Last WI: 221.8/At Home WI: 221.8 (fine)
THURSDAY
Well, I had a good week. 6 straight days OP. And I still have 19 flex points for the week! Unheard of! So, I'm going to splurge a little tonight. Only 19 max points worth, though. It's the first time going into my typical WI night splurge that I have legitimate points to use to do it. Not bad.
So I'm going back to meetings today, but have decided to use my morning nekkid weight as my progress on here. I hate stressing about the clothes to wear, and stripping down to nothing, just so I can see the lowest possible number. Now that I'm going to meetings at work, I need to be able to just go, and not stress. So - to alleviate that, I'm recording here, and on the WW site, my morning WI. So, that just means I'll have two tracking systems going simultaneously. Not a problem. I'll still lose the same in the long run but without the stress.
So today I saw 221.8. Not bad. Up about 1.4 from the lowest I saw this week, but I'm ok with that. Still significantly lower than last week. And I can say I had a fully OP week. Now, next week I'm going to add in exercise. Goal of 3 days, minimum of 2 (to start with). I should start tonight. Today's kind of a wierd schedule. I should be billing a full 10 hours today since it's the last day of the month, but I made a commitment to pick up some political signs for a group I volunteer with this afternoon, and they sign company is near where I currently live (30 miles from work) and only open till 5:00. So I'm leaving at 3:30 to make sure I make it in time. I had planned to go home and work some more, but now I'm thinking 30 minutes on the treadmill couldn't hurt. I can still get a few more billables in before Erik gets home and we go out. I have decided I'm going out tonight, despite the fact that LOST premiers and I'm SUPER excited about that. I hate commercials, so I'll record it and watch it when we get home.
Other than that, all is well. We made an offer on the "big" house we've been looking at yesterday with the new agent. We totally lowballed it. I mean like 50K under asking so I know we won't get a flat yes. I'm just curious what they counter with.
Ok, nothing too exciting. Loving being engaged, loving my man. And loving being OP!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Still Pluggin Along
Last WI: 224.8/At home WI: 221.6
WEDNESDAY
So, I'm up a bit on the scale today, but I'm not at all surprised. I had been dropping very rapidly and went from 222.4 on Monday to 220.4 on Tuesday. So 221.6 isn't so bad. Tomorrow is official WI, and I'm actually going to a meeting. I can't decide what to do as my "official" WI, my morning hop, or the meeting WI. Normally I would automatically use the meeting WI, but that was what I did back when I didn't do WW at work, and could wear the same, relatively skimpy, outfit to WI every week. Now, having to wear work clothes (particularly in the winter), I'm not sure it's a fair representation. Now I know, over the long run it'll all even out if I'm losing. But I like to see a fair number every time. So, I'm thinking I'll weigh in the morning, nekkid as usual, and count that online, and in my personal tracker, then I'll wear a relatively light outfit to work, and WI there and go to the meeting with my friend. I plan to lose a good bit (I always PLAN to) so I want to be at meetings and get awards, etc., but for now, I'm going to stick with my "home" weight as official WI online, and just know that my meeting WI will always be at least a couple pounds higher.
I still haven't gotten myself to work out this week. I'm not sure why. No good excuse. I think I forgive myself because I've been so good about tracking and staying in my points. I guess, since tomorrow is my reset day, I'll just let this first week go as a "back on track food-wise" week, and commit to at least 3 days of cardio for my next week. I think that's fair. No excuse this weekend why I can't get in at least one, likely two, good workouts on the treadmill. I can DO it!
Other than that, life is just plain busy. With wedding planning, lots of work, and house hunting, my head is spinning. Yesterday was crazy - I fired my real estate agent I'd been working with for 2 months. It was a long time coming, but she was a friend so I put it off. When she couldn't figure out why the contract the other agent sent her wouldn't print right and put off our offer for a day to work on it, (it was on "legal" paper, and specifically said so in the email) I decided enough was enough. She's a great bartender (how we met her before she went to real estate school), not so much a realtor.
So, I have a new realtor that is supposed to be faxing an offer today on a house we found this weekend and absolutely loved. I know we won't get it at the offer we're making (VERY low) but hopefully they'll counter and we'll get an idea if we're even close. I love this house - it's way more than we need, but it's gorgeous.
Let's see, still plan to see the proposed wedding site this weekend. Other than that, things are moving along. I mapped out my weight loss goals between now and the wedding. I have to average 3 1/2 lbs every 2 weeks to be where I want to be. I know I can do it. That's about 7 lbs a month. With total commitment, that's completely do able. I'm committed! Just have to start that exercising!
Off and working!
WEDNESDAY
So, I'm up a bit on the scale today, but I'm not at all surprised. I had been dropping very rapidly and went from 222.4 on Monday to 220.4 on Tuesday. So 221.6 isn't so bad. Tomorrow is official WI, and I'm actually going to a meeting. I can't decide what to do as my "official" WI, my morning hop, or the meeting WI. Normally I would automatically use the meeting WI, but that was what I did back when I didn't do WW at work, and could wear the same, relatively skimpy, outfit to WI every week. Now, having to wear work clothes (particularly in the winter), I'm not sure it's a fair representation. Now I know, over the long run it'll all even out if I'm losing. But I like to see a fair number every time. So, I'm thinking I'll weigh in the morning, nekkid as usual, and count that online, and in my personal tracker, then I'll wear a relatively light outfit to work, and WI there and go to the meeting with my friend. I plan to lose a good bit (I always PLAN to) so I want to be at meetings and get awards, etc., but for now, I'm going to stick with my "home" weight as official WI online, and just know that my meeting WI will always be at least a couple pounds higher.
