going to try not to push it, but I do want to try to run 3-4 days a week from now on. Today I plan to run and probably won't be able to again until Saturday.
Well, after I got back from Michigan I got on the scale and Sat, Sun, and Mon, I saw 220's. Not good at all. So after my "perfect" day yesterday, today the scale read 218.6. So that's why I'm happy with that number. Even though it's a full 5 lbs higher than 2 months ago. I'm ok. I just have to keep plugin along.
I've started a new challenge on the WW board. A group of us is trying to lose 20 lbs in 20 weeks. They started July 1. I really started yesterday but am going to try to catch up. The challenge runs us almost up to Thanksgiving, the day I'm going to *try* to run the Atlanta half marathon, so I really think this will be good. I think WI tomorrow will be something close to 220, hopefully 218, but if I can lose 20 lbs by thanksgiving, I'll be on ONEDERLAND which I haven't seen in a very long time.
That's the plan!
Today I'm leaving work around 4:30. I'm going to go home, change, hit the gym, and then hang out with Erik tonight. I've got 10 more points left for the day, not counting any I earn at the gym, so I should be good for a second "perfect" day. :0)
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
So, sick losses don't always stick
Last WI: 212.6/At Home WI: 213.4 (darn!)
WEDNESDAY
Well I was sad to not see 212 or even 211 on the scale this morning. I had hoped that "sick loss" was true. But, no surprise, it wasn't. I'm still down from last week, though so I may see the good loss I'm hoping for. And some of it might have been water retention, I did have a salty night last night. I ended up going out to Chaps for poker like I planned. I went over the 10 pts I had left, but made a semi healthy choice of the prime rib sandwich with a side salad. I forgot to order the salad w/o cheese, so it had a few more points than I'd hoped. Total for the night 17 pts. I went out early at poker so I went home and hung out with Erik. We shared a bag of light popcorn, so total overage yesterday was 9 pts. Not bad considering I was 16 pts under for Monday, but still, should have stuck to it a little closer.
So, today is the "day before WI". Dum de dum dum.. I hear ominous music playing in the background. LOL. So I need to stay totally OP today. Ideally, under my points AND earn APs. So far so good. I had a balance bar for breakfast (4pts). I'm a tinge hungry now, so I'm thinking a snack of either popcorn or tuna. Lunch will either be subway (if I want to get out of the office) or soup. Hopefully I can get my booty to the gym after work - I have earne a big fat 0 in APs this week. Then a light dinner. Can I do 20pts? Can I? Let's see! :-)
I do get to report that even though I was at a bar, and playing poker, I didn't drink last night, as planned. So today is day 4 of being sober. lol. I'm not going sober, completely, that was just a joke. I usually drink 2-3 times/week. I'm going to try to reduce that to about 1 x/week, and not over do it. That's the plan. Let's see if we can stick to it!
WEDNESDAY
Well I was sad to not see 212 or even 211 on the scale this morning. I had hoped that "sick loss" was true. But, no surprise, it wasn't. I'm still down from last week, though so I may see the good loss I'm hoping for. And some of it might have been water retention, I did have a salty night last night. I ended up going out to Chaps for poker like I planned. I went over the 10 pts I had left, but made a semi healthy choice of the prime rib sandwich with a side salad. I forgot to order the salad w/o cheese, so it had a few more points than I'd hoped. Total for the night 17 pts. I went out early at poker so I went home and hung out with Erik. We shared a bag of light popcorn, so total overage yesterday was 9 pts. Not bad considering I was 16 pts under for Monday, but still, should have stuck to it a little closer.
So, today is the "day before WI". Dum de dum dum.. I hear ominous music playing in the background. LOL. So I need to stay totally OP today. Ideally, under my points AND earn APs. So far so good. I had a balance bar for breakfast (4pts). I'm a tinge hungry now, so I'm thinking a snack of either popcorn or tuna. Lunch will either be subway (if I want to get out of the office) or soup. Hopefully I can get my booty to the gym after work - I have earne a big fat 0 in APs this week. Then a light dinner. Can I do 20pts? Can I? Let's see! :-)
I do get to report that even though I was at a bar, and playing poker, I didn't drink last night, as planned. So today is day 4 of being sober. lol. I'm not going sober, completely, that was just a joke. I usually drink 2-3 times/week. I'm going to try to reduce that to about 1 x/week, and not over do it. That's the plan. Let's see if we can stick to it!
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Being Sick Helps the WI
Last WI: 212.6/At Home WI: 212.0
TUESDAY
Well, this weekend I was bad. Friday night we went to a friend's party. I was driving, so I wasn't drinking much. Over all that day I was bad for food though. I had fried food for lunch, and snacky type food for dinner. Not good.
