I'm so not ready to have kids.

Last WI: 215.4/At home WI: 214.6

THURSDAY

Well, it's been a crazy couple days. Tuesday night Erik had Daniel, but he put him down about 9:00 and came to bed and crashed out. I turned the light off about midnight and went to sleep. About 2:00 am I woke up to find that Daniel had come downstairs and crawled into bed with us. Now this is the 3rd time in a week that he's done this and I let the other two slide for various reasons. This time I wasn't going to let it because I don't want this to become a habit. Now, Daniel's mother lets him sleep with her. I know this. She's a single mom and I think she enjoys having him close. That's fine and all for her, but I think it's a bad habit, that 4 year-olds should sleep in their own bed and Erik and I have agreed on this. So about 2:00 am, I got up, picked up Daniel and put him in his own bed. He immediately started crying saying he couldn't sleep by himself. I told him he needs to go to bed or he'd get a spanking. He went. For about 3 minutes. I'd gotten back into bed and just a minute later, he comes down the stairs again. This time I wake up Erik to help - it's his kid after all. So he does. And for the next 3 AND A HALF HOURS we fight with the kid. We put him down, he gets up. We threaten to take away privileges, he gets up. We take away the privileges, he gets up. We spank him, he gets up. Truly from 2:00 am til 5:30 am we fight with this kid. We don't know what else to do. Finally he crashes out, after much crying at 5:30. I'm still expecting him to come back down though so I can't get back to sleep. Finally after Erik gets up at 6:30 to take him to school and go to work, I get back to sleep - till 8:00 when I have to go to work. All in all - 3 1/2 hours sleep. Needless to say Wednesday sucked. And I am SO not ready to have kids.

I had appointments at 9:00, 9:30, and 1:00 that I had to keep. After that though I bailed out and went home to sleep from 3:00 till 6:00. At 6:30 Erik calls on his way home to say he wants to go out and play poker. The game starts at 8:30 and its 20 minutes from our house. I had planned to go to the gym. (15 minutes away). So I figured I'll do what I can. I changed and jumped in the car. I got to the gym at 7:00 did 15 minutes on the elliptical then headed home, showered and was ready to leave the house by 8:00. Not the best workout but at least I did something.

Yesterday morning (after the night from hell with Daniel) my scale showed 214.2. A shock - I guess I earned some APs going up and down the stairs all night. This morning it was a little up. Not too surprising. Although I was "ok" yesterday I did eat at the bar we went to last night. No alcohol - so that's something - but I did have a prime rib sandwich, small salad, and a cookie from a plate of them my friend ordered (bad girl - tempting me!).

I had thought I might have to settle for a "maintain" this week, but it looks like I might see a loss (finger's crossed). At the beginning of the week the goal was to hit 214.0 or lower, but now I'd just like to see as close to 214 as possible. I'll probably see something in the mid-214's. Not bad. Just have to kick butt this week.

Which shouldn't be hard. No big plans for the weekend. I'm planning on trying to get in 6 miles. We do not have Daniel so at least we'll get some sleep. :-)