I still haven't gotten myself to work out this week. I'm not sure why. No good excuse. I think I forgive myself because I've been so good about tracking and staying in my points. I guess, since tomorrow is my reset day, I'll just let this first week go as a "back on track food-wise" week, and commit to at least 3 days of cardio for my next week. I think that's fair. No excuse this weekend why I can't get in at least one, likely two, good workouts on the treadmill. I can DO it!
Other than that, life is just plain busy. With wedding planning, lots of work, and house hunting, my head is spinning. Yesterday was crazy - I fired my real estate agent I'd been working with for 2 months. It was a long time coming, but she was a friend so I put it off. When she couldn't figure out why the contract the other agent sent her wouldn't print right and put off our offer for a day to work on it, (it was on "legal" paper, and specifically said so in the email) I decided enough was enough. She's a great bartender (how we met her before she went to real estate school), not so much a realtor.
So, I have a new realtor that is supposed to be faxing an offer today on a house we found this weekend and absolutely loved. I know we won't get it at the offer we're making (VERY low) but hopefully they'll counter and we'll get an idea if we're even close. I love this house - it's way more than we need, but it's gorgeous.
Let's see, still plan to see the proposed wedding site this weekend. Other than that, things are moving along. I mapped out my weight loss goals between now and the wedding. I have to average 3 1/2 lbs every 2 weeks to be where I want to be. I know I can do it. That's about 7 lbs a month. With total commitment, that's completely do able. I'm committed! Just have to start that exercising!
Off and working!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
On the right TRACK!
Last WI: 224.8/At Home WI: 220.4 (HELL YEAH!)
TUESDAY
Well, It's been almost a week since the engagement, and I'm down over 5 lbs on the scale. Yes, yes, I know the first week back on track is always a great loss, but I'm LOVIN it! I don't count an official WI till Thursday, which is actually going to be a real WI, at a meeting. A girl who sits near me at work wants to go to WW with me at work starting this week. I'm all for it. I need a "buddy"! She is also engaged and getting married in October. The thing is, she's tiny! Ok, so maybe not tiny, but I would bet she's already in the healthy range WW provides. She wants to lose 10 lbs for her wedding though. I can understand that, and I'm all for having someone to go to the meetings with. Hopefully this will be the added plus that gets me where I need to be.
So I haven't exercised this week, and I really haven't had any excuse. Work has been busy, but I've definitely had time at home when I could have hit the treadmill. But I plan to hit it at LEAST once this week, and I plan to buy some 10 & 15lb weights this weekend at Target to get into some strength training at home. I can DO this!
WW has a "tool for living" called anchoring. They have a lot of "cheesy" tools that I generally don't find helpful for me, but this one is very appropriate right now. I don't know what the official description of it is, but my understanding is that you have some physical item that you carry around with you that reminds you of why you're doing this, what your goals are, what your motivation is, etc. I've never been able to find the right "anchor" until now. I'm sure you can guess what it is - my engagement ring. Everytime I get hungry (i.e. bored) when I haven't planned a snack or meal, I look at it. Everytime I want to eat MORE after I've eaten a reasonable size meal, I look at it. And I always tell myself, I don't want to be a fat bride.
Now, many might feel that is superficial. I can't believe you only want to lose weight for your wedding. You don't want to do it to be healthy? Well of course I do. But that motivation hasn't worked the last 6 years. Maybe this one will. I'm using it if it works.
On fun wedding news, I found a place that I would LOVE to have my wedding at. At least based upon what I found on the website. Holly & I are going up there this Sunday to look at it. I hope it's everything they advertise. If so, it'll be perfect!
Here's to a good WW motivated week!
TUESDAY
Well, It's been almost a week since the engagement, and I'm down over 5 lbs on the scale. Yes, yes, I know the first week back on track is always a great loss, but I'm LOVIN it! I don't count an official WI till Thursday, which is actually going to be a real WI, at a meeting. A girl who sits near me at work wants to go to WW with me at work starting this week. I'm all for it. I need a "buddy"! She is also engaged and getting married in October. The thing is, she's tiny! Ok, so maybe not tiny, but I would bet she's already in the healthy range WW provides. She wants to lose 10 lbs for her wedding though. I can understand that, and I'm all for having someone to go to the meetings with. Hopefully this will be the added plus that gets me where I need to be.
So I haven't exercised this week, and I really haven't had any excuse. Work has been busy, but I've definitely had time at home when I could have hit the treadmill. But I plan to hit it at LEAST once this week, and I plan to buy some 10 & 15lb weights this weekend at Target to get into some strength training at home. I can DO this!
WW has a "tool for living" called anchoring. They have a lot of "cheesy" tools that I generally don't find helpful for me, but this one is very appropriate right now. I don't know what the official description of it is, but my understanding is that you have some physical item that you carry around with you that reminds you of why you're doing this, what your goals are, what your motivation is, etc. I've never been able to find the right "anchor" until now. I'm sure you can guess what it is - my engagement ring. Everytime I get hungry (i.e. bored) when I haven't planned a snack or meal, I look at it. Everytime I want to eat MORE after I've eaten a reasonable size meal, I look at it. And I always tell myself, I don't want to be a fat bride.