Saturday I was planning to run, eat good and get back OP. But then we went to the Tavern for poker at 3:00. I wasn't going to drink but everyone else was and it looked good. Erik had driven, so I ended up drinking. After poker at the bar we went to Holly's for more poker and craps. Not good. I ended up getting really drunk. I had to journal some major estimates on that one because I really don't know how much I had. Bad.
Felt like crap on Sunday. It thought it was just hang over all day. We had Moe's for lunch and Longhorn for dinner. I made good choices both time, but I probably went over again.
All that made for a WI of 216+ yesterday morning. Basically I was worried again that this week would be a "gain" week. Then I went to work and came home at lunch feeling very naseous. Turns out my crappy feelings on Sunday may not have just been hang over. I think I got some wierd stomach bug because I ate a total of 12 points yesterday: Balance bar for breakfast (4pts); left over hamburger casserole for lat lunch (6pts) and a few saltines for "dinner" (2 pts). I really felt so crappy.
So this morning's WI is really a result of not eating yesterday, but now that I'm feeling better, I'm hoping it'll counteract my weekend indulgences. Today I've not eaten much again: left over hamburger casserole (6pts), green beans (0pts), broccoli & light dip (3pts), popcorn (6pts), pb2 & chocolate (3pts) for a total of 18 pts. That leaves me 10 pts for tonight. I think I'm going to meet some friends and play poker tonight at Chaps, so I'll get a salad or something there to stay at or under 10pts. I'm definitely not drinking, so that should be plenty. If I WI at or below 212 tomorrow morning, I'll have hope for a good loss this week.
Here's hoping!
I've been doing some soul searching about drinking lately. Not only is it really bad for my diet, I seem to be going overboard lately. Both Thursday night and Saturday night I got drunk. Not just tipsy or intoxicated, but drunk. I don't remember the end of the night on Saturday night so that's really bad. I know I'm "safe" when I party with Erik and the friends I was with, but as far as my body goes, it is so bad for me. I feel like crap for a whole day afterwards and don't get any exercise in. Besides the actualy physiological effects that such binge drinking has on the body. Bad I'm sure.
But, I've been a pretty heavy social drinker since college. I know I can't "give it up" but I really want to try to reduce the extremes I take it to. I love beer and love hanging out and having a beer or two, but there is absolutely no reason to get totally shit-faced. I need to work on finding that point where enough is enough. As I said, I'm not drinking today and won't be drinking tomorrow either (home with Erik & Daniel). Thursday we have a non-alcohol banquet for work, so at the earliest it'll be Friday before I drink at all again. I may be strong and not drink this weekend, though because Erik has Daniel and I should just stay home with the boys.
Anyway, just some thoughts on alcohol and my occasional abuse of it. Let's see if I can get it under control.
TUESDAY
Well, this weekend I was bad. Friday night we went to a friend's party. I was driving, so I wasn't drinking much. Over all that day I was bad for food though. I had fried food for lunch, and snacky type food for dinner. Not good.
Saturday I was planning to run, eat good and get back OP. But then we went to the Tavern for poker at 3:00. I wasn't going to drink but everyone else was and it looked good. Erik had driven, so I ended up drinking. After poker at the bar we went to Holly's for more poker and craps. Not good. I ended up getting really drunk. I had to journal some major estimates on that one because I really don't know how much I had. Bad.
Felt like crap on Sunday. It thought it was just hang over all day. We had Moe's for lunch and Longhorn for dinner. I made good choices both time, but I probably went over again.
All that made for a WI of 216+ yesterday morning. Basically I was worried again that this week would be a "gain" week. Then I went to work and came home at lunch feeling very naseous. Turns out my crappy feelings on Sunday may not have just been hang over. I think I got some wierd stomach bug because I ate a total of 12 points yesterday: Balance bar for breakfast (4pts); left over hamburger casserole for lat lunch (6pts) and a few saltines for "dinner" (2 pts). I really felt so crappy.
So this morning's WI is really a result of not eating yesterday, but now that I'm feeling better, I'm hoping it'll counteract my weekend indulgences. Today I've not eaten much again: left over hamburger casserole (6pts), green beans (0pts), broccoli & light dip (3pts), popcorn (6pts), pb2 & chocolate (3pts) for a total of 18 pts. That leaves me 10 pts for tonight. I think I'm going to meet some friends and play poker tonight at Chaps, so I'll get a salad or something there to stay at or under 10pts. I'm definitely not drinking, so that should be plenty. If I WI at or below 212 tomorrow morning, I'll have hope for a good loss this week.
