Frustrated

Last WI: 214.6/At Home: 214.6
(Grrrr.)

WEDNESDAY

Ok, today I'm just frustrated. I've been good this week, for the most part, and am just not seeing on the scale. I guess that Monday's morning weight WAS a lie. I'm so sad. I did splurge a "little" on Monday night. I was very good at work, and through the day on Monday. I came home with 13 points left. Now, I knew we were going to Holly's house for our weekly Monday night poker league game. I knew there'd be bad for me snacks there, and I knew I'd want to drink some beer. So I tried to plan accordingly. I had a dinner of left over pork roast and rice (4 pts), some protein in the form of nuts and cheese (3 pts) and a huge bowl of green beans, in an attempt to fill me. up. That left me with 6 pts for the night.

I got to Holly's about 6:30 and the tournament started just after 7. I ended up having 4 beers, a bag of pocorn, and a bunch of full fat chips. I counted the evening's "munching" at 17pts. So I went over by 11 pts for the day, but that wasn't TOO Bad.

Tuesday I was PERFECT. I mean PERFECT. The morning weight that day was 216. Not too happy about that, but I figured it was water retention from the beer and salty foods. Yesterday I at right at my points and ended up running my six mile route after work. My run was wonderful. I shaved 8 minutes off my time from Sunday. I was very pleased. AND I drank tons of water.

So, this morning's weight was 1.4 lbs lower than yesterday, but still up from Monday's mysterious beautiful number. What gives? If WI was today I'd see a gain. I REALLY don't want to see a gain. I've worked out 3 times this week so far - ran a total of 15 miles - a good week for me!

So, I'm trying to stay positive. I still have one day left before WI. Today. I've been right on track so far. I've eaten 15 pts between breakfast, lunch, and a sanck. I have 13 left for tonight. I'm going to the gym after work. I'm a little sore from the run yesterday, but I'm going to try to get in some cardio anyway. Maybe the elliptical. I'd like to get 5 AP's today, but we'll see. I'm just really frustrated.

On other matters, I've spent the day evaluating my finances. I've been really bad over the last year letting credit card debt creep up. I was ALWAYS one of those people who paid off thier credit cards in full every month. I didn't pay a cent in interest on credit cards all through college and law school. It wasn't until I took this job, and the pay cut that went with it, that I started using credit cards as credit. Now, I've let it spiral out of control. A combination of lesser pay and a recent binge of gambling in the last year has really increased my debt. I'm not happy. I've always been very fiscally responsible and looking at my statements now makes me sick. So - I've vowed to get it under control. Erik and I are talking about getting married. He has some financial issues he's trying to resolve before he asks me, and I would LOVE to go into the marriage credit card debt free. Now I'll still have my car loan and my student loan, but both of those are very managable and reasonable. Credit card debt is not.

I looked at my income and mandatory expenses for the month, and it looks like if I really buckle down and eliminate extraneous spending, I could have it all paid off in about 10 months. Not bad. I'm not too out of control. But I need to do this. I need to feel confident again in my financial status.

Back on WW issues, I've still be journaling. I gave myself the manicure/pedicure reward for journaling all of last month (at least from the point where I recommitted). I'm going to do the same this month if I get through it. Today is officially my 34 day of journalling straight. I know it's helped me a lot, but I really want to see a loss this week. I've lost the last 4 weeks in a row, and would love to see that by journaling every week, I CAN lose every week!

So - time to chug some more water, and try to make this another "perfect" OP day. And hope for a good number tomorrow.