Now, many might feel that is superficial. I can't believe you only want to lose weight for your wedding. You don't want to do it to be healthy? Well of course I do. But that motivation hasn't worked the last 6 years. Maybe this one will. I'm using it if it works.
On fun wedding news, I found a place that I would LOVE to have my wedding at. At least based upon what I found on the website. Holly & I are going up there this Sunday to look at it. I hope it's everything they advertise. If so, it'll be perfect!
Here's to a good WW motivated week!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
ENGAGED!
Last WI: 224.8/At Home: 223.8
SATURDAY
Well it's been a crazy couple weeks! Last weekend Erik & I, along with 6 other friends went to Tunica, MS for a casino/poker weekend. I had a lot of fun and did really well, though didn't make the big money. I played in a $550 tournament on Friday night that won me a $7500 seat in the "big" tournament on Sunday. In that tournament I got 38th out of 180. Unfortunately, they only paid out to 18th place. But, considering I was playing with mostly pros, I did very well and was very pleased with myself. That said, it would have been nice to cash as 18th paid $12K and 1st paid $450K. Oh well, there's always next year.
We got home on Monday, and then on Wednesday night Erik proposed!!! It was so funny. Turns out he picked up the ring the thursday before on the way to Tunica and had planned to do it in Tunica. He even scheduled a fancy dinner for us, that we ended up missing since we misunderstood the closing time of the restaurant. So, since he couldn't do it last weekend, he decided to do it at the location of our first date - Chaps. He totally surprised me, which is something I didn't think he could do knowing that it was coming sometime in the next few months. Anyway, I came by after work, we played poker with all our friends, and turns out I did really well that night. He had planned on doing it when I went out of the poker tournament, but I ended up getting 3rd. So he did it as we were paying our tab. Course by this time, the place was pretty empty, but that's ok, it was very sweet. He totally shocked me. Dana, his closest friend, was there running the poker show and knew it was coming, but other than that he kept it a total secret. So funny and sweet. I'm so happy.
So above is a very blurry picture of the ring taken from my camera phone. I still need to sit down and upload a nice one with my digital camera.
So Thursday I did very little at work, even though I am SWAMPED. I billed two hours, then Holly came up and we had lunch and looked at bride magazines and talked about locations the rest of the day. I think she's more excited than me! Course she just finished her wedding, so she's probably in withdrawal. Of course Thursday night I got an email on my blackberry saying EMERGENCY EMERGENCY the next 8 days will be hell and we need everyone to work major hours to get a project done by 2/1. So, after 24 hours of wedding talk and excitement, I've had to put it aside and work my butt off. I billed 14 hours yesterday and am sitting at work now (taking a much needed brain break). I expect to bill at least 10, hopefully 12 or 13 hours today. Tomorrow I'm taking a short break to go to church and look at a few houses that we'd scheduled with the realtor, then going to try to bill at least 6 hours. Monday - Friday look like 12-14 hours days. Then hopefully next weekend I can veg, and enjoy being a bride!
As for the wedding, there still lots to think about as far as a date, but we're talking about August/September, possibly labor day weekend if we can find a location we like that isn't booked. Who knows - can't think about it for 6 more days.
So that's me excitement! WOO HOO. Finally I'm a bride. At least for 7 or so months! :-)
Oh - and now I think I FINALLY got the motivation to do what I need to WW-wise. Since Erik proposed, I've been diligently tracking my points and making good choices. No exercise, as work has limited that, but after this emergency passes, I expect to get back to that too. I'm giving myself 2 months to lose as much as I can before I start looking at wedding dresses. I'm EXCITED!
Monday, January 14, 2008
YEAH!
Last WI: 224.8/Morning WI: 221.0 (YEAH)
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Monday
In control! Finally! Ok, so after my thursday night binge, I did go out on Friday and drink a little. Then Saturday and Sunday I was GREAT. I did a good workout on the treadmill on Saturday and ate very moderately both days with lots of water and no alcohol. And I was rewarded on the scale. Actually I saw 222.4 yesterday and was pleased at that. I'd love to get under 220 before thursday!
So I have a new plan - to go with a new week, lol. It seems like I make up new "plans" constantly in this weight loss battle. Anyway, I was reading about a new "diet" where you eat 4 400 calorie meals a day, no more than 4 hours apart and got to thinking that might work for me. I've got to find something that works - for life, and starving myself just doesn't cut it. But this might work. The best part about it is that I get to eat every 4 hours! So that's what I did saturday and sunday. 4 400 calorie meals about 4 hours apart. For my normal work day that would mean breakfast at about 7:30, lunch at 11:30, snack(?) at 3:30, and dinner at 7:30. Now that's not bad. I generally get hungry about 3:30 or 4 anyway, so as long as I keep it light, I can have 2 "dinners". Now I know there will be times when this doesn't work - scheduled dinners, travel, etc. But for an "everyday" routine, I find it very appealing. Oh - and any exercise I get is just a bonus. This keeps me generally at 1600 calories a day. Not bad for my weight. If I lose a bunch I may have to drop it to 350 calories/meal, but for know 1600/day is very reasonable.
So - here we go. Today I had my ~400 calorie breakfast. I'm set for lunch at 11:30 ish. And, if I'm hungry, I can even eat a little earlier. With 7:30 being my last meal, I can move that up a bit and still not go to bed too hungry.
Here's hoping it works!