Here's hoping!
I've been doing some soul searching about drinking lately. Not only is it really bad for my diet, I seem to be going overboard lately. Both Thursday night and Saturday night I got drunk. Not just tipsy or intoxicated, but drunk. I don't remember the end of the night on Saturday night so that's really bad. I know I'm "safe" when I party with Erik and the friends I was with, but as far as my body goes, it is so bad for me. I feel like crap for a whole day afterwards and don't get any exercise in. Besides the actualy physiological effects that such binge drinking has on the body. Bad I'm sure.
But, I've been a pretty heavy social drinker since college. I know I can't "give it up" but I really want to try to reduce the extremes I take it to. I love beer and love hanging out and having a beer or two, but there is absolutely no reason to get totally shit-faced. I need to work on finding that point where enough is enough. As I said, I'm not drinking today and won't be drinking tomorrow either (home with Erik & Daniel). Thursday we have a non-alcohol banquet for work, so at the earliest it'll be Friday before I drink at all again. I may be strong and not drink this weekend, though because Erik has Daniel and I should just stay home with the boys.
Anyway, just some thoughts on alcohol and my occasional abuse of it. Let's see if I can get it under control.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Good Loss Finally!
Last WI: 212.8/At Home WI: 215.4
FRIDAY
Well, I weighed in yesterday and lost 1.4! Sad, but that is a HUGE loss for me of late. The best I've had in 6 weeks. AND this marks 6 straight weeks of losing! I'm so happy. I'm 1 lb away from the lowest I've been since re-joining WW last year. In January, I got as low as 211.8 after kicking butt during the holidays. I'm hoping for a 1+ lb loss next week so I can get working on some new lows...
Well, this morning's weight is high, as expected, after my thursday night splurge. Erik and I went to Yknots again for drinks/poker. We both busted out pretty early and were home before 10:00. Not before I had a good number of beers and some chicken nachos, though. :-)
I did write it down, however, and regardless how ugly, it's in the books. Which brings me to my next success - I am now on day 43 of my target 84 days journaling. I totally attribute my last 6 weeks of losses to tracking. Success begets success, as they say.
Well, today I'm going to meet some friends at Wings n Things for poker and lunch around 2:00. I haven't eaten anything yet today so I need to find something to tide me over until then. I don't think I'm going to get any exercise in today, which is sad because I should, but big plans for the weekend includ running both saturday and sunday.
Here's to a good OP weekend!
FRIDAY
Well, I weighed in yesterday and lost 1.4! Sad, but that is a HUGE loss for me of late. The best I've had in 6 weeks. AND this marks 6 straight weeks of losing! I'm so happy. I'm 1 lb away from the lowest I've been since re-joining WW last year. In January, I got as low as 211.8 after kicking butt during the holidays. I'm hoping for a 1+ lb loss next week so I can get working on some new lows...
Well, this morning's weight is high, as expected, after my thursday night splurge. Erik and I went to Yknots again for drinks/poker. We both busted out pretty early and were home before 10:00. Not before I had a good number of beers and some chicken nachos, though. :-)
I did write it down, however, and regardless how ugly, it's in the books. Which brings me to my next success - I am now on day 43 of my target 84 days journaling. I totally attribute my last 6 weeks of losses to tracking. Success begets success, as they say.
Well, today I'm going to meet some friends at Wings n Things for poker and lunch around 2:00. I haven't eaten anything yet today so I need to find something to tide me over until then. I don't think I'm going to get any exercise in today, which is sad because I should, but big plans for the weekend includ running both saturday and sunday.
Here's to a good OP weekend!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Re-evaluated
Ok, so I've been really mulling over my frustration about today's weight and I've come to the conclusion that maybe I deserve this. Ok, not maybe - I DO deserve this. In reality I dodged a bullet last week. I went back into e-tools and entered all my food for the last 3 weeks. I have been "tracking" for 5 weeks, but in my personal journal and not putting it all in e-tools. That exercise has helped me not get off track too far when I do, but I haven't really been calculating my weekly points allowance. If I'm OP one day, I generally try to stay at my target points, knowing that my extra flex points will be used on the days I stray. On those days I journal, but don't really figure out how many flex points I have left, or how far in the hole I've gone.
Well, e-tools did it for me. The cool thing about e-tools is that you can look at the "weekly" view. I put in the last few weeks, and checked out my weeks. Well, it's true that this week I did pretty well. My friday binge used up my flex points and then some, but I ended the week only negative 28 points in the hole. BUT, I had 17 AP that were never swapped or eaten. So in reality I only went over 11 points for the week. Not bad really - that's 1-2 pts per day. This is why I hoped for a loss this week.
