One Week Recommitted!

At home weight: 215.4 (yeah!)/Last WI 220.4

THURSDAY

Ok - so I survived my first week of recommitment! I WI (weigh in) this afternoon and I'm excited. I know I will have a loss, it just a question of how much. Now - a note on the above stats - My "at home weight" is always first thing in the morning, after I pee and before I get dressed - naked weight. I like to see the "lowest possible" and be consistent. So - there's no way my official WI at WW will be near that number b/c 1) it's in the afternoon and I'll have had breakfast and a lot of water, and 2) I have clothes on (duh!). BUT - I can hope that it will be only about 2lbs higher than the "at home weight" which would put me at a 3lb loss! That said, I'm happy with anything at or above a 1.5lbs loss. :-) I'll know soon!

Yesterday I was so good. I left work early for the dentist and some errands and was planning on going to the gym, but I was very tired and finishe everything around 3:00 so i had 2 hours before Erik got home with his son (has his son on Wednesdays) so I decided to take a nap and then work out. After the nap I really didn't feel like going to the gym, or doing anything exercise-wise. But I also kept thinking about how lazy I was being and basically made myself miserable with guilt. Finally I told myself that I can be guilty all night and not happy or just suck it up and go for a run outside (weather was beautiful again!) and then feel good. I selected option B. I sucked it up and went for a walk/run on my 3 mile route.

Again, I wasn't able to run the whole way. It took me 35:33 to go the 3 miles and I'm estimating running 23 minutes running and 12 minutes walking. So it's getting better. Part of the way I could get myself to go out and do the run though was to give myself permission to walk. I think part of my mental block on running outside is my disappointment on not being able to go as far. But, by giving myself permission to walk as much as I want, it got me out the door. Once moving, I end up running most of it to get it over with. Mental tricks - but they work.
After the run, I had a healthy egg sandwich and some green beans for dinner and then snacked on some ff chips and light dip in front of the tube.

Overall I had 31 points - plus the 5 AP from the run - it was a good day. :-)

As for other upates I'm worried about this weekend. We're having a big St. Pantty's day party tomorrow night. I'm in charge of green jello shots. :-) I'm making them tonight and I did buy the sugar free jello. :-)

But there will be lots of other alcohol consumed. I had planned to leave work at noon tomorrow to meet my friend who's house the party is at and finalize preparations, but I'm thinking about taking the whole day off to try to get up and exercise before all the debauchery. Then at least I don't feel AS guilty.

On a journaling note. I'm not sure if I've posted this yet, but I've made myself a challenge - I WILL journal for 12 weeks straight. Now. That's a HUGE challenge and I know I'm going to go off program at least once, probably multiple time b/w now and then. But the vow is to journal anyway - good bad or ugly. When I committed again last week, I bought a new 12 week journal. I'm going to try to get it completely filled. I'm trying to think up a really good reward if I do it b/c that would be an amazing feat. My experience is that if I'm journalling, I'm staying mostly if not completely OP. And if I had a bad day, if I journal it, it makes me atone for it the next day. Keeps me from falling too far astray for too long. So, today is day 7 of my 84 day challenge. I have a long way to go but it's a start. Thursday's are always going to be tough b/c after WI I like to let myself indulge a bit. I'm still going to let myself, but plan to write it all out afterwards.

Now, a note on my WI day ritual. Everyone seems to have one. Mine is this - wake up and weigh myself (as usual) put on my WI day pants and tank top (with a removeable sweater if it's cold). Go to chick fil a and have 2 breakfast items - a burrito and chicken minis - 2 burritos - something like that. A HUGE breakfast, but it has to tide me over till after WI at 5:00. Then I chug water and d. coke (my addiction) until 12:00 or 12:30. Then I quit and don't eat or drink anything else. Right before WI I go pee of course, then WI and cross my fingers (having shed everything but the bare essentials (no watch, ear rings, socks, belt, ponytail holder, etc.).
It's really pathetic the ritual, but we're supposed to be consistent, so I try to be. Of course, sometime the scale shocks me and I'm not sure why the results are so far off what I expected based upon that morning's weight, but usually it's within 1.5-2.5lbs of morning weight.

Hopefully today will be no different! It's time to fast until after WI.

Wish me luck!