Oh - and no alcohol till Thursday. And then, only because we're going out of town. My perfect little plan will be foiled for 5 days staring Thursday night. I fly to Memphis then drive to Tunica for our annual January casino trip with friends. There are 9 of us going and it's going to be a blast. But food is going to be tricky since tunica is the world of fried and everything is on a buffet. I'll do my best and at worst, get back on track after I get back Monday. But for now - I plan to see under 220 before I leave Thursday!
HERE WE GO!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Alcohol is the Devil
Don't ask
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Friday
So yesterday I was doing pretty good, getting work done, tracking points, etc. Then Erik and I decided to go to Y-knots for poker. And it was my turn to drink - his to drive. So all goodness went out the window. And it was a semi-drama night that ended well with strong resolve I think. So - some background:
Last Thursday night we also went to Y-knots where it was my turn to drive. So Erik drank. And drank. And got drunk. I'm not a big fan of drunk Erik, but he puts up with drunk me, so I know it's only fair to do the same. Except Thursday night, I was REALLY not a fan. I did well in the poker tournament and ended up getting to the final table. Erik went out earlier so he went to a different part of the bar to hang out with some other friends and shoot darts. I finally busted out of the poker game about 10:30 and went to find Erik. He was playing dollar a game darts with two guys we know. Ok. So I hung out for a bit and scratched off some lottery tickets with Dana when he finished up running the poker show. Then Dana left and it was about 11:15 and I was ready to go. I told Erik this and he wanted to play one more game. Ok. fine. But he wanted to play cricket. Oh hell no. If you know anything about darts, cricket is a game that can last forever, particularly with bad dart players like Erik and his also intoxicated friends.
So they agreed to a modified game of cricket that shouldn't last as long. So I so ok - I'll go play the mega touch for a while. The mega touch is in the same room as the darts but on the other side of the room. I played for a while and then looked back and didn't see Erik at the dart board. I was confused. I looked around the room and found him, and one of his buddies, talking to a table of girls we don't know. Ok, not a fan of that, but his friend is single, so I thought, hey - maybe Morgan's doing the flirting. So I watched. And it turns out they were trying to persuade this one girl to come over and play darts with them. They finally convinced her to and, to my great disappointment, it was Erik that was showing her how to shoot them. Like standing behind her showing her. Ok - so he wasn't REALLY doing anything wrong. But enough to irritate me. My plan was to try to stay a "fly on the wall" and see where this went, but unfortunately his other friend saw me watching and said something to the effect of "I'm glad I'm not going to be driving Erik home tonight..." Erik looked over saw, me and came over a bit later. By this point he was hammered so it was pointless to try to talk to him about it. It would turn into a fight that he wouldn't even remember. So I took him home and dropped it. I had meant to say something this last week, but I kept forgetting and never brought it up. Though I did talk to Holly about it (and I know she told Dana - one of Erik's good friends - Dana is a guy by the way). But it never got brought up to Erik.
So when did I bring it up? Well, last night. After about 4 beers. BRILLIANT! I brought it up at the bar, while Dana was there and the other friend who had been there last week (the one who called out he didn't want to be the one to drive Erik home). As I suspected Erik had no memory of the girl whatsoever. But the guys backed me up. He apologized and it sparked a conversation about how we really should cut back on drinking so much, particularly when one can drink and the other cannot.
The logic goes something like this - what do we really get out of it? Particularly on Thursday nights, the answer is an inflated bar tab and a hang over on Friday at work. Oh and we usually fight. Almost the only time Erik and I fight is when one of us is drunk and the other is not. So, I think we agreed that the Thursday night drunken trade-offs will stop. I hope we only now drink when we're both able to. We have a lot of fun together when we're both drinking, but when one is and the other is not - it results in arguments more often than not. I hope we stick to this.
So obviously I went way over in points yesterday and this mornings mini-hangover led to a drive through at Chick fil a, so not a good start. But I'm going to try to reign it in for the weekend.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Screw You Scale
Last WI: 224.8/Morning WI: 224.8
Thursday.
Ok. Now I'm just pissed. And hurt and depressed. What the hell. So yesterday I didn't follow my plan 100%, but enough not to deserve this. I ended up staying at work till 7:30. Went home - chugged like a million ounces of water, and went to bed. I was asleep before 11:00. No I didn't hit the treadmill, but NO I didn't eat dinner either. I only started to feel the tiniest bit hungry about 8:30 pm and said - nope. I will not eat again today. I've probably hit my points with that evil sushi buffet, and I need to see a good number on the scale tomorrow. So I went to bed, having last eating about 2:00 pm.
This morning (after getting up no less than 3 times last night to pee - thanks million ounces of water) I jumped on the scale and saw 224.8. What? 3.2 lb gain? Are you freaking kidding me? This is the number I've vowed to record on all my stupid websites and databases? Ok. So I just don't get it. No, I wasn't perfect this week, but I did TRY. More than I've done in over a month. I ran 2 times (again more than over a month). I tracked everything I ate on WW e-tools - even when I went over. And shit - I didn't eat for over 17 hours before WI! WTF? Now when I get sick and don't eat for 17 hours the scale plummets (then rebounds once I start eating). But hell, I didn't even care if it was a "fake" number this morning, so long as it wasn't a 3.2 lb gain! I'm so mad and sad and disappointed and confused.