But - if we back UP a week, we see that the week prior, I went over my points by 86. Yes 86!! and I only earned 10 AP for the week, and they were used the day I got them. So, in reality the fact that I lost 0.6 last week was crazy. I mean I totally deserved a 1-2 lb gain. It was some fluke of the scale last Thursday that put me at the 214.6 number. So - let's say I had gained 1.4 last week instead of lost .6 (a realistic assumption). I would have been at 216.6. So - if today I'm under that (I hope I am!) then I should consider that a "loss" from this week, right?
I know - I'm playing with the numbers, but I've got to rationalize it somehow. I can't believe that in a week I went over by 86 points I deserve to lose .6 but in a week I only went over 11, I deserve to gain. That just doesn't fly with my logical brain. So I've got to believe last week's WI was a fluke - that I just got "lucky" and that this week I'm really doing better. AND that NEXT week, if I can stay close to "even" and not go over, I will see a good loss. Right?
Another thing I've been pondering lately is metabolism. It's frustrating because last time I did WW seriously, in 2001, the weight literally fell off. I mean I think I had 2-3 gains over the 4 months it took me to get to goal. I had lots of weeks where I lost 2 lbs and 3 lbs. Losses I would DIE for now. I was 23 then. I'm 29 now. Does metabolism change that much? Is it just that I've lost it once and gained it back that my body doesn't want to do it again? Is it metabolism or am I not doing the program as religiously? I feel like it can't be the last possibility because I specifically remember the first go-around that even if I went over up to 30 pts from my "banked" points (used Winning Points back then) I still had around a 2 lb loss. I really think my metabolism has changed.
So - I'm going to TRY to get back into lifting weights. I did that back then, and I know that is the only proven way to increase metabolism (without chemical help). For some reason, though, this time around I just hate lifting. I've gotten back into exercising and am averaging at least 2, usually 3 times per week running or doing other cardio, but weight training just has no appeal to me. I know the scientific reasons it's good though, so maybe this week's mini-goal will be to get in 3 weight training sessions. It looks like the first will be Sunday (maybe Saturday, but unlikely). That will leave me needing 2 more Mon-Wed. I'm going to see if I can do it. Along with my running/cardio of course.
Ok - now that I'm a little more centered about today's weight, hopefully the WI won't screw me up too much. I know we're going out tonight. I know I'm going to drink. But I'm going to try to reign it in. I know tomorrow night is going to be indulgent to, so hopefully I won't go tooo overboard tonight..
Here's hoping.
Well, e-tools did it for me. The cool thing about e-tools is that you can look at the "weekly" view. I put in the last few weeks, and checked out my weeks. Well, it's true that this week I did pretty well. My friday binge used up my flex points and then some, but I ended the week only negative 28 points in the hole. BUT, I had 17 AP that were never swapped or eaten. So in reality I only went over 11 points for the week. Not bad really - that's 1-2 pts per day. This is why I hoped for a loss this week.
But - if we back UP a week, we see that the week prior, I went over my points by 86. Yes 86!! and I only earned 10 AP for the week, and they were used the day I got them. So, in reality the fact that I lost 0.6 last week was crazy. I mean I totally deserved a 1-2 lb gain. It was some fluke of the scale last Thursday that put me at the 214.6 number. So - let's say I had gained 1.4 last week instead of lost .6 (a realistic assumption). I would have been at 216.6. So - if today I'm under that (I hope I am!) then I should consider that a "loss" from this week, right?
I know - I'm playing with the numbers, but I've got to rationalize it somehow. I can't believe that in a week I went over by 86 points I deserve to lose .6 but in a week I only went over 11, I deserve to gain. That just doesn't fly with my logical brain. So I've got to believe last week's WI was a fluke - that I just got "lucky" and that this week I'm really doing better. AND that NEXT week, if I can stay close to "even" and not go over, I will see a good loss. Right?
Another thing I've been pondering lately is metabolism. It's frustrating because last time I did WW seriously, in 2001, the weight literally fell off. I mean I think I had 2-3 gains over the 4 months it took me to get to goal. I had lots of weeks where I lost 2 lbs and 3 lbs. Losses I would DIE for now. I was 23 then. I'm 29 now. Does metabolism change that much? Is it just that I've lost it once and gained it back that my body doesn't want to do it again? Is it metabolism or am I not doing the program as religiously? I feel like it can't be the last possibility because I specifically remember the first go-around that even if I went over up to 30 pts from my "banked" points (used Winning Points back then) I still had around a 2 lb loss. I really think my metabolism has changed.
