FRIDAY
Well, as is the case of late, I've been very busy with work, boot camp, and wedding planning. And the weight loss progress has stopped. I'm a bit frustrated as I'm running out of time. We're 37 days away. I've been good on the boot camp front, but not good on the food front. I'm kinda peeved at myself too. But my problem is when I'm stressed I eat. And life is stressful right now. I had a very frustrating day yesterday with a paralegal at the office that simply isn't doing her job. So when I went out with Erik I felt entitled to have a beer or 4. It was a nice release, but an unnecessary weekday drinking binge.
Oh well - the wedding is coming - ready or not. And I think I'm ready other than weight-wise. I've got lots of appointments coming up to finalize things, the scariest of which is the dress fitting. I'm trying to put it off as long as possible, but it's coming too - ready or not.
I don't really have much else to say - this post is really a same ol same ol type of post. Gee - I'm not losing weight - gee I'm eating too much - gee maybe that's why I'm not losing weight. No real epiphanies there.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Wow time FLIES
THURSDAY
Oh my gosh time flies. I'm so crazy scared of this wedding! It's now 44 days away. Yes, little 44 days. Under 50 but still more than a month, thank god! It's so sneaking up on me!
Well, life's been busy as you can imagine. I've got lots of wedding stuff on the calendar. I'm meeting with the resort this weekend to finalize the menu details, cake stuff, timeing, etc. Yesterday I went and looked at "chair covers" and linens. Do not ASK me what I'm paying for chair covers and linens. OMG. Ridiculous. And trust me - I got the "basic" ones! It's just when you have a semi-large wedding (~145) and have to cover chairs for both the ceremony AND the reception, it gets expensive. Oh - and of course my site does not have ivory linens, so I'm stuck renting those too - or having them in white and clash with my dress and everything else. booo.
Oh well, things are getting done, albeit slowly. I'm excited and my weekends are filling up with to do's but boy it's getting close.
As for weight loss/work out, I'm a bit frustrated. I jumped back into Boot Camp full force. I've been every day. This is the end of week 2. I saw a good 4 lb loss the first week, but have really stagnated this week. Now I know there are several factors that could be in play here. I've been VERY sore this week so it could be water retention. I've been good but not "great" with food. But sheesh! I'm burning 600+ calories every morning! You'd think that'd add up to something.
Oh well - still pluggin along. I know the results will come. I won't be a "skinny minny" for my wedding, but as I've said before, if I lose some weight and feel fit, that's what matters. I just want to feel "good" about myself, even if I don't feel "perfect".
And work has gotten good too. I'm on two primary cases, with a few others sort of dormant. These two are keeping me busy though. I'm pretty much the primary associate on both, so I have a lot of responsibility and client contact which is exactly what I need to feel motivated and appreicated. If only I could get my butt into work earlier. With the boot camp I've been bad about getting to bed ontime so I've been "napping" when I get home at 6:30 for a bit which gets me into work late (obviously). I am staying later to make up for it, but if I could just rearrange the scheduling and be asleep by 10:00 it would all work easier. I'm just such a night owl and even with good intentions every night, I can't seem to fall asleep until around midnight. Frustrating.
Oh well - boot camp too will be over in 44 days. Hopefully then (after the honeymoon at least) I can get back to normal work life. Hopefully no one really is bothered by it in the meantime!
That's about it. Sorry for the lack of posting. I'd like to keep a good journal of this exciting time, but it's hard. I'm going to try harder to get on more often!
Oh my gosh time flies. I'm so crazy scared of this wedding! It's now 44 days away. Yes, little 44 days. Under 50 but still more than a month, thank god! It's so sneaking up on me!
Well, life's been busy as you can imagine. I've got lots of wedding stuff on the calendar. I'm meeting with the resort this weekend to finalize the menu details, cake stuff, timeing, etc. Yesterday I went and looked at "chair covers" and linens. Do not ASK me what I'm paying for chair covers and linens. OMG. Ridiculous. And trust me - I got the "basic" ones! It's just when you have a semi-large wedding (~145) and have to cover chairs for both the ceremony AND the reception, it gets expensive. Oh - and of course my site does not have ivory linens, so I'm stuck renting those too - or having them in white and clash with my dress and everything else. booo.
Oh well, things are getting done, albeit slowly. I'm excited and my weekends are filling up with to do's but boy it's getting close.
As for weight loss/work out, I'm a bit frustrated. I jumped back into Boot Camp full force. I've been every day. This is the end of week 2. I saw a good 4 lb loss the first week, but have really stagnated this week. Now I know there are several factors that could be in play here. I've been VERY sore this week so it could be water retention. I've been good but not "great" with food. But sheesh! I'm burning 600+ calories every morning! You'd think that'd add up to something.
Oh well - still pluggin along. I know the results will come. I won't be a "skinny minny" for my wedding, but as I've said before, if I lose some weight and feel fit, that's what matters. I just want to feel "good" about myself, even if I don't feel "perfect".