I feel like the scale just laughs at me as it climbs to nearly new heights. Now my stupid ticker at the top looks like I just started this journey. Oh boy do I wish I had just started this journey. Every day this week the scale creeped up, laughing the whole way....222, ha ha, 223, ha ha ha, 224, ha ha ha ha. Oh - you don't like 224.8? No I didn't, so what did I do - brushed my teeth and then re-hopped. HA HA HA - 225.4. Fine. I'll take 224.8. WTF. Maybe my scale's messed up? That would be too much to hope for.
I've said it a million ways, and I'll say it again. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I didn't expect this fabulous loss - I mean come on, I wasn't perfect. But I didn't expect a "fabulous" gain either.
So - the question remains. What am I going to do about it. Well, a big part of me wants to say FUCK YOU SCALE and just eat whatever I want. Gorge on pizza hut and McDonalds. Say so what if I'm 300 lbs next year. So what.
But I know that won't make me happy either. As I noted yesterday, I am over weight, but I'm not horribly unhealthy. At 300 lbs I'd be horribly unhealthy.
So, I'll try again. I had my stupid 3 pt weight watcher muffin for breakfast. I've packed some snacks (including that apple and orange I so proudly DIDN'T eat yesterday). And I'll try to get through another day. Sad, disappointed and depressed. But I'll get through.
I'll count my blessings, and be happy for a life that, with the exception of weight struggles, is pretty darn good - good job, good family, good man. Stop complaining and keep trying.
Sadly. Disappointedly. We'll leave it at that. Oh - and no sushi buffet...for a long while.
Thursday.
Ok. Now I'm just pissed. And hurt and depressed. What the hell. So yesterday I didn't follow my plan 100%, but enough not to deserve this. I ended up staying at work till 7:30. Went home - chugged like a million ounces of water, and went to bed. I was asleep before 11:00. No I didn't hit the treadmill, but NO I didn't eat dinner either. I only started to feel the tiniest bit hungry about 8:30 pm and said - nope. I will not eat again today. I've probably hit my points with that evil sushi buffet, and I need to see a good number on the scale tomorrow. So I went to bed, having last eating about 2:00 pm.
This morning (after getting up no less than 3 times last night to pee - thanks million ounces of water) I jumped on the scale and saw 224.8. What? 3.2 lb gain? Are you freaking kidding me? This is the number I've vowed to record on all my stupid websites and databases? Ok. So I just don't get it. No, I wasn't perfect this week, but I did TRY. More than I've done in over a month. I ran 2 times (again more than over a month). I tracked everything I ate on WW e-tools - even when I went over. And shit - I didn't eat for over 17 hours before WI! WTF? Now when I get sick and don't eat for 17 hours the scale plummets (then rebounds once I start eating). But hell, I didn't even care if it was a "fake" number this morning, so long as it wasn't a 3.2 lb gain! I'm so mad and sad and disappointed and confused.
I feel like the scale just laughs at me as it climbs to nearly new heights. Now my stupid ticker at the top looks like I just started this journey. Oh boy do I wish I had just started this journey. Every day this week the scale creeped up, laughing the whole way....222, ha ha, 223, ha ha ha, 224, ha ha ha ha. Oh - you don't like 224.8? No I didn't, so what did I do - brushed my teeth and then re-hopped. HA HA HA - 225.4. Fine. I'll take 224.8. WTF. Maybe my scale's messed up? That would be too much to hope for.
I've said it a million ways, and I'll say it again. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I didn't expect this fabulous loss - I mean come on, I wasn't perfect. But I didn't expect a "fabulous" gain either.
So - the question remains. What am I going to do about it. Well, a big part of me wants to say FUCK YOU SCALE and just eat whatever I want. Gorge on pizza hut and McDonalds. Say so what if I'm 300 lbs next year. So what.
But I know that won't make me happy either. As I noted yesterday, I am over weight, but I'm not horribly unhealthy. At 300 lbs I'd be horribly unhealthy.
So, I'll try again. I had my stupid 3 pt weight watcher muffin for breakfast. I've packed some snacks (including that apple and orange I so proudly DIDN'T eat yesterday). And I'll try to get through another day. Sad, disappointed and depressed. But I'll get through.
I'll count my blessings, and be happy for a life that, with the exception of weight struggles, is pretty darn good - good job, good family, good man. Stop complaining and keep trying.
Sadly. Disappointedly. We'll leave it at that. Oh - and no sushi buffet...for a long while.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Sodium sodium sodium...
Last WI: 221.6/At home WI: 224.4 (yep.)
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
WEDNESDAY
Ok, so perfect little girl I was Monday? Went out the window last night. It all started out ok. I was on track for breakfast, then I decided to have sushi for lunch. Well, my favorite sushi place near work has a sushi buffet for lunch. Now I just said the biggest curse word for dieters...buffet.... But I figured - hey - it's a SUSHI buffet - how bad can it be? Well, it wasn't horrible and although I did go back for seconds, they were small plates and I didn't fill them up...totally. Either way - that's a lot of sodium. Because of course I dip every cute little piece into soy-sauce and wasabi. So that's what a blame this morning's weight on. It could also be the late afternoon/evening snacks (all 100 pt snacks, but when you have 5 of them it defeats the purpose), or the chicken breast (w/o skin!) mashed potatoes and mac & cheese from KFC on the way home. Or the no exercise - it was an off day remember? Ah...how they all add up. Grrrr..