So - I'm going to TRY to get back into lifting weights. I did that back then, and I know that is the only proven way to increase metabolism (without chemical help). For some reason, though, this time around I just hate lifting. I've gotten back into exercising and am averaging at least 2, usually 3 times per week running or doing other cardio, but weight training just has no appeal to me. I know the scientific reasons it's good though, so maybe this week's mini-goal will be to get in 3 weight training sessions. It looks like the first will be Sunday (maybe Saturday, but unlikely). That will leave me needing 2 more Mon-Wed. I'm going to see if I can do it. Along with my running/cardio of course.
Ok - now that I'm a little more centered about today's weight, hopefully the WI won't screw me up too much. I know we're going out tonight. I know I'm going to drink. But I'm going to try to reign it in. I know tomorrow night is going to be indulgent to, so hopefully I won't go tooo overboard tonight..
Here's hoping.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Recommitting...again.
MONDAY
At home morning weight: 215.6/Last WI: 220.4
Ok - so I'm a yo yo weight watcher. I admit it. I go through cycles and I'm really just trying to find a way to break it. As I said in my intro, I made lifetime in 2001. So I've DONE this. I've made it work before. Why can't I get back to that place. I've done all the things they've said - talk to your leader, try different foods, try different exercises. I just can't stay focused.
As par for the course - I broke from WW again. This time, however, I only took a month off, rather than 3-12 like before. I think part of that is just that I'm paying the "monthly" way so I get the little membership card in the mail and it reminds me I'm paying for something I'm not using. I'm cheap, so that doesn't fly.
Anyway. I'd been doing "ok" for a couple months - at least maintaining in my fluctuations, but I went to the casino again with my boyfriend and thought I'd gained when I came back, so didn't WI, course that just means you did gain and will gain again. I missed 4 weeks before last Thursday when I finally made myself face the music. Well the music sucked - I'd gained 6 lbs. I'm now down to a total loss of only 5.2 lbs since I started WW in July of last year. 8 months and 5lbs. Booo.
But I have to stay positive. I do know that had I not gone back it would only have gotten worse. So - here's my new theory. I'm going to *try* to blog more frequently. Get my thoughts out on paper and focus on what I need to do to get through this.
Also - I just booked my next incentive - a CRUISE. Now, I haven't been on a cruise since fall of 2004 with Chris (ex-fiance). I've been dying to go for a while and talked (or bullied, rather) Erik into going with me. So the cruise is December 1. That gives me 8 and 1/2 months. That's a long time. Ideally, I'd like to weigh 160 on the cruise. That's my ultimate goal (b/c that's what Erik weighs and I HATE weighing more than him). So - let's see 220-160 = 60 lbs. In 38 weeks. I need to average ~ 1.5lbs/week. Now - I said ideally. Realistically I'd be happy at 170 (167 being my lowest all time ever adult weight) for the cruise - so 220-170 = 50 lbs in 38 weeks or ~ 1.3lbs per week. Totally do able....IF I stay OP. That's the tough part. I can usually do 1 month or sometimes 2, but 8 consecutive OP weeks. Tough. I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to be able to wear a bikini then. I mean where else will you be able to wear a bikini in December?
Now - I also have another motivator. My birthday. Not just any birthday. My THIRTYIETH birthday. Boooooo. I'm so not looking forward to being 30! But - if all goes according to plan, I will be skinnier on my birthday.
Vast goals - huge plans - will I do it? I don't know. I know I'm supposed to say OF COURSE I WILL but I just can't muster it. All I can say is that I know I can do it, it's just whether I will. I know I want it, but do I want it bad enough. Time will tell.
On that note - plans for the day - work until about 4:00 or 4:30 - go to the gym after work, then come home. My friend Holly really wants me to go out with her tonight to play poker, but it's Erik's parent's last night in town and I should probably stay in and visit with them. I'll play it by ear. But at I will stay OP. I've used 20 points so far today for breakfast and lunch and snacks. (it's about 2:00 pm now) That leaves me 8 points for dinner + whatever I earn at the gym. I WILL stay w/in my points today.
Weigh in is Thursday. I weighed in last week at 220.4. In order to stay on track for the "cruise plan" I will have to lose at least 1.5 so I need to WI at 218.8 or lower. I believe that is entirely possible this week since it's my first week back committed. In fact I'm going to shoot for a 2+ lb loss this week, to help average out the tougher weeks down the road. *here's hoping*
Hope to blog again soon!
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