And work has gotten good too. I'm on two primary cases, with a few others sort of dormant. These two are keeping me busy though. I'm pretty much the primary associate on both, so I have a lot of responsibility and client contact which is exactly what I need to feel motivated and appreicated. If only I could get my butt into work earlier. With the boot camp I've been bad about getting to bed ontime so I've been "napping" when I get home at 6:30 for a bit which gets me into work late (obviously). I am staying later to make up for it, but if I could just rearrange the scheduling and be asleep by 10:00 it would all work easier. I'm just such a night owl and even with good intentions every night, I can't seem to fall asleep until around midnight. Frustrating.
Oh well - boot camp too will be over in 44 days. Hopefully then (after the honeymoon at least) I can get back to normal work life. Hopefully no one really is bothered by it in the meantime!
That's about it. Sorry for the lack of posting. I'd like to keep a good journal of this exciting time, but it's hard. I'm going to try harder to get on more often!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
First Test
Wednesday
Well, today is my first test of my new commitment. We didn't have a boot camp work out today (we get the first and third Wednesday off). So I have to do my own work out tonight. I'm ready. I have no plans to go out anywhere. I'm going to hit the treadmill and possibly add some jump roping in with my cool calorie counting jump rope. Then I need to do some strength work which I might do on the Wii Fit since I haven't been on there in a while. I'm ready.
I do need to do some grocery shopping, as I'm down to very few easy "mini meals" like we're supposed to do on this program. I usually take some fruit, yogurt, nuts, hard boiled egg, etc. to work for my mid day snacks but I'm out! I'll try to go tonight. If I don't make it, it'll be this weekend before I can go. We'll see how that goes.
Other than that, things are going well. I'm looking forward to this weekend. I've got some plans with friends that should be a lot of fun. I've got a LOT of work to do before then though - so on that note - back to work!
Well, today is my first test of my new commitment. We didn't have a boot camp work out today (we get the first and third Wednesday off). So I have to do my own work out tonight. I'm ready. I have no plans to go out anywhere. I'm going to hit the treadmill and possibly add some jump roping in with my cool calorie counting jump rope. Then I need to do some strength work which I might do on the Wii Fit since I haven't been on there in a while. I'm ready.
I do need to do some grocery shopping, as I'm down to very few easy "mini meals" like we're supposed to do on this program. I usually take some fruit, yogurt, nuts, hard boiled egg, etc. to work for my mid day snacks but I'm out! I'll try to go tonight. If I don't make it, it'll be this weekend before I can go. We'll see how that goes.
Other than that, things are going well. I'm looking forward to this weekend. I've got some plans with friends that should be a lot of fun. I've got a LOT of work to do before then though - so on that note - back to work!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
54 days - Day 2 Bootcamp Revisited
TUESDAY
Things are going well. I'm totally back on track and committed to my final countdown till the wedding. Unfortunately I did some damage on my last minute binging before this week, but nothing that cannot be remedied over the next 2 months, I feel sure. I'm ready to see results!
Today was day 2 of my return to boot camp and boy 3 weeks of has killed me. I didn't realize what good shape I'd gotten into, but it's kicking my butt again. I'm super sore. Course that is exasperated by the fact that I waterskiied last weekend for the first time in YEARS. It was so fun, but SOOO exhausting. See me kicking butt: 
Very fun. It was gorgeous out on the lake in MO where my father just moved. I really had a relaxing (if indulgent) 4th weekend - see me and Erik drinking beer in front of the campfire:
But now we're in full assault mode! Perfect eater, perfect exerciser, non-alcohol drinker. I'm READY. It's crunch time and I'm ready to feel the burn!
Here's to 54 more days of good food and good exercise!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
60 days. (5 days till crunch time!)
WEDNESDAY
So, I'm actually really excited about Monday. Odd, because this is a holiday weekend. I'm flying out tomorrow evening with Erik to see my family, my dad's new home, my brother & his kids and wife, and of course my mom. But I'm looking forward to Monday - the day after we get back. Why?
Because I start back at Boot camp.
And I REALLY start my countdown to the wedding.
Why can't I start now, you ask? Did you read the paragraph above about family gathering this weekend? It will be tremendous fun, but I have absolutely ZERO will power around my family. We eat. That's what we do. There's always food, and it's always good.
The one saving grace I should have is that my dad just moved to a place right on the Lake of the Ozarks, and has a boat we can waterski behind. I was a killer waterskiier when I was a kid (with some scars to prove it). I skiied about 5 years ago here in GA and maybe once since, but haven't really gotten to do it much as an adult. I know I'm going to suck. But I'm confident I will be able to get UP. More than my brother can do, apparently. :-) I determined to show him up.
So that'll be some exercise. Hopefully more swimming will be done as well so I can burn some of the bajillion calories I will be consuming this weekend.
Then Monday?