Oh - and my cute little mantra? Turns out I don't always answer the question correctly. What's more important, KFC or going to bed a bit hungry because your already over in points....I chose KFC. I said, eh, I'm fat. I'll always be fat. Might as well be comfortable (i.e. not hungry). Bad little devil speaking there. So, as to be expected, the cute little mantra was not the magic cure. Long term discipline is the (not so) magic cure. Just have to keep trying I guess.
Today I was ok for breakfast, but not as ok for lunch - I guess I didn't get enough sushi yesterday because I went back today. More sodium... But frankly, there are definitely worse places to eat. I stayed away from the fried rice, and other "dishes" and stuck with sushi rolls. I surely had more than I needed, but for the most part those buggers are only about 1/2 a point each. Now - to finish the day off strong. here's the plan. I'm actually going to work pretty late - at least 8:00 pm. I've got an apple and an orange in my drawer for later when I get munchy. I didn't have my sushi binge lunch until about 1:30 today so I'm definitely not going to be hungry for a while. I'll have my apple/orange. I'll go home around 8:00. I'll get on the treadmill and do my 2+ miles. And I'll go to bed (after chugging copious amounts of water). Let me say that again - I'LL GO TO BED. No late night dinner. I don't need it. And tomorrow is my vowed WI day so we need to mitigate the damages here (fancy lawyer term).
On another sodium related issue. I love salt. I'm totally addicted to it. Whether in the soy sauce form or the plain old grain version, I use a ton of it. I know this is bad as it makes you retain water, and increases risk for high blood pressure, etc. Ok, so I get the first one (and boy did I GET it this morning on the scale) but the second? Not a problem. I have always had very "normal" blood pressure even at my heaviest (not to far from where I am now). And when I'm running, even sporadically, my blood pressure is really low. Not like dangerous low, but healthy low. For example. I've been back on the treadmill for 2 days this week. Yesterday I went to give blood (to get them to stop calling me, I'm 0- and they will not leave me alone when I due). The nurse took my blood pressure and frankly couldn't hold back her surprise when she told me it was 106/66. Now that's low, even for me.
So, although I definitely want to lose weight and will continue, probably forever, to work on it, I think I'm a healthy overweight person. I can run 2 miles, sometimes as much as 4 or 5 and my blood pressure is really low. Is that so bad? If it weren't for image issues, I really don't think I'd be trying to lose weight so bad. Now I'm not saying I couldn't be healthier, I could. But I'm not so bad off, really.
I read this article a few days ago. Although it's very depressing in the sense that it suggests those of us will never be "comfortably" thin, it does imply that over-weight people can be healthy. Of course, it just makes me curse all those "naturally thin" people all the more...
Anyway - I know I'll always battle this. I may never get back down to goal weight. But I also know the day I stop battling will be the first day on my way to 300 lbs. I will always gain if I don't fight it. I love food and self indulgence too much.
So, on with the fight - off to battle...
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
No reward for hard work today.
Last WI: 221.6/Morning WI; 223.6 (wtf?)
TUESDAY
So, I know weight fluctuates daily based on more than just caloric intake. But I was hoping to see a lower number this morning. I was so good yesterday. Ate exactly my points, plus one of the activity points I earned by running 2 miles/walking .5 yesterday after working late (8:30). So dedicated and so not rewarded. Oh well - we'll do it again and hope for the best tomorrow. Gotta keep pluggin along. I did really well with water and fruits and veggies yesterday too, so all around a good day. Here's to another...
I won't be working out tonight as I think I need a break after two hard pushes on the treadmill. My legs are a little sore and I'd hate to hurt myself after my slackerness the last few months. So today is off to rest, and back at it tomorrow.
So far this morning I've had a balance bar and a banana (total 6 pts) and I'm still starving. I think today is going to be a tough day. I've got to figure out a yummy, filling, low point lunch to keep me going.
Other than that, no new news.
TUESDAY
So, I know weight fluctuates daily based on more than just caloric intake. But I was hoping to see a lower number this morning. I was so good yesterday. Ate exactly my points, plus one of the activity points I earned by running 2 miles/walking .5 yesterday after working late (8:30). So dedicated and so not rewarded. Oh well - we'll do it again and hope for the best tomorrow. Gotta keep pluggin along. I did really well with water and fruits and veggies yesterday too, so all around a good day. Here's to another...
I won't be working out tonight as I think I need a break after two hard pushes on the treadmill. My legs are a little sore and I'd hate to hurt myself after my slackerness the last few months. So today is off to rest, and back at it tomorrow.
So far this morning I've had a balance bar and a banana (total 6 pts) and I'm still starving. I think today is going to be a tough day. I've got to figure out a yummy, filling, low point lunch to keep me going.
Other than that, no new news.
Monday, January 7, 2008
Mantras - Can they work?
Last WI: 221.6/Morning WI: 222.8
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
MONDAY
Well it's a new week and I haven't done much on the "new years resolution front". It's January 7 and I've really not accomplished much yet. This is supposed to be when people are most motivated, right? Well last night, on my way home from a friend's house, I created a new "mantra" for myself. Well, it's not new, but new to me. The theory is, before I make any health/weight/food related decision I ask the question: What's more important. I.e. What's more important, this meal or being thin? What's more important, watching this TV program or being thin (and working out). Last night it worked. I got home at about 8:30 and hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Ran a total of 2 miles, walked .5 and burned 425 calories. Not bad. Then I drank lots of water before going to sleep about midnight. So today, for breakfast - I asked the question, and then settled on a 4 point breakfast bar, rather than chick-fil-a on the way in. So far so good. 12 hours in and it's working. Now, will it last? Who knows.
I've come to realize that all losing weight is, is finding the 'tricks' that work. We all have different ones. What motivates one person doesn't another. For me, I just have to find those that work. The first time I did WW it was the newness of it, the calculating (I'm OCD) and the game. Now I've come to the point where I'm too good at cheating. I WI in the morning, see a lower number than I deserve and feel it gives me the justification to eat too much that day. I know I can earn APs at home, so I over-eat during the day "planning" on hitting the treadmill, then I don't. Things like that. No more can I rely on the 'game' because I've instituted cheating into it. (kinda like baseball these days, eh?)
So, now I'm going to try the mantra. I'm still going to do WW because it's a good check for making sure I'm eating enough (surprisingly when I'm "ON" that's an issue) and that I'm not over-estimating things. I just have to make a million little decisions that ultimately boil down to one big one - I'm doing something about this!
On other issues, we went house hunting this weekend and I fell in love with a house on Saturday that I found out on Sunday was under contract. Of course. It's definitely not a bad thing, though because technically I was a bit more than I wanted to spend. So maybe I can be happy with something else. I had a "second favorite" that both Erik and I liked that's still on the table. We're set to look at a bunch more this weekend, so here's hoping.
Other than that, today is a busy day at work. 3 meetings and lots to do.
Hoping for a good day!
Friday, January 4, 2008
House hunting
Last WI: 221.6/At Home WI: 224.0 (beer is evil)
FRIDAY
Well, I finally have work to do. YEAH! Funny how I'm wanting work, being that I'm such a lazy bum. But when my job is on the line (billing is how we're evaluated in part) then I care.
So last night, Erik and I talked about the house shopping issue. I'm really torn about what to do here. As I think I've mentioned, we will be kicked out of our house early this year. Now it's looking like first of April is the likely deadline. That gives me January and February to find a house (considering a 30 day closing). So I'm looking. And I'm frustrated. We found, what we thought, were some great houses back before the holidays. Turns out, it's a gang ridden area. Who knew? So, obviously that's out. Now we're debating between buying intown or OTP (outside the perimeter, as they say locally). There's pluses and minuses to both. Intown is closer to my work, so minimizes my commute. Typically, I work more hours, so this balances things out as he will still likely get home around the same time even with his 45 minute commute. But, his son's mother lives outside the perimeter, sort of near Erik's work, and obviously they split custody a lot. So that's a pain. Also, all my friends are down south of ATL. Granted, I can make new friends, and make an effort to see the old ones, but it's a factor. Of course in-town you get much less house for your money too.
Oddly, Erik is pushing in-town. Which is really weird because he hates traffic, and hates big cities. I keep saying I'm willing to commute if he wants to live suburbs, but he keeps saying no - it'll be easier for you if we live in-town. Odd. I figured I'd be begging for in-town, he'd be pushing suburbs. Instead it's the opposite.
Also, now that we're on a semi-short time frame, and we can really only look on the weekends, I'm ready to start looking. NOW. As in this weekend. But my realtor, whom I made an appointment with before the holidays to look at houses tomorrow, is not responding to my emails. Doesn't she realize in this market, she should be falling all over me? I mean really, how many eager buyers are out there? And I'm a sure thing. I WILL be buying something in the next 3 months. She's got till the end of today then I'm looking for someone else. I know several people who would love my business. It's just odd because this isn't like her. She was very helpful and eager before the holidays. We'll see I guess.
Other than that, all is well. I need to get cracking on the nice little work-out plan I mapped out yesterday...
FRIDAY
Well, I finally have work to do. YEAH! Funny how I'm wanting work, being that I'm such a lazy bum. But when my job is on the line (billing is how we're evaluated in part) then I care.
So last night, Erik and I talked about the house shopping issue. I'm really torn about what to do here. As I think I've mentioned, we will be kicked out of our house early this year. Now it's looking like first of April is the likely deadline. That gives me January and February to find a house (considering a 30 day closing). So I'm looking. And I'm frustrated. We found, what we thought, were some great houses back before the holidays. Turns out, it's a gang ridden area. Who knew? So, obviously that's out. Now we're debating between buying intown or OTP (outside the perimeter, as they say locally). There's pluses and minuses to both. Intown is closer to my work, so minimizes my commute. Typically, I work more hours, so this balances things out as he will still likely get home around the same time even with his 45 minute commute. But, his son's mother lives outside the perimeter, sort of near Erik's work, and obviously they split custody a lot. So that's a pain. Also, all my friends are down south of ATL. Granted, I can make new friends, and make an effort to see the old ones, but it's a factor. Of course in-town you get much less house for your money too.
Oddly, Erik is pushing in-town. Which is really weird because he hates traffic, and hates big cities. I keep saying I'm willing to commute if he wants to live suburbs, but he keeps saying no - it'll be easier for you if we live in-town. Odd. I figured I'd be begging for in-town, he'd be pushing suburbs. Instead it's the opposite.
Also, now that we're on a semi-short time frame, and we can really only look on the weekends, I'm ready to start looking. NOW. As in this weekend. But my realtor, whom I made an appointment with before the holidays to look at houses tomorrow, is not responding to my emails. Doesn't she realize in this market, she should be falling all over me? I mean really, how many eager buyers are out there? And I'm a sure thing. I WILL be buying something in the next 3 months. She's got till the end of today then I'm looking for someone else. I know several people who would love my business. It's just odd because this isn't like her. She was very helpful and eager before the holidays. We'll see I guess.