DUM DUM DUM
It's official wedding crunch time! I'm back to boot camp at 5:00 am every morning. Back to writing down EVERYTHING I eat. Back to eating Body for Life-style. And, with the exciting exception of our bachelor/bachelorette weekend in Savannah - I'm back to NO ALCOHOL. Zip. Zero. I mean, I can go 8 weeks without it, right? Especially since I'll get a no-regrets exception in Savannah. I can DO this.
I got my dress last Friday. I was actually a little disappointed. I still LOVE the dress. But since I've stopped the boot camp, I've not been feeling so hot about myself, and the pounds are creeping back on. The dress fit - no worries there - but I wanted it to be loose. I wanted it to be falling off. And although it fit, it kind of pushed up my chest in a way that didn't exactly make my boobies look big - which is what you'd assume and wouldn't be so bad - but made my upper chest/sholder area look poofy. Odd to describe, I know, but it's something that weightloss and strength training will help. I just need to get back on it.
So, I've given myself the next 5 days. Not to go crazy, but to enjoy my last bit of "freedom" food wise. After that, I've got to be committed. I can still conceivably be under 200 for my wedding - a goal I've always had. Of course I'd love to be 'at goal' but that's not going to happen now. I'll be satisfied with under 200. That's about where I was when I met Erik. It'd be appropriate. I can DO it. Right?
Other than the weight issue, wedding planning has been surprisingly easy. I know I know, I just jinxed myself, but sheesh - should I be stressing about details by now? I keep checking my little "checklists" available all over the web, and I'm right on track. Everything that should be booked/planned is done. Just waiting for final numbers from my guests to shore up the details. I have appointments with the vendors I need to make final decisions for. I'm good to go. So WHY can't I focus on the one thing that scares me the most about this wedding? Why can't I put more energy into the weightloss project I care so much about?
I will. Starting Monday. Yes, that sound like a HORRIBLE, typical fat-girl statement ("I'll start tomorrow, again"). But that's the plan. Meanwhile - the goal is damage control.
So, I'm actually really excited about Monday. Odd, because this is a holiday weekend. I'm flying out tomorrow evening with Erik to see my family, my dad's new home, my brother & his kids and wife, and of course my mom. But I'm looking forward to Monday - the day after we get back. Why?
Because I start back at Boot camp.
And I REALLY start my countdown to the wedding.
Why can't I start now, you ask? Did you read the paragraph above about family gathering this weekend? It will be tremendous fun, but I have absolutely ZERO will power around my family. We eat. That's what we do. There's always food, and it's always good.
The one saving grace I should have is that my dad just moved to a place right on the Lake of the Ozarks, and has a boat we can waterski behind. I was a killer waterskiier when I was a kid (with some scars to prove it). I skiied about 5 years ago here in GA and maybe once since, but haven't really gotten to do it much as an adult. I know I'm going to suck. But I'm confident I will be able to get UP. More than my brother can do, apparently. :-) I determined to show him up.
So that'll be some exercise. Hopefully more swimming will be done as well so I can burn some of the bajillion calories I will be consuming this weekend.
Then Monday?
DUM DUM DUM
It's official wedding crunch time! I'm back to boot camp at 5:00 am every morning. Back to writing down EVERYTHING I eat. Back to eating Body for Life-style. And, with the exciting exception of our bachelor/bachelorette weekend in Savannah - I'm back to NO ALCOHOL. Zip. Zero. I mean, I can go 8 weeks without it, right? Especially since I'll get a no-regrets exception in Savannah. I can DO this.
I got my dress last Friday. I was actually a little disappointed. I still LOVE the dress. But since I've stopped the boot camp, I've not been feeling so hot about myself, and the pounds are creeping back on. The dress fit - no worries there - but I wanted it to be loose. I wanted it to be falling off. And although it fit, it kind of pushed up my chest in a way that didn't exactly make my boobies look big - which is what you'd assume and wouldn't be so bad - but made my upper chest/sholder area look poofy. Odd to describe, I know, but it's something that weightloss and strength training will help. I just need to get back on it.
So, I've given myself the next 5 days. Not to go crazy, but to enjoy my last bit of "freedom" food wise. After that, I've got to be committed. I can still conceivably be under 200 for my wedding - a goal I've always had. Of course I'd love to be 'at goal' but that's not going to happen now. I'll be satisfied with under 200. That's about where I was when I met Erik. It'd be appropriate. I can DO it. Right?
Other than the weight issue, wedding planning has been surprisingly easy. I know I know, I just jinxed myself, but sheesh - should I be stressing about details by now? I keep checking my little "checklists" available all over the web, and I'm right on track. Everything that should be booked/planned is done. Just waiting for final numbers from my guests to shore up the details. I have appointments with the vendors I need to make final decisions for. I'm good to go. So WHY can't I focus on the one thing that scares me the most about this wedding? Why can't I put more energy into the weightloss project I care so much about?
I will. Starting Monday. Yes, that sound like a HORRIBLE, typical fat-girl statement ("I'll start tomorrow, again"). But that's the plan. Meanwhile - the goal is damage control.
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