Other than that, all is well. I need to get cracking on the nice little work-out plan I mapped out yesterday...
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Highly Paid Internet Surfer.
Last WI: 221.6/At Home WI: 221.6
THURSDAY
I made some goals this week and so far I've kept two out of four. First, I was going to log all my food into my online WW journal every day regardless of how bad I was. Check. (and boy did yesterday look bad...). Second, I vowed to weigh in once a week, at home, on Thursday mornings, and record it online at WW (and here). Check. This morning showed a one pound gain, but considering yesterday's scary number, and my new years binge, I think I can handle that.
Goals three and four haven't gone as smoothly. Goal three - cardio 3 x per week. Goal 4 - strength 1 x per week. Granted I haven't been through a week yet, but so far nill on both. I totally planned to run yesterday (hello - treadmill 30 steps away from the bed...) but slacked. And slacked and slacked. no excuse. Just lazy. Why? Again, no excuse. Grrr.
So I've got to find a way to commit. I had hoped to start training for a half marathon here in Atlanta in March. I can still do it, but need to get my butt in gear NOW. I need to make up a schedule and stick to it. I'm going to do that right after I post this.
As for strength training? i know I need to do more than once a week. But I SOO hate doing it right now that I feel like once a week would be a great success. Maybe I'll go tonight after work....
As for work, I still have nothing to do, but have work on the horizon. I have a 10am meeting tomorrow to pick up a new case, and a 9am meeting on Monday for a current case. I'm also supposed to be hearing from a young partner this afternoon about a project, so there's hope. Meanwhile, I've been a very highly paid internet surfer.
THURSDAY
I made some goals this week and so far I've kept two out of four. First, I was going to log all my food into my online WW journal every day regardless of how bad I was. Check. (and boy did yesterday look bad...). Second, I vowed to weigh in once a week, at home, on Thursday mornings, and record it online at WW (and here). Check. This morning showed a one pound gain, but considering yesterday's scary number, and my new years binge, I think I can handle that.
Goals three and four haven't gone as smoothly. Goal three - cardio 3 x per week. Goal 4 - strength 1 x per week. Granted I haven't been through a week yet, but so far nill on both. I totally planned to run yesterday (hello - treadmill 30 steps away from the bed...) but slacked. And slacked and slacked. no excuse. Just lazy. Why? Again, no excuse. Grrr.
So I've got to find a way to commit. I had hoped to start training for a half marathon here in Atlanta in March. I can still do it, but need to get my butt in gear NOW. I need to make up a schedule and stick to it. I'm going to do that right after I post this.
As for strength training? i know I need to do more than once a week. But I SOO hate doing it right now that I feel like once a week would be a great success. Maybe I'll go tonight after work....
As for work, I still have nothing to do, but have work on the horizon. I have a 10am meeting tomorrow to pick up a new case, and a 9am meeting on Monday for a current case. I'm also supposed to be hearing from a young partner this afternoon about a project, so there's hope. Meanwhile, I've been a very highly paid internet surfer.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
New Year, Same old Goals...
Last WI: 220.6/At Home WI: 224.0 (ick!)
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
Wednesday
Ok - so I saw 221.8 yesterday and 224 today. Weird. But I was definitely dehydrated yesterday so that probably has something to do with it.
So the holidays were nice. I had my best friend from college - Gloria - in town. She and I are simply put - soul mates. Not in the romantic sense, obviously, but we are just so similar we will be best friends for ever. I met her the first night I moved into my dorm freshman year and we've been instant best friends since. She currently lives in Hawaii and is finishing up her PhD in clinical psychology, but is hoping to move back soon, possibly to Georgia. I'm lucky that I live very close to where most of her family is from, so there's a good chance she'll move here once she starts working. We had a great visit and Erik dropped her off at her grandparents this morning where she'll be spending a few days before flying back to Hawaii.
New years, we went to Holly's for our big party. It was a lot of fun, but I got way too drunk and sometime after midnight got into a cry-fest fight with Erik about why he hasn't proposed yet. So not good. He was wonderful and said all the right things but I hate that I made such a scene. I was pretty gone so I don't remember exactly how many people were still at the party - I'm hoping not too many, it was definitely a good bit after midnight. Oh well - drunken stupidity is a must on occasion it seems...
So, now it's a new year but the same old goals. Lose weight, eat right, exercise...etc.etc. Same as everyone, but I need it more than most since I've let things slip lately.
Back at work today with still nothing to do. I emailed my practice group leader and he said he'd "work on it" and the he's not back till Monday. Great...looks like another slow week... So not good for the bonus I had hoped to get next Christmas.
This weekend Erik and I will be looking at houses again. I'm so depressed about this. I thought it'd be so fun since we have plenty of time and it's such a "buyers market". Well, that's great and all, but I'm still cheap. I don't want to pay 300K + just to live in the city. I want a nice clean 3 - 4 bedroom house for under 200K. With a garage. So much to ask? In this area, apparently so. So who knows. We're supposed to look at some intown houses this weekend, but I know I'm going to be disappointed either in the neighborhood or the house. Here's hoping though...
Other than that, nothing too crazy going on. Still hoping for that call/email saying we've got some work for you... MUST BILL HOURS. lol.
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